‘Well done!’ said several, enjoying the last word, as being the
first
and only one they had recognized.
Then Jude seemed to shake the fumes from his brain, as he stared
round upon them.
‘You pack of fools!’ he cried. ‘Which one of you knows whether I
have said it or no? It might have been the Ratcatcher’s Daughter* in
double dutch for all that your besotted heads can tell! See what I
have brought myself to––the crew I have come among!’
The landlord, who had already had his license endorsed for har-
bouring queer characters, feared a riot, and came outside the coun-
ter; but Jude, in his sudden
flash of reason, had turned in disgust and
left the scene, the door slamming with a dull thud behind him.
He hastened down the lane and round into the straight broad
street, which he followed till it merged in the highway, and all sound
of his late companions had been left behind. Onward he still went,
under the in
fluence of a childlike yearning for the one being in the
world to whom it seemed possible to
fly––an unreasoning desire,
whose ill judgment was not apparent to him now. In the course of an
hour, when it was between ten and eleven o’clock, he entered the
village of Lumsdon, and reaching the cottage saw that a light was
burning in a downstairs room, which he assumed, rightly as it
happened, to be hers.
Jude stepped close to the wall, and tapped with his
finger on the
pane, saying impatiently, ‘Sue, Sue!’
She must have recognized his voice, for the light disappeared from
the apartment, and in a second or two the door was unlocked and
opened, and Sue appeared with a candle in her hand.
‘Is it Jude? Yes, it is! My dear dear cousin, what’s the matter?’
‘O, I am––I couldn’t help coming, Sue!’ said he, sinking down
upon the doorstep. ‘I am so wicked, Sue––my heart is nearly broken,
and I could not bear my life as it was! So I have been drinking, and
blaspheming, or next door to it, and saying holy things in disreput-
able quarters––repeating in idle bravado words which ought never to
be uttered but reverently. O, do anything with me, Sue––kill me––I
don’t care! Only don’t hate me and despise me like all the rest of the
world!’
‘You are ill, poor dear! No, I won’t despise you; of course I won’t!
Come in and rest, and let me see what I can do for you. Now lean on
me, and don’t mind.’ With one hand holding the candle and the
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