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how dreadful it would be if
I
became an addict, fur me to feel that I


had already become a fairly confirmed addict. (I am very susceptible to
other people's suggestions. When people say to me, "You really
shouldn't spend this money, but
I
suppose you will anyway . . ." I have
the strange illusion that I would be going against expectations and
somehow doing wrong unless I spent it. I invariably spend all the
money immediately.) My uneasiness over having become an addict
actually made me seek more of the drug.
"I beg you! One more box. I promise I'll pay you at the end of the
month."
"You can pay the bill any old time as far as I'm concerned, but the
police are very troublesome, you know."
Something impure, dark, reeking of the shady character always
hovers about me.
"I beg you! Tell them something or other, put them off the track. I'll
give you a kiss."
She blushed.
I pursued the theme. "I can't do any work unless I have the
medicine. It's a kind of energy-builder for me."
"How about hormone injections?"
"Don't be silly. It's liquor or that medicine, one or the other. If I
haven't got it
I
can't work."
"You mustn't drink."
"That's right. I haven't touched a drop of liquor since I began with
that medicine. I'm in fine physical shape, thanks to you. I don't intend
to go on drawing stupid cartoons forever, you know. Now that I've
stopped drinking and have straightened myself out, I'm going to study.
I'm sure I can become a great painter. I'll show you. If only I can get
over this critical period. So, please. How about a kiss?"

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