With a plunging heart, I realized it wasn’t Shams he was truly angry at. It was my father.
Aladdin was angry at my father for not loving him enough and for being who he was. My father could
be distinguished and famous, but he had also been utterly helpless in the face of the death that had taken
our mother at such a tender age.
“They say Shams put a spell on our father,” Aladdin said. “They say he was sent by the Assassins.”
“The Assassins!” I protested. “That is nonsense.”
The Assassins were a sect famous for their meticulous killing methods and extensive use of poisonous
substances.
Targeting influential people, they murdered their victims in public,
so as to plant fear and
panic in people’s hearts. They had gone as far as leaving a poisoned cake in Saladin’s tent with a note
that said
You are in our hands. And Saladin, this great commandeer of Islam who had fought bravely
against the Christian Crusaders
and recaptured Jerusalem, had not dared to fight against the Assassins,
preferring to make peace with them. How could people think Shams could
be linked with this sect of
terror?
I put my hand on Aladdin’s shoulder and forced him to look at me. “Besides, don’t you know the sect is
not what it used to be? They are barely more than a name now.”
Aladdin briefly considered this possibility. “Yes, but they say there were three very loyal
commandeers of Hassan Sabbah.
They left the castle of Alamut, pledging to spread terror and trouble
wherever they went. People suspect that Shams is their leader.”
I was starting to lose patience. “God help me! And could you please tell me why a Hashshashin would
want to kill our father?”
“Because they hate influential people
and love to create chaos, that’s why,” Aladdin responded. So
agitated was he by his conspiracy theories that red blotches had formed on his cheeks.
I knew I had to handle this more carefully. “Look, people say all sorts of things all the time,” I said.
“You can’t take these awful rumors seriously. Clear your mind of spiteful thoughts. They are poisoning
you.”
Aladdin groaned resentfully, but I continued nonetheless. “You might not like Shams personally. You
do not have to. But for Father’s sake you ought to show him some respect.”
Aladdin looked at me with bitterness and contempt. I understood that my younger brother was not only
cross with our father and infuriated at Shams. He was also disappointed in me. He saw my appreciation
of Shams as a sign of weakness. Perhaps he thought that in order to earn my father’s favor, I was being
subservient and spineless. It was only a suspicion on my part, but one that hurt me deeply.
Still, I could not get angry at him, and even if I did, my anger would not last very long. He was my little
brother. To me he would always be that boy running after street cats, getting his feet dirty in rain puddles,
and nibbling slices of bread topped with yogurt all day long. I couldn’t help seeing in his face the boy he
once had been, a bit on the plump side and a tad short for his age, the boy who took the news of the death
of his mother without shedding a tear. All he did was to look down at his feet as if suddenly ashamed of
his shoes and purse his bottom lip until its color was gone. Neither a word nor a sob had come out of his
mouth. I wish he would have cried.
“Do you remember the time you got into a fight with some neighboring kids?” I asked. “You came home
crying, with a bloody nose. What did our mother tell you then?”
Aladdin’s eyes first narrowed and then grew in recognition, but he didn’t say anything.
“She told you that whenever you got angry with someone, you should replace the face of that person in
your mind with the face of someone you love. Have you tried replacing Shams’s face with our mother’s
face? Perhaps you could find something to like in him.”
A furtive smile, as swift and timid as a passing cloud, hovered over Aladdin’s lips, and I was amazed
at how much it softened his expression.
“Perhaps I could,” he said, all anger draining out of his voice now.