legged skaters, kneeling parents and toddlers careering
like drunks, always just ahead of me, tight-lipped, hurrying
nowhere. Me trying to catch up, grab her arm. She stopped
finally, gave me a face unmoved as I explained myself, one
mental finger tamping down my exasperation: ‘Amy, I don’t
get why I need to prove my love to you by remembering the
exact same
things
you do,
the exact same
way
you do. It
doesn’t mean I don’t love our life together.’
A nearby clown blew up a balloon animal, a man
bought a rose, a child licked an ice cream cone, and a
genuine tradition was born, one I’d never forget: Amy
always going overboard, me never, ever worthy of the effort.
Happy anniversary, asshole.
‘I’m guessing –five years – she’s going to get
really
pissed,’ Go continued. ‘So I hope you got her a really good
present.’
‘On the to-do list.’
‘What’s the, like, symbol, for five years? Paper?’
‘Paper
is first year,’ I said. At the end of Year One’s
unexpectedly wrenching treasure hunt, Amy presented me
with a set of posh stationery, my initials embossed at the
top, the paper so creamy I
expected my fingers to come
away moist. In return, I’d presented my wife with a bright red
dime-store paper kite, picturing the park, picnics, warm
summer gusts. Neither of us liked our presents; we’d each
have preferred the other’s. It was a reverse O. Henry.
‘Silver?’ guessed Go. ‘Bronze? Scrimshaw? Help me
out.’
‘Wood,’ I said. ‘There’s no romantic present for wood.’
At the other end of the bar, Sue neatly folded her
newspaper and left it on the bartop with her empty mug and
a five-dollar bill. We all exchanged
silent smiles as she
walked out.
‘I got it,’ Go said. ‘Go home, fuck her brains out, then
smack her with your penis and scream, “There’s some
wood for you, bitch!”
We laughed. Then we both flushed pink in our cheeks
in the same spot. It was the kind of raunchy, unsisterly joke
that Go enjoyed tossing at me like a grenade. It was also
the reason why, in high school, there were always rumors
that we secretly screwed. Twincest. We were too tight: our
inside jokes, our edge-of-the-party whispers. I’m pretty sure
I don’t need to say this, but you are not Go, you might
misconstrue, so I will: My sister and I have never screwed or
even thought of screwing. We just really like each other.
Go was now pantomiming dick-slapping my wife.
No, Amy and Go were never going to be friends. They
were each too territorial. Go was used to being the alpha
girl
in my life, Amy was used to being the alpha girl in
everyone’s life. For two people who lived in the same city –
the same city twice: first New York, now here – they barely
knew each other. They flitted in and out of my life like well-
timed stage actors, one going out the door as the other
came in, and on the rare occasions when they both
inhabited
the same room, they seemed somewhat
bemused at the situation.
Before Amy and I got serious, got engaged, got
married, I would get glimpses of Go’s thoughts in a
sentence here or there.
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