(Maryam 19: 4)
In the beginning of the surah is
Zakariyyā
(
ʿalayhi al-salām
) who’s reaching
old age—
innī wahana al-ʿaẓm minnī
—he says literally: ‘My bones are getting
weak and they are rebelling against me’. This ‘
min
’ is
min al-tabʿīḍ
. You know
in modern medicine when the bones and the joints aren’t as strong as they used
to be, and people feel the arthritis or whatever in their joints, this is literally what
he is talking about. It takes him a while to make
rukūʿ
; it’s not easy for him to sit
down. Young men, they get up and down without a problem; but when your
bones become weak, and if you see an old man or an old woman take a seat, it
takes them a while to sit down. They can’t just sit down. It takes them a while to
get out of bed they can’t just spring out of bed like young guys. Some young
people fall out of bed and then get up, no problem. But when an older person
whose bones have become weak falls; they end up in the ER. It’s very serious
for them. So he senses the weakness in his bones, that’s where this conversation
with Allah begins:
innī wahana al-ʿaẓm minnī wa-shtaʿala al-ra’s shayban
—and
my hair is like a fire went on my head and all that’s left is ash. Ash is grey and
white, so he looks at his head and says, ‘My head used to be black and now it’s
just white, that’s all that’s left’. There is a saying in Arabic:
shaybuka nāʿīk
—
that you’re greying hair or your whitening hair is the alarm of your death. In
other words every time you look at your grey hair, it’s one more hair towards,
one more step towards death.
So he begins the
duʿā’
by talking about his frailty— he’s gotten very old. He
realizes he’s close to death and then he says something. I won’t even tell you
about his
duʿā
s, it’s his attitude towards
duʿā’
. He says:
wa-lam akun bi-duʿāika
Rabbi shaqiyyā
—I have never, ever been miserable, I have never been in a bad
mood, I’ve never been unhappy calling you. Whenever I ask you, I’ve always
been happy. I’ve never had depression when I’ve made
duʿā’
to you. That’s
what he is saying looking back at his entire life. By the way, this is the man who
doesn’t have a child. He’s old, he’s got grey hair now, he’s about to die, his
bones are weak, and one of the sad things in an old man’s life is that he has no
one to carry his name. So you can imagine this is not the first time he’s making
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