Aladdin
KONYA, FEBRUARY 1246
Besieged with anticipation, for the last three weeks I have been waiting to find the right moment to ask my
father for Kimya’s hand in marriage. I have spent many hours talking to him in my imagination, rephrasing
the same sentences over and over, searching for a better way of expressing myself. I had an answer ready
for every possible objection he could come up with. If he said that Kimya and I were like sister and
brother, I would remind him that we were not bound by blood. Knowing how much my father loved
Kimya, I was also planning to say that if he let us get married, she would not have to go and live
anywhere else and could stay with us all her life. I had everything worked out in my mind, except I
couldn’t find a moment alone with my father.
But then this evening I ran into him in the worst way possible. I was about to leave the house to meet
with my friends when the door creaked open and in walked my father holding a bottle in each hand.
I stood still, agape. “Father, what is it that you are carrying?” I asked.
“Oh, that!” my father responded without the slightest trace of embarrassment. “It’s wine, my son.”
“Is that so?” I exclaimed. “Is this what has become of the great Mawlana? An old man blasted on
wine?”
“Watch your tongue,” came a sulky voice from behind me.
It was Shams. Staring into my face without so much as a blink, he said, “That is no way to talk to your
father. I’m the one who asked him to go to the tavern.”
“Why am I not surprised?” I couldn’t help smirking.
If Shams was offended by my words, he didn’t show it. “Aladdin, we can talk about this,” he said
flatly. “That is, if you don’t let your anger blur your vision.”
Then he cocked his head to one side and told me I had to soften my heart.
“It’s one of the rules,” he said. “If you want to strengthen your faith, you will need to soften inside.
For your faith to be rock solid, your heart needs to be as soft as a feather. Through an illness,
accident, loss, or fright, one way or another, we all are faced with incidents that teach us how to
become less selfish and judgmental, and more compassionate and generous. Yet some of us learn the
lesson and manage to become milder, while some others end up becoming even harsher than before.
The only way to get closer to Truth is to expand your heart so that it will encompass all humanity and
still have room for more Love.”
“You stay out of this,” I said. “I’m not taking orders from drunken dervishes. Unlike my father, that is.”
“Aladdin, shame on you,” my father broke in.
I felt an instant and potent pang of guilt, but it was too late. So many resentments I thought I had left
behind came flooding back to me.
“I have no doubt you hate me as much as you say you do,” Shams proclaimed, “but I don’t think you
have stopped loving your father even for a minute. Don’t you see you are hurting him?”
“Don’t you see you are ruining our lives?” I shot back.
That was when my father lunged forward, his mouth set in a grim line, his right hand raised above his
head. I thought he was going to slap me, but when he didn’t, when he wouldn’t, I felt even more uneasy.
“You shame me,” my father said without looking at my face.
My eyes welled with tears. I turned my head aside and suddenly came face-to-face with Kimya. How
long had she been standing there watching us from a corner with fearful eyes? How much of this squabble
had she heard?
The shame of being humiliated by my father in front of the girl I wanted to marry churned in my
stomach, leaving a bad taste in my mouth. It felt like the room was spinning all around me, threatening to
collapse.
Unable to stay there a moment longer, I grabbed my coat, pushed Shams aside, and dashed out of the
house, away from Kimya, away from all of them.
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