lightness over eyes. I don’t usually feel dizziness; odd feeling that persisted while I was working for about
17 to 18 minutes. Sensation as though aware of lightness inside my forehead and going down into my eyes;
it started to dissipate when I was writing it down and intensified while I was talking about it. NS
A hazy sensation – as though drugged. Similar to the feeling years ago when I was prescribed diazepam.
Persisted until about 3.30pm. Every so often a hazy feeling settles over my head and eyes, feeling I might
not be in control. I’m not comfortable with it; if I had woken up with it I would have thought I had too much
Heat, concentrated on the right hand side of my back from the waist up into my neck and down the back of
my right arm, lasted about 20 minutes. A sensation as though the sun was shining on me, while standing in
Heat sensation returned after about 10 minutes, but was restricted to torso and arm – from waist to
Heat, the sensation progressed down the right side.
Bleeding haemorrhoids. Constipation – tearing sensation in anus. I have had haemorrhoids for 28 years but
have never before had so much difficulty passing a stool which resulted in more bleeding than I have ever
experienced. Worse for sitting, better for hot shower. Stool unusually hard, could not get out, and had to
Dull ache across sacrum, worse sitting. Have had lower back/gluteal pain before but this is a dull ache and
generalised over the whole area. AS
Dull discomfort – as though diarrhoea might be onsetting – backing up into stomach. Could be due to
haemorrhoids and the trauma of this morning. Feel uncomfortable and lethargic. The abdominal discomfort
and pain in the back went after eating lunch.
Like a lump under my sternum. About an hour after eating lunch (tuna and crackers) the lump started and is
better for burping. NS
Burning, stitching, worse sitting. Raw fissures still from yesterday, haemorrhoids soft but protruding after
stool. Not constipated now, but still hurts, stinging.
Very embarrassed by this development. I feel like a crock; the many symptoms are unnerving.
Still discomfort, lump, burning, nausea. Not better or worse for eating – food is actually not my favourite
thought, although I did manage to eat breakfast. Worse thought of food. Even my kick starter orange juice
was not as enjoyable. I can’t say I’m sick, but not 100%.
Stone, lump in pit of stomach, worse eating.
Constipated. Usually go as soon as I get up – I have the urge, but nothing has happened yet – could be
anticipating pain? I might be constipated, I’m nervous about going, I’m anxious about it, after the last
experience. I don’t feel so stupid now I spoken to someone about it. I wasn’t sure the symptoms were from
the remedy, it all happened so fast.
Still stone, lump in pit. Worse eating. Passed a stool about midday but the sensation is still there. Dry
stool, feels like it wasn’t complete, I don’t feel super-dooper. I feel like the lumpy sensation will go when I
flush the system so to speak; this has thrown my evacuation out. Flat.
The sensation of a lump in my gut has gone.
Pain, stitching, after stool. Usual pain that I get when my haemorrhoids are playing up – after stool –
stinging for about 20 minutes until they settle.
Pain / ache. Worse swallowing. Just a vague ache in my throat on the left-hand side. Like a slight bruising
in the soft palate, ache in the back of my throat.
Fullness, worse eating, better eructation. This full feeling is radiating to my chest/breasts on both sides like
a dull ache.
Thirst for cold drinks. Usually I am not a thirsty person – drank large quantities of cold juice. Drinking
glasses of water or fruit juice two at a time.
Woke up with pimples over left eyebrow. Don’t usually get pimples these days – these are very small. Not
really noticeable but I can feel them with my finger and they are touch sensitive.
Feeling lethargic, depressed – due to the death of a friend’s father. Like I was carrying round a grey cloud,
which lifted in the evening, when friends came round for dinner.
Dull ache. Have been rushing around this morning, pain slight.
Dull ache. I am becoming absent-minded doing odd things – because I am distracted. Started to feel
nauseous and a bit vacant with it.
Lump, worse eating.
Seems to be a constant since taking remedy – bowel habit has changed as to time and texture –
haemorrhoids have settled back to normal. Now have knotty stools that come later in the day.
Depressed. Apprehensive, wondering whether the symptoms are gone or if they’ll be back tomorrow.
Cheerful, happy. I think I’m finally through it.
I began to feel as if I was drugged, very weary in the middle of the afternoon. Eyes felt as if they were fixed
and starey. Very heavy. Sort of vacant feeling. Had to be very careful driving. Lasted 8 hours. Relieved
Stabbing pain in the left occipital region while driving. Lasted approximately 20 seconds.
Eyes very sensitive to glare. Had to squint all day.
Began to regurgitate my dinner. Worse bending down. Acidic taste with whole food pieces at least 3 hours
after eating. Happened 5 times over a 3 hour period. No flatus, but some burping.
Abdomen feels very heavy centrally. Feels as if something is stuck. Not like usual “too full” bloating. It was
as if the food was caught at the top of the stomach and couldn’t go any further. No pain as such, just very
heavy. Relieved by sleep.
Woke up with a painful sensation in my right shoulder tip and upper arm. Pain shot down to elbow on
pressure. Repeated several times during the day.
Unheard of hesitation at commencement of stream, and then poor and protracted stream. Once only.
Numbness and tingling down whole extent of left arm. Went down outer surface of upper arm, and then
seemed to go under to the ulna side. Heel of hand, ring and little finger on left side were also numb and
tingly. Intermittent episodes, lasting 15 minutes at a time.
Pain in whole left arm, commencing in upper arm and extending downwards. Worse abducting the upper
arm. Like a boring pain in the bone. Lasted on and off for some hours. Not relieved by any
Pain became lodged in left mid humerus. Like an ache now – heavy and dull. Can put two fingers over the
spot. Worse abducting the arm. Not relieved by any position/movement.
Violent movement accompanied by loud noise in transverse colon on and off for 2 hours. Followed by
explosive dark fatty stool.
Tingling in little finger of right hand while driving. Lasted 15 minutes.
Feel exhausted, drained, yawning a lot. Eyes feel poppy/starey. Want to lie down and shut my eyes. Lasted
Small hard burning red pustules in each axilla, worse for movement and worse for body heat. Existing skin
tags in right axilla became enlarged and swollen. Several existing flat brown crumbly moles on the nipple
line of the right distal thorax increased in size markedly. Very unpleasant prickly sensation. Burning.
Lasted for 3 days.
Sudden and acute stabbing and burning pain in one of the enlarged moles on the side of the right thorax.
Mole seems to have grown more. Top of mole crumbled and came off when rubbed. Bled for a short while –
Existing large flat mole on inner/upper right thigh very itchy. Bleed on scratching. Bleeding stopped with
Woke up in a bind about competing priorities for the day. Head felt dull and heavy in the whole frontal area
on waking. Developed into a full blown headache within 3 hours which was centred on the occipital region,
relieved by constant hard pressure of the hand over the site. Nauseated, but headache relieved slightly by
food. After 5 hours pain escalated and I was unable to function properly. Wanted to vomit but couldn’t.
Took analgesic without effect. Gradually improved with distraction, but came back full strength at the end of
A shooting current-type sensation on the left side of my lower jaw bone a few minutes after taking the
remedy. It travelled from the underside towards my teeth.
I feel drained of energy. I just want to go and lie down.
While lying down thinking about the remedy and what to write in the book I felt a quivering shaking
sensation inside my torso, and while I am writing it extends along my arms and hands.
I was at college talking with someone, and in the background some students were experimenting. They had
some containers with baby snails in a liquid. I went over to them to have a look, somehow coming in contact
with the snails. They turned out to be some sort of parasite. I looked down at my hand and arm which was
bandaged up and I saw these parasites inching up my arm toward my head. I tore off my clothes and
managed to get rid of them. I woke up terrified.
Became cold on my arms and legs.
While sitting in my car waiting for someone I was thinking about the previous hour with my counsellor.
Among other issues we talked about the proving and my sensitivity and I told him I didn’t like the effect the
remedy was having on me. He asked my why I was doing it a second time and I told him I was doing it
because it felt incomplete. What I’m trying to get at is that I disregarded my feelings about the remedy and
was prepared to make myself suffer again because I’m not used to listening to the more subtle and sensitive
aspects of myself.
After speaking with my supervisor and she said I shouldn’t take any more of the remedy I felt a great sense
of relief. I was happy not to take the remedy any more.
Tingling on top of the head lasting about 20 seconds immediately on taking the remedy.
Tingling lasting about 20 seconds immediately on taking the remedy. Had to answer the phone briefly, and
then tingling changed to a needle-like sensation on both cheek bones.
I was cooking up a huge pot of salt and looking for utensils in my flat mate’s cupboard. Anxious about being
late for therapy.
While driving home from my lover’s home I drove through a red light.
While driving to a friend’s place I felt very light headed and relaxed, almost as if I was stoned. As soon as I
walked into her place the feeling disappeared, I think due to the smell of new paint.
Playing chess with a longtime friend. We made some sort of deal that whoever set up their pieces first wins.
I was getting my pieces on quicker than him, and he was trying to slow me down. All the time we were
laughing uncontrollably like we were stoned, and I was trying to keep a straight face.
While asking the universe for 20 minutes sun while sunbaking something landed on my left shoulder,
fluttered about briefly and left a wet patch.
In bed with an ex-boss trying to show them how to do things. I’m getting frustrated because they don’t
I’ve been fishing. Five fish were caught. I’m sitting at the dinner table with my family and I’m dishing out
the fish. Each member chooses one fish.
7.30am. I felt constriction, in inner centre of chest, with the impulse to cough, slight dry cough, <
movement, lasted 30 secs. I was surprised because this was completely new. NS
8.30am. I felt a slight wheeze in the chest on inspiration. It lasted 30 secs. Never had this before. NS
Morning, I felt clear, relaxed and grounded till 1.00pm, it was a complete change. NS
2.15pm. I felt very sleepy, and actually slept in my car parked in a busy street for an hour and a half. I felt
very refreshed, revitalised, relaxed. NS
5.00pm. I had a slight wheeze on the in breath like in the morning, lasting 30 secs the same. NS
5.30pm. I wasn’t very hungry but had a great desire for “special” food so I got a bruchetta and an Italian
pastry, ie desire for a “treat”. Usually I have sensible healthy food. NS
11.30pm. Belching, almost always at this time dropping off to sleep. OS
11.45pm. I was dropping off to sleep lying on my right side. I had a swirling sensation very pleasant for
about ten minutes, then I turned over to the left side and I saw with my eyes closed a purple light about the
size of a 20 cent coin, in a kind of scratchy pattern like purple neon but brighter, for two minutes. I was
shocked and thought, that’s it, I have to stop taking that remedy. NS
7.30am. I had a slight wheeze on the in breath like Day 1, lasting 30 secs the same. NS
1.00pm. I noticed when I was at the gym on the exercise bike that my pulse rate stayed at 75 for much
longer than usual. It took 5 minutes longer than usual to reach 120 which is my usual pulse when taking
aerobic exercise. NS
2.30pm. Sneezed six times loudly. No discharge. NS
3.30pm. I coughed a few times, dry slight (wussy) cough; this is new for me. NS
Slept well and was refreshed, OS; no belching. NS.
7.30am. Slight cough again but with a small amount of clear, watery phlegm. NS
7.45am. Slight cough again the same, brought on by movement; feeling of subtle constriction in the chest,
ie subtle so the feeling is on the edge of physical or emotional, it’s hard to tell which. NS
Afternoon. Felt relaxed, a bit spaced out, lazy. NS
Slept well and was refreshed, RS; no belching NS.
Saturday. Got up at 10.30am, felt very relaxed, did gardening instead of study, felt optimistic and happy /
5.30pm. Slight cramp passing stool, slightly constipated; usually I pass stool when I get up in the morning.
9.30pm. I had sniffles, and slight watery discharge enough to blow my nose; this lasted about 10 minutes;
it might have been like an allergy symptom. NS
I was sitting on a bench with some other people; maybe we had to wait for something; next to me on the
bench I had a purse or small bag; it was very plain and undecorated (unusual for me in real life) with a zip. A
man came and took things probably money out of the purse. I did not do anything to stop him or defend
myself. Later I realised it was Christopher Skase. I think this dream relates to a work problem where my
employer (a management committee of 13 people) is trying to negotiate with the workers to reduce pay and
conditions. I found this dream funny; it was more curious than disturbing. NS
Sunday morning Just rested, could not be bothered doing anything; by the afternoon felt very relaxed. NS
Afternoon. Felt clear, energetic, grounded, optimistic. Put off doing study. NS
4.00pm. Six loud violent sneezes one after the other. NS
6.00pm. My appetite has returned to normal, I’m hungry with desire for wholesome food. RS
8.00pm. I noticed a very sore spot on the top back of my head where there is a kind of groove; it was sore
like a bee sting, also like a bruise say in a peach, the sensation that my finger would just sink though the
skull. If I did not touch it, it did not hurt. However rubbing it was better in that the pain also gave relief (like
pain in a massage), ie > for pressure. The pain was still there slightly when I woke up next morning, then it
went completely after I got up. NS
8.30pm. Belching, empty, lasted on and off until I went to sleep. RS
I am by myself in a small empty square room. The room is a cube, light and airy, like a sacred space; it is
perfectly symmetrical and pure, the surfaces and clear, it is austere and perfect, clinically clean. The light in
the room is luminous without a light source. There is one window, not exactly a window you can open but a
rectangular panel of clear glass also very clean. I am facing the window. Then I see a young woman looking
in; she is about 20 with fair hair and blue eyes, healthy, middle class. The frame of the window defines her
from the head to the abdomen like a portrait. At the sight of her I am absolutely terrified and wake up. NS
(Comment: I have a lot of issues in my life relating to young women, ie my two younger sisters and my four
nieces as well as young women generally particularly at work both co-workers and clients. I feel like I have
to provide for them, ie be a role model or help them tangibly. Either they see me as their mother or they fall
in love with me; either way it’s a burden for me. As soon as I resolve one of these relationships, another
appears the same. Later in the week I ran into one of these young women who recounted to me that she had
had a dream in which I had gone away; she was a bit anxious about it and asked in reality if I was really
For some reason and Christmas I take a month off work and instead work for a month in a warehouse owned
by Filipino people. I am really looking forward to this. They are really warm and friendly to me. The boss is a
Filipino man aged about 40; he is very pleasant. But later in the dream is a red headed kind of pirate aged
about 45, ie probably with tatoos and a lot of experience of raw life. At one stage I am with a group of these
people and we are walking together, I am carrying a child, a girl, blond aged about one year; she is probably
the daughter of the boss. As we walk she gets heavier and heavier. We are in a kind of stony area near
water (a landscape like Kakadu). She keeps wriggling and then she actually falls into the water. I jump in
and rescue her; luckily she is alright. Everyone is very worried about it. I am just relieved she is safe. NS
(Comment: I did not have any big emotions in this dream, it was just curious).
11.30am. Again I had sense of sensitivity in the inner middle chest with a slight cough and wheeze; it
lasted about 10 minutes. NS
4 to 6.00pm. Sleepy, so I went and got some coffee; instead of waking me up, it made me more sleepy. NS
6.00pm. Sneezed twice with a stuffed nose, the right nostril was blocked; this lasted 10 minutes. NS
10.00pm. Belching, lasted till I went to sleep at midnight. RS
The full moon, usually I am a bit “hyper” and restless, but this time I feel tired and sleep well undisturbed.
7.00am. Slightly more urgent and the stool more mushy than usual. NS
7.00am. I had a dry cough and feeling of subtle tightness in the chest; it lasted a few minutes and came and
went throughout the morning. NS
9.00am. Sharp pain on the right rib cage on the bone just to the side of my right breast, sensitive to touch
and better for rubbing, very unusual. Size of the area of pain was the size of my thumb, very localised. It
lasted till midday. NS
10.00am. Strong jerking twitch 3 times in close sequence in the right hand in the flesh, the web, between
the thumb and index finger, strong enough to jerk the index finger visibly sometimes. Twice in the left hand
also (but not left and right together). It happened the same about every hour for the morning and a couple
of times in the afternoon. I remember now it also happened once or twice on Day 3 but never before that.
I am visiting my mother (who has dementia in real life); she is in an institution in a kind of communal ward
which is spacious and airy with other people in beds also. I go to make a cup of tea and I see the brick work
in the wall is a bit buckled with water trickling out. I am a bit concerned about this but there is nothing I can
do about it. Then I go out with a group of people; we are in some kind of very beautiful idyllic wilderness
area; there are mountains with rainforest, beaches and sea with breakers, the colours are vibrant and
remarkable, like colours in a rainbow; it is pristine and unspoiled. I can see vistas of landscape into a great