I was anxious generally about the proving, ie fearful of having a bad experience long term, also concerned
about fulfilling responsibilities properly. Ultra relaxed, more optimistic, positive, not as driven.
Attitude to people, Spent more time with people socialising.
Attitude to work not so driven, when tired I did not push myself procrastinated in getting to tasks.
Managing stress and problems. I was involved in some stressful events at work including a very stressful
meeting on Day 2. However I recovered peace of mind much quicker than usual.
I got very involved (emotionally) in the plight of the asylum seekers on the Tampa, the political responses
and the long term implications.
Energy levels, high, sexuality: day dreaming, and flirtatious feeling.
Here are some ideas on themes of melaleuca.
From the experience of the provers ... I notice short sharp bursts of anguish seen as irritation in the mentals
and as neuralgic pains in the physicals... that pierce periods of general well-being. There are no deep states
like a feeling of abandonment or self-destruction or chronicity in physical pathology?
And looking at doctrine of signatures the melaleuca withstands fire.
The latin name of the genus describes the bark appearance perfectly –black (mela ) for the fire scars and
white (leuca) for the papery bark. The bark is formed by hundreds of thin layers of papery bark which acts as
insulation for the living trunk of the tree during fires. The bark can be stripped off like cork without damaging
the tree and was one of the most important resources for Aborigines, who used it for shelter, containers,
cooking and many other uses.
You see it in the wetlands, it grows in small forests, ie communities or colonies. Out of its habitat, one
example is in the Everglades in Florida where it is out of control. When attacked by slashing or poisoning or
fire it just proliferates. In fact a melaleuca beetle is being introduced to help control it in the Everglades.
According to A B & J W Cribb Wild Food in Australia 1975, Australian aborigines used melaleuca blossoms
soaked in water to sweeten it with the honey, and also crushed the leaves in water as a drink to cure coughs
Riley, T. The antimicrobial activity of tea tree oil. RIRDC Project No. UWA-24A published in Uniview,
University of Western Australia, May 1994.
Rowe, J. Technical Consultancy Services Pty, Ltd. TCS Paper: Formulating for Effect.
Southwell, I. RIRDC Project No. DAN-104A - Significance of cineole for the bioactivity and irritancy of tea
tree oil. NSW Agriculture, Wollongbar Institute.
5 Riley, T. RIRDC Project No. UWA-51A – Skin sensitivity testing for tea tree oil –second stage. University
of Western Australia, Dept of Microbiology.
Journal and Proceedings of the Royal Society of New South Wales, V56.1922. pg 219. From
Journal and Proceedings of the Royal Society of New South Wales, V59.1925. pg 346. From
Belaiche, P. Phytotherapy, No. 15, September pg 12-14. From
Bassett et all, Medical Journal of Australia, V153, pg 455-458, 1990. From
Beccaro, D. MA. Vet Hum Toxicol 1995 Dec;37(6):557-8, Dept of Pediatrics, Children’s Hospital and
Medical Centre, University of Washington, Seattle.
Jacobs,MR, Hornfeldt, CS. J Toxicol clin Toxicol 1994;32(4):461-4. Melaleuca oil poisoning. Hennepin
Regional Poison Center, Hennepin County Medical Center, Minneapolis.
Villar, D. et al. Vet Hum Toxicol 1994 Apr;36(2):139-42. Toxicity of Melaleuca oil and related essential oils
applied topically on dogs and cats. National Animal Poison Control Center, University of Illinois.
Plants for a Future, The Field, Penpol, Lostwithiel, Cornwall, PL22 0NG, UK.
I got up for a minute, feeling apprehensive. 2:6c:00:04:xx
I was feeling restless and over-stimulated all day. I had emotional outbursts, slammed the door, shouted at
my students. I took a while to get to sleep. Everything was strong - my usual tinnitis, the heartbeat and the
emotional affections. 2:6c:04:05:xx
I had this cramping in my legs and feeling so emotional lately, strong emotional outbursts, anger and tearful
really upset about things. One of my students - I shouted at her and slammed the door. I've never done this
to a student before, but I was so offended and angry. What's the point of teaching anyone who doesn't love
music? I said, “you're playing Mozart like it's a math's problem or like you're taking out the garbage”. It
made me offended and physically sick. Why do I bother? I've also had anxiety and panic attacks and an
anxious feeling in my heart, the hairs have been prickling on my head, tired and apathetic, anxiety, irritable
and palpitations. 2:6c:xx:xx:xx
Morning I felt clear, ultra relaxed and grounded till 1.00pm, it was a complete change. NS 3:6c:xx:x4:xx
Afternoon. Felt relaxed, a bit spaced out, lazy. NS 3:6c:x2:x6:xx
Saturday. Got up at 10.30am, felt very relaxed, did gardening instead of study, felt optimistic and happy /
euphoric. NS 3:6c:x3:x3:xx
Sunday morning. Just rested, could not be bothered doing anything, by the afternoon felt very relaxed. NS
Afternoon. Felt clear, energetic, grounded, optimistic. Put off doing study. NS 3:6c:x4:xx:xx
4 to 6.00pm. Sleepy, so I went and got some coffee, instead of waking me up, it made me more sleepy. NS
3.00pm. Restless, feel spaced out, like I'm about to get 'flu, slight headache, lazy. NS 3:6c:x7:xx:xx
During the day generally. Relaxation, felt clear and grounded, things normally I would be upset about or
worry about for quite a while, I got through quickly. NS 3:6c:x8:xx:xx
Shock at the news from the US, lasted all day. I felt very upset about people suffering all over the world. RS
Recovered from shock (the disaster and world events) quicker than usual. AS 3:6c:15:xx:xx
Woke up at 5.00am feeling mentally very alert. I felt energised, and that I could get up for my usual swim.
It is very unusual for me to feel like this on a Thursday, especially with 5 hours sleep. NS. 4:6c:xx:x7:xx
Noticed that I was being very patient with children and in a variety of different situations in which I would
not usually be. 4:6c:xx:18:xx
While being very patient with my children – 10.00pm - I was irritable with my husband, and noticed the
return of my resentment of his presence in bed (it was beginning again!!!) (Won't give me the space to do
private work alone! RS 4:6c:x1:xx:xx
When I went to bed and when I lay down the vibrations from this morning started again through my full
trunk but then localised in the heart and chest. They lasted until I fell asleep. 4:6c:x1:x1:xx
Felt flexible and irritation was short lived. Able to do appropriate interventions with kids and pull back from
irritation which I felt very positive about. I had walked and felt better for it - more relaxed and able to go
with the flow. (I'm usually better for exercise). 4:6c:x1:18:xx
I woke with a stiff neck (both sides and into shoulders). Unable to resettle and this was aggravated by
husband's snoring and feeling the vibrations through the mattress. Went to a different room to sleep. RS
Also had a dull headache deep in the head but also noticed it in the frontal area and temples. 4:6c:x2:x5:xx
Almost a sense of being driven; mental processes very fast, good memory. NS 4:6c:x2:x7:xx
I was very tired at 9.30pm. Almost asleep when husband called me to answer phone from supervisor -
irritated with husband for waking me. Found it difficult to return to sleep - took about 30 minutes. Helped by
the noise of the TV and radio. 4:6c:x3:xx:xx
Continuous sleep until 5.30am, sound, deep. Then woken by urge to urinate but unable to go back to sleep
due to husband's snoring. Had to move beds. Although I felt alert I decided not to go for my normal swim.
Fell back to sleep and when I awoke later 8.00am, I had difficulty rising. It took 30 minutes to get up, ( felt
dull). Second sleep was unrefreshing. 4:6c:x3:x8:xx
Had to deal with a lot of child tardiness and me-centredness (with the children) this morning. At loggerheads
but retained cool and thought of some creative reframing solutions of the situation. Stayed focussed and
stood my ground firmly and calmly; really proud of myself. This was my mental state for most of the day.
Noticed that for the past few days (on reflection) I have had trouble with making more errors that usual with
typing (mixing up the letter of words that are easy and I usually spell/type well). Also am making more
mistakes like stick and thicky (for thick and sticky) when reading aloud or went expanding abbreviations into
whole words. NS 4:6c:x6:xx:xx
At College I found it difficult to concentrate. My mind would wander and ruminate on what a bad person I
was (depressed). Its all too hard, there is too much to learn and to do. I just want it to stop. I was unable to
stay focussed on the meditation for 5 min. I found myself crying and feeling sad but I didn't want anyone to
see. NS 4:6c:x6:xx:xx
Associated with the depression and difficulty focussing was the need to sit apart from the group at college. I
chose to sit behind and out of the circle. Big need to be alone. 4:6c:x6:xx:xx
I'm pissed off nothing's happened. I was very excited beforehand, but not much happened. I didn't like the
remedy. I went to bed. I felt comfortable in my body but not comfortable; it's hard to articulate, it's like a
dead calm. I can't sleep when I feel like that. I can hear my insides pulsing, everything is pulsing and
vibrating. I'm aware of this constant vibration in my body, the hair on my head stands up, it happens when
I think about the universe and how lucky I am. 1:6c xx:x1:xx
While driving home from my lover’s home I drove through a red light. 1:6c:00:19:50
While driving to a friend’s place I felt very light headed and relaxed, almost as if I was stoned. As soon as I
walked into her place the feeling disappeared, I think due to the smell of new paint. I immediately felt bright
and perky. I was a bit upset because the whole thing (proving) was ruined, and my stash (of proving
substance) was anti-doted. 1:6c:00:20:25
I began to feel as if I was drugged, very weary in the middle of the afternoon. Eyes felt as if they were fixed
and starey. Very heavy. Sort of vacant feeling. Had to be very careful driving. Lasted 8 hours. Relieved
by sleep. 11:6c:01:03:00
After speaking with my supervisor and she said I shouldn’t take any more of the remedy, I felt a great sense
of relief. I was happy not to take the remedy any more. 23:30c:01:02:15
Woke up slowly and melancholy. Feel separated from the world and from those close to me. Need to go
somewhere peaceful and switch off. Very strong feelings - close to tears. 12:30c:xx:xx:02
Very depressed. Lowest I have been for a long time. Swinging from high to low. 12:30c:xx:xx:04
Very unhappy at work and feel my life is out of balance. 12:30c:xx:xx:06
Don't know if it was due to the remedy, but felt slightly scattered, hard to focus on the computer. I also found
myself looking at something then knowing I needed to go and get another folder to look something up but I just
sat there not moving. Mind developed a spaciness, the body did not respond to the thought, a delayed response.
Lasted about 15-20 minutes. NS 5:30c:x1:x1:15
Left wallet in the office. Did not notice until I was on the bus. 5:30c:x1:x7:xx
Restless with less concentration. Random, unrelated, unremembered thoughts entered mind. 5:30c:x1:10:25
Mental restlessness continued though less intense. 5:30c:x1:11:20
I feel much more mellow about stuff - relaxed. I thought I had posted a quick deposit envelope at the post
office instead of at the bank - I just laughed. (Note - Since the proving process started, she has been
getting to work late and leaving early and feeling ok about it). NS 6:30c:00:02:17
I feel really unmotivated to do anything. 6:30c:00:07:25
I just can't be bothered doing anything. I get up and walk around forgetting what it was that I got up for. I
guess I am confused. I have so much to do, but wander around wondering what to do. 24:30c:00:00:05
I feel "dazey". I walk around, I can't be bothered. Confused. So much to do but what should I do now?
Couldn't be bothered going to gym today (unlike her). Dozed in bed until 9am "like sleeping while awake".
Lacks direction 24:30c:00:00:05
Got given remedy by supervisor; held it in my hand through the whole break. Talking to K felt really stoned,
like I am losing my mind. Spacey feeling over whole body; all of a sudden feel hot and sweaty.
Feel confused, can’t think, get paranoid when I cant find what I am looking for, > for urination, always >
Feeling like I am sitting here in a heap; normally I sit very straight. Feel like I could melt into the floor. Feel
really soft, can’t sit up in chair. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx
I left college moaning and groaning feel like I am getting a cold, feeling stoned, just want to have a
cigarette. Went home, didn’t tell anyone, don’t want to hassle anyone. “ I am a good girl”. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx
I want to bite my fingernails, I have certainly never wanted to bite my fingernails ever before.
Fear mixed with, can I do it, how much I have to do tomorrow, thought I just want someone to care for me
then start laughing hysterically. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx
Have to feel my face to make sure I am still me and I have not just become body or thoughts, I am still me.
I feel afraid, have to get rid of the remedy, pulled a destiny card in the car, it said courage. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx
I wake up feeling shocking, generally better for meditation. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx
Feel depressed, sad, cold shivering. 8:30c:xx:x:1:15
I feel completely exhausted which was preceded with a feeling of happiness, dancing, smiling to myself.
I felt very sad by looking at the clock seeing it move, watching my daughter jump off a chair knowing it was
all going to change. The sadness is incredible, time changes and eventually everything is going to change, so
sad. This was a strange clear lucid experience. 8:30c:xx:x4:05
People seem strange; looking at them in the coffee shop I can’t see them, can’t see their inner life.
Sadness as a background for the rest of the evening 8:30c:xx:x9:46
Clumsy more than usual, I dropped a forty-dollar bottle of essential oil, and it broke my heart too. I had a
tantrum, swore, broken gone, sad, it will never be the same. 8:30c:xx:17:46
I felt really happy and joyful; fifteen minutes later feel down. 8:30c:x1:xx:xx
Sad just sad, maybe an aggravation of my own symptoms so sad I could cry, what is it all about?
Sitting in supervisor’s office feeling sad biting on one of my nails. I do not bite my fingernails.
Irritable, impatient. Feels like I just got another dose from waiting for slow J at the college. “Let’s get out of
here, you’re so slow”. 8:30c:x1:x8:xx
I want to bite my fingernails and I go through both hands twice muttering to myself, “Oh my god”. NS
I feel very strange possessed by something else maybe just getting my menses. 8:30c:x1:15:xx
11.00am. Feel well at the moment, quite myself; period has gone back to my normal experience of a period.
I am thinking how slim, fragile and beautiful everybody is except for me; normally this is not something that
upsets me. My girlfriend pointed this out to me, - “I have never heard you talk like this”. I’m this big
square/rectangle, woodchopper from Europe. How come I’ve never noticed this before? NS
I felt like my head was cone shaped, got sick of doing the proving. NS 8:30c:x4:xx:xx
Felt as if “not fully there”; on the way to work I felt “in my head a bit” and I was not paying attention. My
mind wandered; drifting off sort of thing, “a spacey feeling”. 9:30c:X1:13:xx
Having difficulty working. I start something and then forget what I was about to do. I then stared blankly for
a while thinking about what is next. Feeling tired. I feel disrupted and can’t concentrate. 9:30c:X1:20:xx
He expressed desire to spend time alone from his girlfriend [obs]. 9:30c:x2:xx:xx
I have a lot of work to get through and feel overwhelmed by the amount. It is not normal for me to feel so
anxious about workload. Feel frustrated. 9:30c:x4:xx:xx
A hazy sensation – as though drugged. Similar to the feeling years ago when I was prescribed diazepam;
persisted until about 3.30pm. Every so often a hazy feeling settles over my head and eyes, feeling I might
not be in control, I’m not comfortable with it; if I had woken up with it I would have thought I had too much
wine yesterday. NS 10:6c:xx:05:55
Very embarrassed by these developments. (Note - She said, “I feel like a crock, it’s unnerving”, referring to
the many symptoms). 10:6c:01:24:xx
7.38am. Took first dose of remedy. Did a meditation. Image. Almost immediately the image of deep forest
green trees and snow covered land. Hilly, coming down to a stream. It was all very clear. I saw snow and
was aware of the silence and the way snow blankets and deadens noise. I could hear the stream water. It
was an incredibly pristine environment and very, very peaceful. After 15 minutes the images were still there.
It was a daytime image. There was a sense of Canada about it. This seemed an unusual image for me as
most of my nature images are summer oceans, gardens and night. I felt separate from my usual self. Also
felt very calm, especially as I’ve been really agitated lately. Felt close to tears. I’m a bit numb. Also very
Calm and tired. All day felt extremely calm. Mind not agitated at all. A bit tired too, almost as if drugged.
Immediately after taking the remedy I felt the combination of calmness and tiredness. Almost as if drugged.
Delusion - a small black thing moves from the corner of the room. This happened 4 or 5 times in the space of
half an hour. Have had this type of thing before but previously it was always the delusion of a spider. This
was like it was a bigger object. 7:30c:xx:14:15
Sometime after that became aware of rushed anxious feeling. Have lots to do today to get organised before
going away overnight. Feel anxiety about being disorganised with all the “jobs” I need to do. 7:30c:x1:x2:xx
I've been ultra relaxed since I took the remedy, but respiratory symptoms and a dry cough and watery
mucous in my throat, a pleasant swirling feeling and I saw a purple light. 3:30c:xx:xx:xx