Homeopathic proving
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People being friendly. Since taking remedy lots more people seem to be smiling as I walk past them. When away on Sunday people stopped to chat at beach - men, women and children. 7:30c:x2:xx:xx Self-containment. Since taking remedy feel good within myself. Driving back from up the coast I really felt the beauty of the sunset, listening to Marion Woodman tape. I thought of the endless possibilities life has to offer and how the Buddhists say we should be totally in the moment and always ready for death at any second. Part of this self-containment is feeling more adult. Also relief that J is no longer around. I feel free again. 7:30c:00:x2:10:xx Calmness and self-containment. Began in the afternoon and continued into the night. 7:30c:x4:x7:xx Have been waking last couple of mornings feeling malaise over world events. Like in the movies where people toss and turn with words and images echoing around them. Consciously decided not to listen to radio except minimum to know what's going on. Too many thoughts with current tensions - too pervasive. 7:30c:x6:xx:xx S11 General sense of well-being in self. Realised I have felt this quite a bit since taking the remedy. 7:30c:x6:12:xx Going to college on Saturday morning the idea came to my mind that even as non-indigenous Australians we are linked to the land and the wide open skies - and what a different sensibility to Europe with all the weight of visible history in buildings whereas Australia's history is all in the land. Strong sense of this is my place/land here. Most comfortable in it. 7:30c:x8:x1:xx Well-being. Feelings of well-being have continued. Felt liberated at the choice of not working and coming to Banerji seminar. Something I wouldn't normally do because of the pay I'd miss out on. 7:30c:x8:x1:xx 35 I've been ultra relaxed since I took the remedy, but respiratory symptoms and a dry cough and watery mucous in my throat, a pleasant swirling feeling and I saw a purple light. 3:6c:xx:xx:xx Everything is pleasant, pleasant sleep, pleasant sensations. I've been seeing lights, luminous. I've been dealing with stress very very well. 3:6c:xx:xx:xx Morning. I felt clear, ultra relaxed and grounded till 1.00pm; it was a complete change. NS 3:6c:xx:x4:xx Felt relaxed, a bit spaced out, lazy. NS 3:6c:x2:x6:xx Got up at 10.30am, felt very relaxed, did gardening instead of study, felt optimistic and happy / euphoric. NS 3:6c:x3:x3:xx Just rested, could not be bothered doing anything; by the afternoon felt very relaxed. NS 3:6c:x4:xx:xx Felt clear, energetic, grounded, optimistic. Put off doing study. NS 3:6c:x4:xx:xx During the day generally. Relaxation, felt clear and grounded, things normally I would be upset about or worry about for quite a while, I got through quickly. NS 3:6c:x8:xx:xx Recovered from shock (the disaster and world events) quicker than usual. AS 3:6c:15:xx:xx S11 Pleased with ability to solve the dilemma of kid drop-off because of change in work arrangements, by not worrying about being late (which is usually a very big constraint on my actions). 4:6c:x4:x9:xx I am a little dull and slow, but okay to function. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx All day - felt calm and alert. Not feeling pushed by time constraints. Was assertive in meeting with strangers, but not aggressive (when trying to clarify the position). Did have a sense of satisfaction about being right on a crucial aspect of the issue being discussed. (I would have liked a little more acknowledgement for my insights which I didn't get). Missed the girls (children) today - felt really warm thinking about them. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx Sleepy, so I went and got some coffee, instead of waking me up, it made me more sleepy. NS 3:6c:x5:xx:xx Driving home I felt really positive and warm, thinking about the kids and family generally. In a better mood, able to relate well and warmly and well to husband. Expansive sensation to my psyche. 4:6c:x7:xx:xx Firm, clear, balanced with children. 4:6c:x7:xx:xx Had more energy and interest in work. Able to cope better. 4:6c:x8:xx:xx A few crises at work and I needed to cope and be flexible and on the ball, juggling and fitting in - did this well, calmly. was competent. 4:6c:x8:xx:xx All day - felt really good - calm and had energy. Lots of need to be flexible and most of kid care on my shoulders, but am not feeling worn out by it. Even responded positively to daughter asking for a visitor. Most of the time I'm so in need of space that I respond negatively to that request, ( at least in my mind I do). 4:6c:x9:xx:xx I feel much more mellow about stuff - relaxed. I thought I had posted a quick deposit envelope at the post office instead of at the bank - I just laughed. (Note - Since the proving process started, she has been getting to work late and leaving early and feeling ok about it). NS 6:30c:00:02:17 Restless Restless, feel spaced out, like I'm about to get 'flu, slight headache, lazy. NS 3:6c:x7:xx:xx Mental restlessness continued though less intense. 5:30c:x1:11:20 Energized/Driven/Impatient 36 I've noticed that overall, generally post-remedy taking, that I've been energised and driven. I get a lot done, and am able to keep going. I retain a lot and deal with problems well. Thoughts are more about balance in life and about positive aspects of duty to family. I'm more child and husband centred again. Its been a long time and never with both husband and children at the same time. NS 4:6c:xx:xx:xx Woke up at 5.00am feeling mentally very alert. I felt energised, and that I could get up for my usual swim. It is very unusual for me to feel like this on a Thursday, especially with 5 hours sleep. NS 4:6c:xx:x7:xx Noticed that I was being very patient with children and in a variety of different situations in which I would not usually be. 4:6c:xx:18:xx Felt expansive! able to cope with others needs, not feel pressured by time. Supportive of friends. Noticed writing has become larger and clearer.4:6c:x8:xx:xx Vibrations When I went to bed and when I lay down the vibrations from this morning started again through my full trunk but then localised in the heart and chest. They lasted until I fell asleep. 4:6c:x1:x1:xx Irritation Felt flexible and irritation was short lived. Able to do appropriate interventions with kids and pull back from irritation which I felt very positive about. I had walked and felt better for it - more relaxed and able to go with the flow (I'm usually better for exercise). 4:6c:x1:18:xx I woke with a stiff neck (both sides and into shoulders). Unable to resettle and this was aggravated by husband's snoring and feeling the vibrations through the mattress. Went to a different room to sleep. RS - Also had a dull headache deep in the head but also noticed it in the frontal area and temples. 4:6c:x2:x5:xx Almost a sense of being driven;. mental processes very fast, good memory. NS 4:6c:x2:x7:xx I was very tired at 9.30pm. Almost asleep when husband called me to answer phone from supervisor - irritated with husband for waking me. Found it difficult to return to sleep - took about 30 minutes. Helped by the noise of the TV and radio.4:6c:x3:xx:xx Continuous sleep until 5.30am, sound, deep. Then woken by urge to urinate but unable to go back to sleep due to husband's snoring. Had to move beds. Although I felt alert I decided not to go for my normal swim. Fell back to sleep and when I awoke later 8.00am, I had difficulty rising. It took 30 minutes to get up, ( felt dull). Second sleep was unrefreshing. 4:6c:x3:x8:xx Had to deal with a lot of child tardiness and me-centredness (with the children) this morning. At loggerheads but retained cool and thought of some creative reframing solutions of the situation. Stayed focussed and stood my ground firmly and calmly, really proud of myself. This was my mental state for most of the day. 4:6c:x3:11:xx All day. Even under pressure I am calm and able to think of solutions which are appropriate and about the best things for children, husband as well as self. I am able to let go of the "should" that have ruled my motivation for such a long time and the pressures of the external environment. I used to place the needs of others high and subordinate the needs of myself and family to these, but I'm more balanced and objective now. There seems to be more time to do things as a result. I am also more able to express myself when faced with someone I feel is very powerful. Calm, focussed and clear-thinking. 4:6c:x4:xx:xx Started to feel irritated with the kids for not listening or doing just what they wanted to instead of following instructions - still managed not to feel over-the-top or to go ballistic as I have done in the past. Burnt the dinner and started to blame the kids. I just went spare and lost it. I was tired!!! Following that I felt disappointed with myself and there was an emerging sense of sadness and guilt. RS 4:6c:x5:xx:xx I needed space and had a strong aversion to company. Asked the kids to leave me alone so I could write this journal up! Startled when the phone rang - I wanted more time to write and think. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx 37 I resented my husband for going to bed first. I wanted the bed for myself for a while. I thought he was settled in front of the TV. In bed he was snoring softly but I was still aggravated by it. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx Very depressed, sad, I want to be alone and to stay home. I feel dull and just want to protect my space!!! Everything feels too much and I just want to take care of me. I'm very disappointed with myself. OS I just want to go back to bed away from people for the day. NS I'm wondering if I'm very sensitive? 4:6c:x6:xx:xx Noticed the door to the room in which there were a large number of people was closed. I felt stuffy and like I would suffocate but I was unable to rise and to open the door; something kept me from doing it. I hoped someone else would get up and open the door. I was very panicked at the closed room. This lasted for about 5 - 10 minutes and then I didn't noticed the feeling any more. NS 4:6c:x6:xx:xx Dumped on the kids for not doing what they were asked to do and for being tardy to leave. I implied they were responsible for my lack of performance in class tests (even though they're not, and I do well) - felt unprepared for College this week. I don't like this state of irritation with the kids. 4:6c:x6:xx:xx Gave kids to husband - I want to go to bed - I want to be alone - it still took another 90 minutes to get there. Sensitive to movements and noise; when daughter came into bed, asked husband to deal with her in her room - needed to be alone. 4:6c:10:xx:xx Felt really ambivalent, like something bad would happen (sense of foreboding), like the depression might return again. Forced self to go for a swim, (felt though that I might be too tired and that that would make things worse, but it made it better!). Dreading work - its too much. 4:6c:11:xx:xx Irritable. Kids at my craft lesson with me - I don't really get space to do my stuff while they're there and I am feeling particularly agitated by them. I can't focus. 4:6c:11:xx:xx Alert. Came home from craft. Unable to settle easily and had to watch TV. 4:6c:12:xx:xx I was okay for most of the day, but after lunch I started to yawn and feel very tired. It was difficult to stay awake in counselling session with clients. Felt eyes rolling back in head; they desperately wanted to close. 4:6c:12:xx:xx Ambivalent - had thought of going for a walk (8km) but ambivalent. When I got home and hadn't done this book and needed to ring coordinator felt I'd do that; then I became annoyed about those things getting in the way of the walk - so I did it after all!!! Walked fast and felt better. 4:6c:12:xx:xx Handled a child tantrum well. 4:6c:12:xx:xx Have been very child focussed - now I'm very very tired but had planned to do college work to finish off for the holiday - annoyed that I didn't do it, but contained it and decided to do it on Thursday instead. 4:6c:12:xx:xx Irritable and shout at kids about their shouting, swearing, rudeness and general unco-operativeness. The noise aggravated me. For the first time I actually told them that there were more important things than their squabbles about the soap in the shower. Clear that there need to be changes and actively worked on them. Able to pull back and also make changes to my behaviour when I felt it was a bit excessive. Looking at instigating more predictability about consequences. 4:6c:14:xx:xx Lost it momentarily with oldest daughter - she was oppositional and that set me off. Did move situation along - only momentarily out-of-control. 4:6c:x8:xx:xx Assertive with husband about my needs and didn't get distracted by his moving off the issue. 4:6c:x9:xx:xx Easily irritated, tired. Worse for noise. Feeling very tired. Noise of the boys playing computer games has been very annoying! I am often irritated, but this seemed more than usual. 20:01:13:xx Very depressed. Lowest I have been for a long time. Swinging from high to low. 12:30c:xx:xx:04 Very unhappy at work and feel my life is out of balance. 12:30c:xx:xx:06 38 I’m a bit run down obviously. Haven’t had [a] herpes for ages. Although I’m tired I’m very relaxed, in spite of all the pressure. Normally would be panicking and getting cranky and irritable. 17: xx:xx:xx Very frazzled, cranky with kids, getting worried about assignment due Sunday. Thoughts crowding together. Not clear head. < Being busy. 17: xx:xx:xx Exhausted and fed up. Everything is too much. 17: xx:xx:xx Quite good, but slightly irritable. 17: xx:xx:xx Woke up having dreamt again. Unfortunately can’t remember what it was about except that there was water in it and it was quite threatening. Also quite cranky with T because he was up so early and was a pain all day long. All day was angry at him. Resent him making everything so bloody difficult. He really spoilt the park opening with his tantrums. I abused him verbally which is very unusual. 17: xx:xx:xx Alone/fraud Associated with the depression and difficulty focussing was the need to sit apart from the group at college. I chose to sit behind and out of the circle. Big need to be alone. 4:6c:x6:xx:xx Asking myself am I a fraud? Is what I'm reporting accurate? Maybe I'm polluting the proving? Found my mind wandering in the lecture - I was missing lots of info. I hate myself and I'm feeling very black. Found myself unconsciously just stroking my arms and face with my hands which felt soothing (very unconscious action). Feel I'm really letting the family down. NS 4:6c:x6:xx:xx Unmotivated/Dazed I feel really unmotivated to do anything 6:30c:00:07:25 I felt depressed for 5 mins. I felt as though I wasn't in control of everything that I needed to be, eg self and work. (Note - Said she was worried about the college and life in general. Like a cloud. Talked herself out of it). 6:30c:07:00:00 I just can't be bothered doing anything. I get up and walk around forgetting what it was that I got up for. I guess I am confused. I have so much to do, but wander around wondering what to do. 24:30c:00:00:05 [I feel "dazey". I walk around, I can't be bothered. Confused. So much to do but what should I do now? Couldn't be bothered going to gym today (unlike her). Dozed in bed until 9.00am "like sleeping while awake". Lacks direction]. 24:30c:00:00:05 Cold/Sad/Fingernails/Anger Left college moaning and groaning; feel like I am getting a cold, feeling stoned, just want to have a cigarette. Went home, didn’t tell anyone, don’t want to hassle anyone. “ I am a good girl”. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx I want to bite my fingernails. I have certainly never wanted to bite my fingernails ever before. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Fear mixed with, can I do it, how much I have to do tomorrow, thought I just want someone to care for me then start laughing hysterically. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Have to feel my face to make sure I am still me and I have not just become body or thoughts. I am still me. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx I feel afraid, have to get rid of the remedy, pulled a destiny card in the car, it said courage. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx I wake up feel shocking, generally better for meditation. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Feel depressed, sad, cold shivering. 8:30c:xx:x:1:15 I feel completely exhausted which was preceded with a feeling of happiness, dancing, smiling to myself. 8:30c:xx:x2:05 39 I felt very sad by looking at the clock seeing it move watching my daughter jump off a chair knowing it was all going to change. The sadness is incredible, time changes and eventually everything is going to change, so sad. This was a strange clear lucid, experience. 8:30c:xx:x4:05 People seem strange looking at them in the coffee shop. I can’t see them, can’t see their inner life. 8:30c:xx:x4:50 Sadness as a background for the rest of the evening. 8:30c:xx:x9:46 Everything is happening on a background of sadness, I'm so sad, I can just cry. I'm more clumsy then usual, people seem strange. I'm chewing my fingernails and I've thrown a tantrum like a child, I'm a small girl. It's been like a tornado this proving; this substance hit me and hit all of my systems. I've been feeling so much nausea and so sad, looking at my discouraging life, I don't want to waste my energy, there's something happening for me which is about courage. The sadness is about the fact that I'm not right here, not right now, presently living my life, it feels like I'm softening, I've also been furious with my daughter; my daughter looked at me and said "sometimes I don't think you're the right mother for me". 8:30c:xx:xx:xx I'm very fearful of this remedy; I just want to flush it down the toilet. I felt as if I was stoned, as if I was getting a cold. Nausea and grumbling in my tummy and paranoia. I started biting my fingernails. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx I need someone to look after me. I had to feel my face to ensure I'm still me. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Ugly/Fat Return of old symptoms, suicidal ideation and depression, completely lost the plot with my children. I feel black, heavy, heaviness in my chest and trembling inside; it's not a nice sensation, shaking in my arms and fingers, I'm really disappointed in myself. I need solitude, I burnt the dinner, leave me alone, I resent my family, my husband, I need solitude, self loathing, I'm ugly and fat. 4:6c:xx:xx:xx Intellectually it's so hard to concentrate; my mind is wandering and I keep thinking what a bad person I am, tearful, I am a fraud, I'm letting everyone down, my self esteem is awful, should I even be here, maybe they're better off without me, who would miss me, I feel desperate, crying. I told my husband "it's all your fault" and everything seems completely insurmountable. 4:6c:xx:xx:xx I am thinking how slim, fragile and beautiful everybody is except for me; normally this is not something that upsets me. My girlfriend pointed this out to me – “I have never heard you talk like this.” I’m this big square/rectangle, woodchopper from Europe. How come I’ve never noticed this before. NS 8:30c:x4:xx:xx I felt like my head was cone shaped; got sick of doing the proving. NS 8:30c:x4:xx:xx I have more balance, I'm more objective. I seem to be able to be as objective as I once was. I haven't been like this for years, especially with my children; now I can be balanced and objective, calm, no irritability, I'm starting to even miss my children. The anger that I have with my husband, the anger that I get with my children, the indifference to my family is completely gone, the anxiety, the confusion, and unclarity and irritability that I have in my life is gone. 4:6c:xx:xx:xx I need someone to look after me. I had to feel my face to ensure I'm still me. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx I'm very fearful of this remedy; I just want to flush it down the toilet. I felt as if I was stoned, as if I was getting a cold. Nausea and grumbling in my tummy and paranoia. I started biting my fingernails. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx I felt really happy and joyful; fifteen minutes later feel down. 8:30c:x1:xx:xx Sad, just sad, maybe an aggravation of my own symptoms so sad I could cry, what is it all about? 8:30c:x1:x6:xx Sitting in supervisor’s office feeling sad biting on one of my nails. I do not bite my fingernails. 8:30c:x1:x6:xx 40 Irritable, impatient. Feels like I just got another dose from waiting for slow J at the college. “Let’s get out of here, you’re so slow”. 8:30c:x1:x8:xx I want to bite my fingernails and I go through both hands twice muttering to myself, “Oh my god”. NS 8:30c:x1:11:xx I feel very strange, possessed by something else; maybe just getting my menses. 8:30c:x1:15:xx 11.00am. Feel well at the moment, quite myself; period has gone back to my normal experience of a period. 8:30c:x2:x2:xx Angry slammed fist in to my wardrobe door, cried twice with my daughter and realized that I felt scared and confused as a child; remembered being scared of my father especially when he was angry. I was so angry I could have hit my daughter. 8:30c:x5:xx:xx Just talked to supervisor; made me feel like crying; feel very sad, helpless, don’t want help from others but need it. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Sadness, feel sad that life has its own rhythm and continuity whether I am there or not. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Talked to K in the break. It is exactly a week since I took the remedy and I was talking to K. Then I mentioned to her that I was over the proving and she says you seem to be really well and outgoing. Wow! We also talked about some personal stuff of K. And the word courage came up again like facing your own personal courage, or something like that. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Woke up with a cold and felt really pissed off, why me? why now? 8:30c:x7:xx:xx At one stage of the proving, I cleaned my bathroom, and I put tea tree oil in the cleaning water and I loved it; it smelt so clean and wonderful. NS 8:30c:x7:xx:xx Talked to A about the proving; tell K’s story; he also says you have been more friendly. Surprise to me. 8:30c:x8:xx:xx Talked to supervisor; still have a cold, husky voice; feel guilty for not having written in the book, had nothing to say. 8:30c:13:xx:xx Just spoke to supervisor; felt like a little girl; felt bad for not having done the writing down. 8:30c:13:xx:xx Wake at 7.30am feeling very very tired and heavy. It is hard to wake up. This feeling continues all day. 14:01.09.xx Not needing to participate in conversation with mothers at school. Happy to sit to the side and not feel out of things = unusual. 14:01.17.xx Major self-doubt attack over having made a big error with a student clinic patient. All day and through to next evening when I speak with my supervisor. I do manage not to completely annihilate myself. 14:03.12.xx [He expressed desire to spend time alone from his girlfriend]. 9:30c:x2:xx:xx I have a lot of work to get through and feel overwhelmed by the amount. It is not normal for me to feel so anxious about workload. Feel frustrated. 9:30c:x4:xx;xx Three lines of an Emenem song got stuck in my head: …………Christina Aguilera switch me chairs, so I can sit next to Carson Daily and Fred Durst, and hear them argue of who she gave head to first. Little bitch put me on Blast on MTV; “Yeah he’s cute but I think he’s married to Kim hee hee!” 9:30c:x6:xx:xx Feeling restless. Craving cigarette. Felt better after smoking. 9:30c:11:xx:xx Having a hard time taking in information during lecture. Found it too hard to process information to get it down on paper. My mind felt too slow. Gave up trying (unusual). Had a fit of yawning. 18:xx:xx:xx 41 Drugged A hazy, sensation – as though drugged. Similar to the feeling years ago when I was prescribed diazepam; persisted until about 3.30pm. Every so often a hazy feeling settles over my head and eyes, feeling I might not be in control, I’m not comfortable with it, if I had woken up with it I would have thought I had too much wine yesterday. NS 10:6C:xx:05:55 Very embarrassed by these developments. (Note - She said, “I feel like a crock, it’s unnerving”, referring to the many symptoms). 10:6c:01:24:xx Dull ache. I am becoming absent-minded doing odd things – because I am distracted. (Note - She said she started to feel nauseous and “a bit vacant with it.”) 10:6c:07:xx:xx Cheerful, happy, said, “I think I’m finally through it.” 17: xx:xx:xx Brain fag! Felt weird at school – like my brain was mush. Had spent all day studying - got better as class went on. By the time I got home I felt ready for class! I have had this feeling before, but not as intensely as this. 20:03:13:xx Other Incredible anger at unjustifiable criticism, speechless with anger. 21: xx:xx:xx I had a delusion that the dog had shrunk. 22: xx:xx:xx Symptom as if the sun is shining on my arm, on my shoulder from my waist to my neck and my arm and then to the back of my right leg and my buttock. I swear it is as if the sun is shining on my back.10:6c:xx:xx:xx End it Wanted it all to end. Phoned coordinator and discussed where to go and whether to antidote. Appointment cancelled at work and I had a sense of relief, there were less demands on me. I was able to cope a lot better after this with changes that occurred. I thought about taking care of myself and not filling the gap in my day. However did try to put in another appointment ( duty - other's needs placed higher than mine) but that didn't happen - what a relief. 4:6c:x7:xx:xx Sick of doing proving; sick of talking with J; want to have an antidote. [obs; 8 is agitated, frustrated, shitty, sighing lots, and doesn’t want to do this anymore]. 8:30c:x5:xx:xx Still sick of the proving I'm over it, (the proving) the note taking and the phone calls. I don't want to have to concentrate any longer!!! It hurts my head. I'm feeling very irritable about the work and the intrusion. 4:6c:x3:21:xx VERTIGO Light headed from standing up. This has been getting worse lately. 12:30c:xx:xx:03 Dizzy, nausea, faint, have to sit down > for walking by the sea. 8:30c:x1:13:xx Sitting doing some book work. Slight “dizzy” feeling, difficulty focusing when reading, better when writing, lightness over eyes. I don’t usually feel dizziness; odd feeling that persisted while I was working for about 17 to 18 minutes. (Note - She described this sensation “as though aware of lightness inside my forehead and going down into my eyes”; it started to dissipate when she was writing it down and intensified while she was telling me about it). NS 10:6c:xx:xx:10 HEAD Sinking/ Dull/Hazy/Tingling/Stabbing/Heat 42 I felt a sinking sensation in the head and chest, like a negative mood, a sinking of spirits on taking the remedy. 2:6c:00:00:00 As I felt the remedy permeate, there was the same sinking feeling. 2:6c:00:00:15 My brain and heart felt like they were connected, affected by a sinking feeling. I was slightly apprehensive for about a minute. 2:6c:04:05:xx A headache began at the superciliary ridge along the eyebrows. This also happened on the first dose but I thought it was unconnected. 2:6c:04:05:xx Headache still there in the background, though not so intense. 2:6c:04:09:xx I got dandruff, which I haven’t had for about twenty years. All through this time I have been having digestive problems viz. very sluggish process. I do have this cycle where nothing will happen for a couple of days, and then a few days of elimination. In this instance I couldn’t eliminate anything for a couple of weeks no matter what I did, what I ate. I attribute the appearance of dandruff to this blockage. Once I started eliminating, the dandruff went away. 2:6c:05:xx:xx An acute headache developed in the frontal region for about half an hour from 3 to 3.30. It was a sharp, pressive pain. 2:6c:05:xx:xx Quite a bad headache developed in the frontal region, accompanied by a sore throat. 2:6c:13:xx:xx Headache still there. Stayed home from work. 2:6c:14:xx:xx A hazy, sensation – as though drugged. Similar to the feeling years ago when I was prescribed diazepam; persisted until about 3.30pm. Every so often a hazy feeling settles over my head and eyes, feeling I might not be in control. I’m not comfortable with it; if I had woken up with it I would have thought I had too much wine yesterday. NS 10:6c:xx:05:55 Head – right temporal. Dull ache. Have been rushing around this morning, pain slight. NS 10:6c:07:xx:xx Head – right occiput. Dull ache. I am becoming absent-minded doing odd things, because I am distracted. (Note - She said she started to feel nauseous and “a bit vacant with it.”). 10:6c:07:xx:xx Tingling on top of the head lasting about 20 seconds immediately on taking the remedy. It was as if an electrical current passed through my forehead and around my upper head. Like when you are getting a headache, but it doesn’t happen. 1:6c:00:00:05 Stabbing pain in the left occipital region while driving. Lasted approximately 20 seconds. 11:30c:02:01:00 Woke up in a bind about competing priorities for the day. Head felt dull and heavy in the whole frontal area on waking. Developed into a full blown headache within 3 hours which was centred on the occipital region, relieved by constant hard pressure of the hand over the site. Nauseated, but headache relieved slightly by food. After 5 hours pain escalated and I was unable to function properly. Wanted to vomit but couldn’t. Took analgesic without effect. Gradually improved with distraction, but came back full strength at the end of the day. 11:30c24:00:00 Heat at top of head about half way between the front hair line and the crown and about the size of a 20c piece (one spot in the centre). It lasted about 10 - 15 min. Occurred about 15 minutes after taking the remedy at 10.15pm. It was the initial symptom. NS 4:6c:xx:xx:15 Dull headache on the right side which travelled to both temples. Noticed the headache on waking at 7.00am. (Note - It was gone by 9.00am). NS 4:6c:xx:x9:xx I noticed that scalp was sore, itching and the dandruff from the previous day was still around. It was worse for the shower; the water made it sting. 4:6c:xx:10:xx Dull ache, deep in the head with a stiff, cracking neck. 4:6c:x1:21:xx I woke with a stiff neck (both sides and into shoulders). Unable to resettle and this was aggravated by 43 husband's snoring and feeling the vibrations through the mattress. Went to a different room to sleep. RS Also had a dull headache deep in the head but also noticed it in the frontal area and temples. 4:6c:x2:x5:xx A dull ache in head, located right side of neck, just below skull - remained very localised (in that spot). 4:6c:x2:12:xx I woke with a dull headache (vertex and temples) and neck pain (stiffness, crunching when moving from side to side) after deep sleep. At the same time skin (eczema) was very itchy. 4:6c:x4:x7:xx There was a dull ache which accompanied neck and eye problems and it was worse when looking down.. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx Two minutes after I took the remedy it felt like my glasses were really heavy on my forehead and nose. 6:30c:00:00:02 My head felt hazy as I was looking at my computer, a slight headache on the vertex - this happened instantly. 6:30c:00:22:40 My neck feels sore/strained it is difficult to keep my head up. 6:30c:00:02:15 8.00pm. I noticed a very sore spot on the top back of my head where there is a kind of groove; it was sore like a bee sting, also like a bruise say in a peach; the sensation that my finger would just sink thought the skull. If I did not touch it, it did not hurt. However rubbing it was better in that the pain also gave relief (like pain in a massage), ie > for pressure. The pain was still there slightly when I woke up next morning, then it went completely after I got up. NS 3:6c:x4:xx:xx 7.00am. I wake up with a very bad headache and take the day off work. The headache is pain radiating from the top of the head and I have a sore throat for a while also. I stayed in bed till 11.00am but felt fragile and unrefreshed, just wanted peace and quiet and nothing to do with people. NS I am anxious about documenting the proving and type out these notes. I also feel guilty about taking time off work even though I take very little sick leave. I think this is a part response to the proving and part to life events generally, ie work and the end of the semester at college. 3:6c:x7:xx:xx 4.00pm. Shooting pain at the right side of the top of the head, pain in spasms extending to the right jaw bone, pain worse than ever before, pain in waves, shooting pain, sore spot on top of head, not < or > for pressure. Lasted till 8.00am next morning. AS 3:6c:x9:xx:xx 9.00am. Same headache, dull, frontal, blocked, and blocked sinus, and sinus pain. I get headaches very rarely, and sinus pain almost never. 18:xx:xx:30 Itching scalp for about 20 minutes. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Headache pain in the top of the head; wish it could be cut off then I would be better. Like a rectangular pain on head. I am not a headache person. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Another head pain coming on right now in the front of my head different from the one this afternoon but again feeling of rectangle; just cut a slice of my forehead off. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Dull pain on top left side of my head. Lasted for a few minutes.9:30c:x1:13:xx Itchiness started around lower back of my head. 9:30c:x1:18:xx Slight prickling sensation felt around temples. Better for scratching. 9:30c:x5:xx:xx Slight prickling sensation felt on head under hair. Better for scratching. 9:30c:x5:xx:xx There's been a sore spot on the back of my head close to my vertex, better for pressing, better for rubbing, better for pressure, in fact generally I'm better for pressure. 3:6c:xx:xx:xx My skin is tingling, prickling, in my hair on my head; also tingling on my face, chest, back and knee. 9:30c:xx:xx:xx 44 Instant pain in my vertex; dull pain, better for rubbing my head, better for pressure. 9:30c:xx:xx:xx Heat in the vertex like a 20-cent piece on the vertex in the brain and burning. 4:6c:xx:xx:xx Immediately my forehead got hot and I found it hard to focus, my eyes couldn't move, my Mum told me to move, but I couldn't move. I was suspicious about the symptoms so I took another dose later and I had the exact same symptoms of heat in my head then hot and cold and shivering. I was so cold I was sitting in front of the heater; this hot forehead lasted half an hour. 5:30c:xx:xx:xx EYES 3.00pm. Eyes felt dry. I noticed this driving home, and when I closed my eyes firmly to make them water it felt worse. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx 2.00pm. Eyes felt dry. I wondered whether it was a reaction to the air conditioning in the room? 4:6c:x6:xx:xx Eyes very sensitive to glare. Had to squint all day RS 11:6c:02:01:00 1.30pm. I feel tired and cold. Am physically weary, but mentally okay. found myself yawning. My eyes are difficult to focus and feel like they are rolling back in my head and that I'll fall asleep in the middle of an interview. Having difficulty concentrating and following what the client is saying. (I had been very focussed until now, so it feels somewhat quick in onset). I noted feeling indifferent to the idea of exercise (which I know would help). Am feeling cold. RS 4:6c:x1:16:xx Heaviness in my forehead and eyes. My eyes were hazy. It felt as though I had just taken off my glasses at the end of the day. Usually they would focus again within minutes; 2 hours later they still hadn't focussed. 6:30c:00:04:55 9 or 10.00pm. Dry burning eyes for two days. NS 14:00.00.00 Sitting doing some rep. Slight “dizzy” feeling – difficulty focussing when reading, better when writing – lightness over eyes. I don’t usually feel dizziness; odd feeling that persisted while I was working for about 17 to 18 minutes. (Note - She described this sensation “as though aware of lightness inside my forehead and going down into my eyes”; it started to dissipate when she was writing it down and intensified while she was telling me about it). NS 10:6c:xx:xx:10 A hazy, sensation – as though drugged. Similar to the feeling years ago when I was prescribed diazepam; persisted until about 3.30pm. Every so often a hazy feeling settles over my head and eyes, feeling I might not be in control, I’m not comfortable with it, if I had woken up with it I would have thought I had too much wine yesterday. NS 10:6c:xx:05:55 Eyes – left. Feel like I’m getting conjunctivitis; my eyelid is itchy (top) and the inside corner. Stings when I touch it. There is a sty on the top eyelid (centre) and it feels like there’s something in my eye scratching. I have had sties in the past but not for a long time, same with conjunctivitis. Worse scratching, touch, thinking about it. 20:04:xx:xx Eyes – left. Still have the problem with my eye, itchy, stinging, but not as severe – especially if I keep my hands off it. Worse rubbing. 20:05:xx:xx Eyes – left. Eye same as yesterday, itchy, stinging, dry, worse rubbing. 20:06:XX:XX Eyes – left. Itchy, stinging, worse touch and rubbing. Pretty much unchanged from yesterday. 20:07:xx:xx Eyes – left. My eye is worse today; when I woke up it was really dry (feeling) and very sore in the inside corner; it feels like the tear duct is blocked maybe. Very much worse for touch. 20:08:xx:xx Eyes. Feels better from crying. 20:09:xx:xx 45 VISION On waking at 7.00am, when finally opened eyes after some minutes I noticed that my vision was obstructed by a black pattern of squares and circles similar to an enlarged newspaper photo or looking through glass bricks. I had to close my eyes tightly 2-3 times and reopen them before I could focus. I felt panicky and saying to myself, “What's happening, I can't see”. NS 4:6c:xx:x9:xx 11.45pm. I was dropping off to sleep lying on my right side. I had a swirling sensation very pleasant for about ten minutes, then I turned over to the left side and I saw with my eyes closed a purple light about the size of a 20 cent coin, in a kind of scratchy pattern like purple neon but brighter, for two minutes. I was shocked and thought, that's it, I have to stop taking that remedy. NS 3:6c:xx:16:45 Whilst driving down Parramatta Road feel like I can see really far away. Another interesting new sensation. 8:30c:xx:xxxx My eyes are taking a longer time to focus on long distance subjects. 18: xx:xx:xx Sitting doing some rep. Slight “dizzy” feeling – difficulty focussing when reading, better when writing – lightness over eyes. I don’t usually feel dizziness; odd feeling that persisted while I was working for about 17 to 18 minutes. (Note - She described this sensation “as though aware of lightness inside my forehead and going down into my eyes”; it started to dissipate when she was writing it down and intensified while she was telling me about it). NS 10:6c:xx:xx:10 My vision is very good, I can see far away. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx EAR 2.30pm. Pain on and off in right ear, quite sharp, lasted till 3.30pm when it extended to the right cheekbone. NS 3:6c:x9:xx:xx Can hear really well, a new sensation. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Left ear felt blocked. Moving my jaw made it block and unblock. It went away after 15 – 20 minutes. 9:30c:xx:xx:25 Pain occurred in ear (and throat) that feels like an infection. Pain is on the right side. 9:30c:x2:19:xx Ear pain got worse at 1:30am. Worse when jaw is opened. 9:30c:x3:10:xx Left ear feels blocked and under pressure. Breathing deeply through my left nostril helps by causing pressure changes in both ears when I do this. 9:30c:10:xx:xx Ear feels blocked and painful like there is phlegm in it. 9:30c:17:xx:xx NOSE Left nostril, inside bottom; started yesterday, after a bit of a cold, quite bothersome. Sore and dry in left nostril on septum. Keep picking at it. Left nostril still quite bothersome, keep picking at it. It’s sore and dry. 17: xx:xx:xx Nostrils dry, discomfort. 17: xx:xx:xx Nostril: discomfort sore, dry, < touch. Both nostrils now. Want to keep picking at them. 17: xx:xx:xx Nose - both nostrils. Sore and totally dry. Really strange, never had this before! Very sore on touch. Quite uncomfortable. 17: xx:xx:xx Both nostrils, recurrent clear discharge, pain 46 Both nostrils very dry, sore, crusty, bloody mucous, < blowing, < touch. 17: xx:xx:xx Nostrils still dry but not so extreme any more. 17: xx:xx:xx Nose still dry but not as painful and discomforting. 17: xx:xx:xx Mild burning sensation at the root of the nostril followed the waning of the burning sensation in the head c.10.25pm. It felt like a thin ring all around the orifice. NS 4:6c:xx:xx:20 Did the vacuuming over an extended period during the day and noticed that I was very aware of the dust - this heightened sense is unusual -smell seemed to linger in nose for sometime (c. 1-2 h). NS 4:6c:x2:xx:xx Initially on waking, would blow nose and would have to scrape at internal root of nose to fully evacuate. 4:6c:x2:x7:xx As for yesterday - dry, crusty bits left to scrape off at back of nose after initial blow. 4:6c:x3:11:xx 2.00am. Wake with tingling sensation inside right nostril - marked and unusual. NS 14: xx:xx:xx Clear bland discharge from nostril at 7.30am on waking. 14; xx:xx:xx Tingling sensation continues at night. 14:01:00:xx Tingling inside of nose continues throughout the day and night. 14:02:11:xx Prickling and sneezing sensation. 14:02:13:xx Sneezed six times loudly. No discharge. NS 3:6c:x1:x7:xx I had sniffles, and slight watery discharge enough to blow my nose; this lasted about 10 minutes; it might have been like an allergy symptom. NS 3:6c:x3:14:xx Six loud violent sneezes one after the other. NS 3:6c:x4:xx:xx Sneezed twice with a stuffed nose; the right nostril was blocked; this lasted 10 minutes. NS 3:6c:x5:xx:xx Sniffles, no discharge, no other symptoms. NS 3:6c:x7:xx:xx Throat / root of nose. Dry, burning pain on waking < swallowing. Lasted for 10 minutes. Felt less intensely on and off throughout the day when swallowing. 7:30c:xx:xx:xx Blocked left nostril on waking. Cleared after 10 minutes. 7:30c:xx:xx:xx Throat/root of nose. 7.00am. Dryish burning sensation lasting for 10 to 15 minutes. 7:30c:xx:xx:xx Throat/Root of nose. 7.00am. Dryish burning sensation on waking. Lasted 10-15 minutes. 7:30c:xx:xx:xx Throat/Root of nose 6.30am. Dryish burning sensation on waking. On and off throughout day but more aware of it morning and evening. 7:30c:xx:xx:xx 4 months later my sense of smell has finally come back; strong smells were just awful and made me gag for the last 4 months; perfume was intolerable and awful. Now I'm so into perfume, smells are amazing, especially sandalwood and vanilla. I love it, I'm now passionate about smells, it's the total opposite of before; this is a complete change. 7:30c:xx:xx:xx FACE Tingling lasting about 20 seconds immediately on taking the remedy. Had to answer the phone briefly, and then tingling changed to a needle-like sensation on both cheek bones, lasting 5 minutes. 1:6c:00:00:05 47 A shooting current-type sensation on the left side of my lower jaw bone a few minutes after taking the remedy. It travelled from the underside towards my teeth. 23:30c:00:00:05 My forehead started to slightly heat up, heat on other parts of my face remained the same. Body felt slightly colder. Coldness in my body gone by 12.00 but forehead still hotter then usual. Felt like flu symptoms starting. NS 5:30c:x1:x1:30 Itchy face especially jaw area. NS 5:30c:x1:x6:50 Hot flush in face. Face hot, feels as if it has been stretched. Forehead not as hot as last time. Shook face which helped a bit. NS 5:30c:x1:10:xx Pain in the right cheekbone on and off, sensitive to touch, but touch does not ameliorate; the area of pain is about the size of a 10c piece. NS 3:6c:x9:xx:xx At 3:30pm, heat, hot flush, red cheeks. No perspiration, maybe less. 8:30c:x1:x6:xx Facial hair is a bit sensitive when stroked mostly on the right side. Under chin, throat and tongue. Irritation. 9:30c:xx:23:55 Face – corner of mouth. A small whitehead pimple has come up near the corner of my mouth, left side, top lip; I don’t remember ever having a pimple in this place before (which isn’t to say I haven’t!). 20:06:xx:xx Pimple still there, corner of mouth, but healing well. 20:08:xx:xx Woke up with pimples over left eyebrow. Don’t usually get pimples these days – these are very small. [Note She described them as not really noticeable but she can feel them with her finger and they are touch sensitive]. NS 10:6c:06:xx:xx Slight lesion on left side, gone next day. 2:6c:08:xx:xx I got a cold sore on my bottom lip. This appeared some days ago. It’s not very bad. I suspect it’s a follow-on from the result of a previous remedy I was taking which had shifted my genital herpes scenario. I used to get cold sores a lot in my 20s and early 30s. 2:6c:05:xx:xx If I touch it, it hurts; it's worse for touch, it hurts if I move the hairs on my face. 9:30c:xx:xx:xx My face feels as if it's stretched and very tired and stretched. 5:30c:xx:xx:xx MOUTH 1.30pm. There is an electric, jumping-nerve sensation in the lips while I was talking. Occurred in two short spasms of less than a minute each. NS 4:6c:x1:16:xx Gum, around top back left tooth, swelling and bleeding, Gums, upper back left, sore swollen itchy > cold. 17: xx:xx:xx Gums, right side, lower back this time sore. Dull ache. Seems to be shifting around. Uncomfortable, but not too bad. 17; xx:xx:xx 9.45pm. Dryness. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx 9.35am. Mouth is very dry; tongue is sticking to palate. 8:30c:xx:x1:05 Noticed 5 small lumps on inside of left gum at the back near the molars. 9:30c:x1:13:xx 48 Cold sore appeared on left side after I noticed an itchy sting, which was the same place that I first got one. 9:30c:x3:10:xx Pink patch appeared on lower lips. 9:30c:x3:10:xx Slight prickling sensation felt on bottom lip near cold sore. 9:30c:x5:xx:xx After a cup of coffee my right upper gums became swollen, and they were still the same 2 days later. There was no pain. 2:6c:07:xx:xx Gum swelling from 3 days ago has moved to upper front. 2:6c:10:xx:xx TEETH Wisdom tooth (R lower) appears to be gradually becoming more sore and puffy over the time of the proving. Tooth is trying to come through again. Sensation noticed on and off all day. 4:6c:x2:xx:xx Right wisdom still aching and painful. Noticed it mostly in the morning and at night. 4:6c:x3:xx:xx Aware of the pain which aches and stings since waking (2 hours before). Tended to disappear when occupied. 4:6c:x4:x9:xx On and off during the day - Right lower wisdom tooth still aching. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx 10.30pm. Twinge of pain in the teeth, lower left molars; the pain moved around a bit on the left side. This happened when I was trying to get to sleep. NS 3:6c:x8:xx:xx At 6.30pm, dull, shooting pain, inside and around edges of top and bottom teeth. It’s like that feeling when the wind rushes through your teeth and chills them, only it happens when I’m inside. It started 3-4 days ago. I have never experienced this before. 18: xx:xx:xx At 2.00pm, dull, shooting pain in the molars. < coffee? had 2 cups today? 18:x8:xx:xx Same pains. Also notice a tight jaw, tight muscles > opening mouth wide to stretch it. (This has been a concomitant since beginning of teeth sx). 18:x9:xx:xx and 10, 14, 22, 43, 44. My teeth are incredibly sensitive to cold, cold wind on my teeth is awful, as if my teeth are cold, as if I've bitten into an ice-cream; it's not really pain but it's awful, especially my bottom teeth; oh my god my teeth are rotting. 18: xx:xx:xx THROAT After dark my throat began to feel a bit rough. This is new. It was not red or sore, just rough – pretty mild really. I had phlegm that was really hard to spit out at night, but it came out easily in the morning. There was no cough and the phlegm was bright yellow. This then happened regularly at night. 1:6c:01:06:00 Sore, left side at 11.00am. Has persisted since waking. It is the persistence that is new, not the sore throat on waking. NS 4:6c:xx:13:xx It appears to be lingering and getting worse. It feels sore, stitching and scraping. 4:6c:xx:14:xx 6.30am. Woke up with a sore throat. Noticed it on and off during the day but stayed at the same intensity. NS 4:6c:x8:xx:xx Following the burning sensation in the back of the nose there was a thin, clear stream of fluid trickling from the back of the nose down the throat. NS 4:6c:xx:xx:20 The burning in the nose and the thin stream of liquid sensation was followed by catarrh in the throat which was difficult to clear. NS 4:6c:xx:xx:20 49 Left side of my throat under my tongue was hurting. It felt like it was a little swollen. Swallowing felt a bit strange due to swollen sensation. 9:30c:xx:14:35 Pain occurred in throat (and ear) that feels like an infection. Pain is on the right side, and hurts more when I open my mouth wide. 9:30c:x2:19:xx I can feel some mucous in the back of my throat. 9:30c:10:xx:xx My throat has felt coated in mucous today, my voice has been scratchy. Thomas has been bleaching his hair and I think it’s from the fumes; worse coughing, clearing throat. 20:06:xx:xx Dry, but with mucous stuck in it. 20:09:xx:xx Dry, stuck mucous – same as yesterday. 20:09:xx:xx Dry, stuck mucous. 20:10:xx:xx Unchanged from yesterday afternoon. 20:11:xx:xx Pain / ache. Worse swallowing. Just a vague ache in my throat on the left-hand side. (Note - She described this as “slight bruising in the soft palate, ache in the back of my throat”). NS 10:6c:04:xx:xx I got a sore throat accompanied by a headache. It had a raspy feeling. I have had a slightly sore throat off and on for the last couple of weeks. I thought it may be the result of the aftermath of an intense work period. It didn’t develop into anything until today. (This continued until 21.9.01). 2:6c:21:xx:xx Sore throat with headache. Stayed home from work. 2:6c:22:xx:xx Pain on swallowing, < right side. Lasted for an hour or so. 7:30c:xx:xx:xx EXTERNAL THROAT My jaw and glands felt as though they were swollen as though pressure was building up, however on palpating them they weren't. 6:30c:01:10:00 When woke at 2.30am noticed stiffness in neck and shoulders. I wondered whether it was to do with my anger. 4:6c:x1:x5:xx I woke with a stiff neck (both sides and into shoulders). Unable to resettle and this was aggravated by husband's snoring and the feeling the vibrations through the mattress. Went to a different room to sleep. RS Also had a dull headache deep in the head but also noticed it in the frontal area and temples. 4:6c:x2:x5:xx A crunching of neck when shifting. It was difficult to sit up straight and became worse as the afternoon went on. Accompanying the headache. 4:6c:x3:14:xx A stiffness in neck that was worse for sitting and which also deteriorated in the afternoon. First noticed it after lunch and it gradually got worse into the night. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx Stiffness is back on waking. 4:6c:13:xx:xx Stiffness and crunching and difficult to move on waking. It was better for swimming. 4:6c:15:xx:xx Wake at 7.30am with painful sides of neck on turning head RS, experienced last November to February following a bout of flu. 14: xx:xx:xx STOMACH 50 Abdomen feels very heavy centrally. Feels as if something is stuck. Not like usual “too full” bloating. It was as if the food was caught at the top of the stomach and couldn’t go any further. No pain as such, just very heavy. Relieved by sleep. 2:6c:xx:xx:xx Stomach. Nausea on waking and after breakfast. Feeling of dehydration. RS. 12:30c:xx:xx:01 Stomach. Slight nausea, stomach cramps. Feel the need to eat. Wake up with nausea that steadily gets worse up until midday. Symptoms return in the evening. 12:30c:xx:xx:03 Stomach. Still unsettled. Feels weak as if everything I eat or drink will aggravate it. Still have to be eating or drinking something all the time. 12:30c:xx:xx:04 Stomach. Nausea through the day. If I eat late at night I feel uncomfortable and wake up dehydrated and feeling sick. 12:30c:xx:xx:06 Strange and painful dull sensation across epigastrium and in stomach after eating. 17: xx:xx:xx Sweet craving not satisfied by eating sweets; also straight gluttony, “Fresslust”! This is very unusual. Quite unconquerable. Couldn’t stop eating until went to bed. Weird. I fell asleep at the computer which is bad cos something is due today. 17: xx:xx:xx Stomach feels like a lump. No appetite. Feel slightly sick in stomach. Can’t eat anything. How unusual! 17: xx:xx:xx Stomach. Sick feeling, bit nauseous. Zero appetite. Can’t eat anything. I’m very affected by the news. Can’t stop reading the paper. Terrible terrible news. 17: xx:xx:xx Feels like a plug in there. Absolutely no appetite – still feeling a bit sick in the stomach. Can drink but difficulty eating. 17 : xx:xx:xx Full sensation, still no appetite – strange!! 17: xx:xx:xx Still no appetite! Have to force myself to eat. (I’m sure this is because of the state of the world). 17: xx:xx:xx I had cutting sensation in the abdomen, but still had to eat (pasta, bacon, cream). Pain in stomach also still present at 11.30pm. 4:6c:x5:xx:xx Not feeling hungry tonight; normally starving about this time of the night. No appetite with nausea. Made myself eat a chicken dinner. NS 5:30c:x2:x8:xx (Note - Fullness, feels like she is severely constipated < walking, moving and leaning forward, > still. 9.30pm). 6:30c:00:19:35 I feel like I am severely constipated; it is worse for walking, movement and sitting down. It is better for standing still. 6:30c:00:19:35 On the right side of my stomach it felt as though someone was poking me. It felt like a sharp stinging pain. 6:30c:00:21:50 Feel like I am going to vomit and cry > for drinking hot water everything going back to normal. Feel weird again when writing. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Grumbling in stomach. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Water brash in the mouth >for burping. I do not experience water brash, unless I am sick. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Am feeling nauseated with a dull circular pain, in my abdomen. The experience of a dull circular pain was new. 8:30c:xx:x2:05 A wave of nausea and feeling like I have to vomit vomit, sits just in the back of the throat. 8:30c:xx:x5:30 51 5.07pm. A wave of nausea feeling like I have to vomit; I get that feeling in my mouth. 8:30c:xx:x9:23 Nausea and dizziness. I want to throw up and cry, feeling shaky sort of cold. Nausea seems to move down in the stomach. It feels like pregnancy nausea to me. 8:30c:x1:x8:xx Nausea, faint, dizzy, have to sit down >for walking by the sea. 8:30c:x1:13:xx The nausea is like pregnancy; nausea comes on quickly. 8:30c:x2:x9:xx I did yoga for ½ hour, then relaxation for a while. Felt very sick and nauseous after? 8:30c:x4:xx:xx Like a lump under my sternum. About an hour after eating lunch (tuna and crackers) the lump started and is better for burping. NS 10:6c:01:05:xx Still discomfort, lump, burning, nausea? Not better or worse for eating – food is actually not my favourite thought, although I did manage to eat breakfast. (Note - Worse thought of food, “even my kick starter orange juice was not as enjoyable, I can’t say I’m sick, but not 100%”). 10:6c:01:23:xx Stone, lump in pit of stomach, worse eating. 10:6c:02:23:xx Still stone, lump in pit. Worse eating. Passed a stool about midday but the sensation is still there. (Note - Dry stool, “feels like it wasn’t complete. I don’t feel super-dooper. I feel like the lumpy sensation will go when I flush the system so to speak; this has thrown my evacuation out”; she sounded flat). 10:6c:03:06:xx The sensation of a lump in my gut has gone. 10:6c:04:xx:xx Fullness, worse eating, better eructation. This full feeling is radiating to my chest/breasts on both sides like a dull ache. 10:6c:05:xx:xx Thirst for cold drinks. Usually I am not a thirsty person – drank large quantities of cold juice. (Note - Drinking glasses of water or fruit juice two at a time). NS 10:6c:05:xx:xx Lump, worse eating. 10:6c:08:xx:xx Nausea. Woke in the night feeling very sick – felt sure I was going to throw up – I was so tired I couldn’t get out of bed and ended up going back to sleep without vomiting. 20:09:xx:xx Nausea – worse thought of food – better warm drinks (herb tea). Feel sick – like throwing up, getting slightly better as morning progresses. 20:10:xx:xx Nausea gone by midday. 20:10:xx:xx Slight nausea this morning, easily ignored, breakfast as usual. 20:11:xx:xx On taking the remedy it makes me feel like I want to eat. This happened strongly when I took the first few doses, and to a lesser degree subsequently. 7:30c:xx:xx:x1 ABDOMEN Violent movement accompanied by loud noise in transverse colon on and off for 2 hours. Followed by explosive dark fatty stool. 11:6c:05:00:00 On waking at 5.00am there was a sensation of inner trembling and pulsating of the whole trunk of the body (Note - centred round the heart chakra region -obs). NS 4:6c:xx:x7:xx 9.45pm - 11.00pm. Started getting really bad stomach pains. Very bad cramps. Above navel, towards the left. > better for lying on back wiith stomach stretched. NS 5:30c:x2:11:xx I felt like I had butterflies in the abdomen (Note - She indicated the hypogastrium area and said it tingled for about 30 seconds). 6:30c:00:01:10 52 4.45pm. (Note - Pain feels like period pain - during ovulation - doesn't usually have ovulation pain. Had to sit on ground). 6:30c:01:12:00 7.00pm. (Note - Tummy upset, < walking, > not moving. She said it felt like potential diarrhea). 6:30c:01:12:00 It felt as though I had the cramps that go along with diarrhea but I had no diarrhea to go with the cramps. (Note - < walking. Lasted 10 minutes). 6:30c:07:00:00 During an aerobics class I had chronic cramps in my lower abdomen - the type you get with diarrhea. (Note - < movement). 24:30c:01:04:00 Abdominal cramps with a sore lower back. I tried to go to the toilet but I was constipated. The cramps were better for stretching. 24:30c:06:00:00 Belching, almost always at this time dropping off to sleep. RS 3:6c:xx:16:3x A strong pain in left groin whilst walking, >for pressure for about ½ hour. 8:30c:x1:12:xx Pain rectangle on the right of belly button. Sore, dull, aching, pulsating on and off. Like a rectangle inside my belly >for slight rubbing. NS 8:30c:x5:xx:xx Pain is still there, now it is much more faint. 8:30c:x5:xx:xx Still got the pain, not so strong >for soft rubbing, thoughts of the remedy pervade my mind, the idea of something strong, rectangular. 8:30c:x5:xx:xx Pain from yesterday is back again. I argue in my head whether or not I should write it down; the pain is more dull and it seems to sometimes get < by thinking about it, sometimes get > by thinking about it. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Have had very bad, painful gas with bloating for most of the day. I have gone to the toilet 5 times. 9:30c:5:xx:xx Dull discomfort as though “diarrhoea” might be onsetting, backing up into stomach. Could be due to haemorrhoids and the trauma of this morning. (Note - She said she feels “uncomfortable and lethargic”. The abdominal discomfort and pain in the back went after eating lunch). NS 10:6c:01:01:xx Sharp pain on the right side of my abdomen, liver, sensitive to touch. 3;6c:xx:xx:xx A sensation as if someone is pushing a finger deep into my sternum; it's not my heart, it's not my breast, it's not my spleen, kind of under the ribs, nasty, pushing pain. 18: xx:xx:xx Constipation, severe impacted constipation, profound discomfort in my abdomen with also heartburn and it had to be removed mechanically; lots of bleeding with my stool, pain, fissures, bloody stool, abdominal discomfort and a lump sensation in my gut; all of this lasted 24 hours, burning sensation, dull aching. 10:6c:x:xx:xx My abdomen is distended; it felt as if I was constipated; better lying down, better moving, worse standing still, better for pressure and bending double, better for stretching; a tingling sensation just behind and under my ribs, cramps in the abdomen, especially the lower abdomen; they woke me up in the morning. There seem to be some changes in my stool. I feel as if I need to be stretched. I need to be stretched with my tummy out. I want to be stretched out. (Note -prover number 6 became pregnant during the proving and these symptoms need to be questioned). 6:30c:xx:xx:xx I've been bubbly, gassy and fermenty in my abdomen. 9:30c:xx:xx:xx RECTUM 53 Inactivity, digestion sluggish, slow, ineffectual urging. Took some digestive bitters and had a motion but still “not get done sensation”. 17: xx:xx:xx Left side, itching and discomfort. Feels like haemorrhoids (since birth of 3 rd child) are aggravated. Or is it [a] herpes, too? 17: xx:xx:xx Itching discomfort, irritating. All day. Left side, still itchy and sore. Left side sore, itchy, uncomfortable. Hard stool. 17: xx:xx:xx I’m not sure what this is - an external haemorrhoid? Very painful on touch. There’s a painful lump on side of rectum. It’s getting bigger and more painful. 17: xx:xx:xx It’s herpes in its vilest form! It’s large and extremely sore. Stinging, burning and itching! Also rectum is itchy. I don’t think I’ve ever had such a nasty one. It’s sort of elongated large with a ridge in top on the perineum. VERY sore << Woke up through the night with madly itching rectum and also itchy ear. Herpes very sore, stinging, burning, itching! <<< Very painful and sore, burning and stinging. This is probably the worst (herpes) I’ve ever had. It’s sort of long, raised and pointy with a ridge along the top. Yuk! 17: xx:xx:xx Itchy. Throughout the night. Extremely bothersome and woke me up. Then it disappeared completely. Didn’t have it at all during the day. 17: xx:xx:xx 12.00pm. Stool, heavy, easy exit. Consistency harder than my normal stool. 8:30c:x1:x3:xx Diarrhoea like stool probably part of the sickness. 8:30c:x7:xx:xx Bleeding haemorrhoids. Constipation – tearing sensation in anus. I have had haemorrhoids for 28 years but have never before had so much difficulty passing a stool which resulted in more bleeding than I have ever experienced. (Note - Worse for sitting, better for hot shower. Stool unusually hard, could not get out, and had to remove mechanically). AS 10:6c:xx:21:25 Burning, stitching, worse sitting. Raw fissures still from yesterday, haemorrhoids soft but protruding after stool. (Note - Not constipated now, but still hurts, stinging). 10:6c:01:23:xx Pain, stitching, after stool. Usual pain that I get when my haemorrhoids are “playing up” – after stool – stinging for about 20 minutes until they settle. 10:6c:04:xx:xx STOOL 7.00am. Colour was a raw sienna (yellow - brown) + green. It was hard and pellety [obs]) to begin and then became soft and was large in volume. Had been flatulent since rising. NS 4:6c:x1:x9:xx 12 noon. Third stool in 3 days. I'm not usually this regular. It was soft and easily passed. 4:6c:x4:14:xx 7.30am. Second in two days (3 days with nothing during bad - depressed 2 days). Firm, difficult to expel, though I had the urge. 4:6c:x8:xx:xx 9.30am. Third in 3 days. Started dry and difficult to expel and like sheep dung. It changed to a soft stool, well formed and easy to pass. Each of the 3 stools has been a large amount, (larger than I would expect). 4:6c:x9:xx:xx Runny stools with a sore lower back. 6:30c:01:22:00 54 Slight cramp passing stool, slightly constipated; usually I pass stool when I get up in the morning. NS 3:6c:x3:1x:xx Slighly more urgent and the stool more mushy than usual. NS 3:6c:x6:xx:xx Bleeding haemorrhoids. Constipation – tearing sensation in anus. I have had haemorrhoids for 28 years but have never before had so much difficulty passing a stool which resulted in more bleeding than I have ever experienced. (Note - Worse for sitting, better for hot shower. Stool unusually hard, could not get out, and had to remove mechanically). AS 10:6c:xx:21:25 Constipated. Usually go as soon as I get up – I have the urge, but nothing has happened yet – could be anticipating pain? (Note - She sounded worried saying “I might be constipated. I’m nervous about going, I’m anxious about it, after the last experience”. After speaking to the master proving supervisor she said, “I don’t feel so stupid now, I wasn’t sure the symptoms were from the remedy, it all happened so fast”). 10:6c:02:23:xx Still stone, lump in pit. Worse eating. Passed a stool about midday but the sensation is still there. (Note - Dry stool, “feels like it wasn’t complete. I don’t feel super-dooper. I feel like the lumpy sensation will go when I flush the system so to speak, this has thrown my evacuation out”; she sounded flat). 10:6c:03:06:xx Seems to be a constant since taking remedy – bowel habit has changed as to time and texture – haemorrhoids have settled back to normal. (Note - Now have knotty stools that come later in the day). 10:6c:08:xx:xx The colour of my stool is yellow, green and brown. 4:6c:xx:xx:xx BLADDER Unheard of hesitation at commencement of stream, and then poor and protracted stream. Once only. 11:6c:03:19:00 Had a constant urge to urinate. Lasted one hour. 1:6c:02:20:00 KIDNEY Stabbing pain, moving in to the tip of the kidneys. 8:30c:xx:xx:xx Sharp pain rising from the kidneys, ovaries to the chest and shoulders. Intense, but short, happened whilst doing yoga, like something came unstuck. Never had this before. 8:30c:x6:xx:xx Left kidney region: had a very bad night. Trouble getting to sleep. Then Tom kept us awake for ½ hour. I felt very cranky. Strange pains or dull ache in left kidney region. Urging to go to toilet frequently during night with little urination. Worried about it. Wondering what it is. 17: xx:xx:xx Kidneys – aching – night. Tender during night and on waking. >urination. 17: xx:xx:xx 10.30 pm. Kidney region, left lower back, strange, sharp pain < movement Yüklə 0,62 Mb. Dostları ilə paylaş:
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