On waking remembered dream about being in a bar where people were reading out pieces they had written
like poems. A man got up and did his. I can’t remember what it was but everyone was saying, “Wow! He can
write!” Then they said the next space was empty, who wants to come up and perform? I had my piece and
was thinking, “Do I have the guts to get up and deliver it? Then I thought – “Don’t let the challenge of
performing it interfere with its quality.” I knew it wasn’t ready yet. I decided not to perform it but rather
work on it more until it was the quality I wanted.
Fatigue. Was quite tired all day - yawning etc. Quite a common symptom for me a few days prior to my
Soreness. Was only aware of this on and off late afternoon and into night. Not as intense as previously.
Lower back / lower right buttock
Pain > pressure. Only aware of this in morning and at night - as if something was misaligned.
Calmness and self-containment. Began in the afternoon and continued into the night.
Much more energy today than yesterday - feel quite well.
Since taking remedy from first day - calm and self-contained. Following day not. That has repeated itself till
today where it was back to calm self-containment.
On waking remembered dream of a man who was going through my front door to get to his place upstairs.
Even when I closed the door and latched it he was easily able to get it open. I confronted him saying I didn’t
want him walking through my front door into my place all the time. He didn’t seem to understand what I was
concerned about. I was really angry. This is a recurring dream theme I’ve been having for the last year or
so. A man or men are coming into my place and I’m a bit scared but most of all furiously angry. Usually I’m
shouting at them to “Fuck off”.
Have been waking last couple of mornings feeling malaise over world events. Like in the movies where
people toss and turn with words and images echoing around them. Consciously decided not to listen to radio
except minimum to know what’s going on. Too many thoughts with current tensions - too pervasive.
General sense of well-being in self. Realised I have felt this quite a bit since taking the remedy.
7.00pm - 11.30pm. Sudden onset. One minute I didn’t have it at all then full on. Aching pressing pain, <
standing and walking, lying down and turning in bed. > bending forward. Quite common for me to get lower
back pain just prior to period but this is much more intense. Lying in bed, pain was extremely intense.
Worried as to whether or not I could walk to the bathroom. OK but had to walk bending forwards.
Aching pressing pain extending down sides of buttocks into thighs. < turning over in bed. Same as previous
night lasting all day. Had to walk bending forward. Very painful.
Period arrived and slightly relieved pain in lower back. Not enough to reduce its intensity from 3 to 2.
Going to college on Saturday morning the idea came to my mind that even as non-indigenous Australians we
are linked to the land and the wide open skies, and what a different sensibility to Europe with all the weight
of visible history in buildings whereas Australia’s history is all in the land. Strong sense of this is my
place/land here. Most comfortable in it.
Well-being. Feelings of well-being have continued. Felt liberated at the choice of not working and coming to
Banerji seminar. Something I wouldn’t normally do because of the pay I’d miss out on.
Held medicine in my hand through the whole break. Felt really stoned, like I am losing my mind. Spacey
feeling over whole body; all of a sudden feel hot and sweaty.
Feel like I am going to vomit and cry, > for drinking hot water; everything going back to normal. Feel weird
again when writing.
Can hear really well, a new sensation.
Grumbling in stomach.
Feel a bit constricted in chest a dull sort of black hole deep in the chest going hot and cold. NS
Feel confused, can’t think, get paranoid when I can’t find what I am looking for. >for urination, always >
Feel very cold, >for putting on jacket and scarf, then feeling suffocated; > for taking scarf off. I normally
love wearing things around my neck.
Feeling like I am sitting here in a heap, normally I sit very straight.
9.15pm Pain in the right and left ovaries, dull aching pain that disappears 2-3 minutes later.
Left college moaning and groaning; feel like I am getting a cold, feeling stoned, just want to have a
Water brash in the mouth, >for burping I do not experience water brash, unless I am sick.
Dryness. I want to bite my fingernails. I have certainly never wanted to bite my fingernails ever before.
Fear mixed with, can I do it, how much I have to do tomorrow; thought I just want someone to care for me,
then start laughing hysterically.
Whilst driving down Parramatta Road feel like I can see really far away. Another interesting new sensation.
All elimination ameliorates, > for routine tasks, the more normal I behaved the better I felt.
9.50pm. Stabbing pain, moving in to the tip of the kidneys.
Have to feel my face to make sure I am still me and I have not just become body or thoughts. I am still me.
Itching scalp for about 20 minutes.
Feel afraid, have to get rid of the remedy, pulled a destiny card in the car, it said courage.
Lots of urination; feel like I am passing foamy bubbles, like champagne and after I did this felt much >.
Wake up feel shocking, great oppression of chest, CHEST
Chest feels separated from the body, like an air bubble. In the whole of my chest in the lung area.
Mouth is very dry, tongue is sticking to palate.
Feel depressed, sad, cold shivering.
Heat, I felt hot flushes all over; it came on with nausea.
Feel completely exhausted which was preceded with a feeling of happiness, dancing, smiling to myself, and
then feeling nauseated and a dull circular pain, in my abdomen; the experience of a dull circular pain was
Felt very sad by looking at the clock seeing it move, watching my daughter jump off a chair knowing it was
all going to change. The sadness is incredible, time changes and eventually everything is going to change, so
sad. This was a strange clear lucid, experience.
Pain above knee caps that moved down to the back of my calves; sore pain for about ½ hour. NS
People seem strange looking at them in the coffee shop. I can’t see them, can’t see their inner life.
Wave of nausea and feeling like I have to vomit. Vomit sits just in the back of the throat.
Wave of nausea feeling like I have to vomit. I get that feeling in my mouth.
Sadness as a background for the rest of the evening.
Clumsy more than usual, I dropped a forty-dollar bottle of essential oil, and it broke my heart too. I had a
tantrum, swore, broken gone, sad, it will never be the same.
Felt really happy and joyful; fifteen minutes later feel down.
Sad, just sad, may be an aggravation of my own symptoms so sad I could cry; what is it all about?
Sitting feeling sad biting on one of my nails. I do not bite my fingernails.
Nausea dizziness I want to throw up and cry, feeling shaky, sort of cold, feels like I just got another dose
from waiting for slow J at the college. Nausea seems to move down in the stomach. It feels like pregnancy
nausea to me.
I want to bite my fingernails and I go through both hands twice muttering to myself, “Oh my god.” NS
Strong pain in left groin whilst walking, >for pressure for about ½ hour. NS
Nausea, faint, dizzy have to sit down; >for walking by the sea.
Strong ovarian pains both sides first, < on the right, also disappears within ½ hour. NS
I feel very strange, possessed by something else; may be just getting my menstruation.
Lower back pain and also strong dull aching pain in ovaries; >by a hot water bottle; had this idea it would be
better by bandaging, >by 8.00am. I was sick in bed. My menstruation has never before caused me this much
Feel well at the moment, quite myself period has gone back to my normal experience of a period.
Sore painful ovaries as if inflamed and the area is distended; feel a bit dizzy as I am walking around the
museum, slight nausea; 3.30pm, experience sharp pain in a round spot on my right hip the pain sort of
moves towards the middle of the lower abdomen, a sort of squeezing in. NS
Sitting down giving Reiki to my ovaries; feel as if they are hard balls and are sticking to my hands; did not
want to write this down; my menstruation was shocking pain; on day one flow was normal.
The nausea is like pregnancy, nausea comes on quickly.
Thinking how slim, fragile and beautiful everybody is except for me; normally this is not something that
upsets me. My girlfriend pointed this out to me - “I have never heard you talk like this.” NS
Did yoga for ½ hour; then relaxation for a while; felt very sick and nauseous after.
Felt like my head was cone shaped, got sick of doing the proving. NS
Angry, slammed fist in to my wardrobe door, cried twice with my daughter and realized that I felt scared and
confused as a child; remembered being scared of my father especially when he was angry. I was so angry I
could have hit my daughter.
Pain rectangle on the right of belly button. Sore dull aching, pulsating on and off. Like a rectangle inside my
belly. >for slight rubbing. NS
Sick of doing proving; talking with J; want to have an antidote.
Pain is still there, now it is much more faint. I am so excited about homoeopathy, just did a case.
Still got the pain, not so strong. >for soft rubbing; thoughts of the remedy pervade my mind; the idea of
something strong, rectangular. Still sick of the proving, KIDNEY
Sharp pain rising from the kidneys, ovaries to the chest; shoulders intense, but short; happened whilst doing
yoga, like something came unstuck. Never had this before.
Feel premenstrual; my legs feel so fat I can hardly walk; I just had my period.
Just talked to made me feel like crying, feel very sad, helpless, don’t want help from others but need it.
Headache, pain in the top of the head, wish it could be cut off, then I would be better. Like a rectangular
pain on head. I am not a headache person.
Sadness, feel sad that life has its own rhythm and continuity whether I am there or not.
Pain from yesterday is back again. I argue in my head whether or not I should write it down; the pain is
more dull and it seems to sometimes get < by thinking about it, sometimes get > by thinking about it.
Friend told me I seem to be really well and outgoing. Wow! And the word courage came up again like facing
your own personal courage, or something like that.
Another head pain coming on right now in the front of my head; different from the one this afternoon but
again feeling of rectangle; just cut a slice of my forehead off.
Woke up with a cold and felt really pissed off; why me? why now?
Twitching of muscle at the right side back around the floating ribs; never had it before, but maybe something
in my back is coming loose.
Diarrhoea like stool probably part of the sickness.
Again muscle spasm in the same spot.
My body feels good more loose, childlike, and much less rigid, maybe due to some loosening exercises; a
Talking to my partner. He also says I have been more friendly. Surprise.
Muscle spasm, like yesterday about 3 times; they last 1-5 minutes, like when your eye twitches.
Still have a cold, husky voice, feel guilty for not having written in the book, had nothing to say.
Felt like a little girl, felt bad for not having done the writing down.
I cleaned my bathroom, and I put tea tree oil in the cleaning water and I loved it; it smelt so clean and
Left ear felt blocked. Moving my jaw made it block and unblock. It went away after 15 – 20 minutes.
My grandmother’s funeral is today, and I don’t feel that I want to go to it. (I may be called on to be a
pallbearer). I normally don’t like funerals. Feel reluctant and anxious.
Left side of my throat under my tongue was hurting. It felt like it was a little swollen. Swallowing felt a bit
strange due to swollen sensation.
Facial hair is a bit sensitive when stroked mostly on the right side. Under chin, throat and tongue. Irritation.
Noticed 5 small lumps on inside of left gum at the back near the molars.
Dull pain on top left side of my head. Lasted for a few minutes.
Skin is tingling, prickling, and almost itchy. Mostly located on head under hair, but also on face, chest and
back. Used to get this as a child when stressed and nervous.
Prickly itch occurred above my left kneecap. It made me start like a pinprick at first, and then it was just
Itchiness started around lower back of my head.
Itchiness started on the heels of my feet.
Having difficulty working. I start something and then forget what I was about to do. I then stared blankly for
a while thinking about what is next. Feeling tired. Can’t concentrate.
Woke up very tired. Slept OK, but woke up early and felt exhausted.
Pain occurred in throat (and ear) that feels like an infection. Pain is on the right side, and hurts more when I
open my mouth wide.
Pain occurred in ear (and throat) that feels like an infection. Pain is on the right side.
Had a nap for approximately 20 minutes. Unusual.
Cold sore reappeared on left side after I noticed an itchy sting, which was the same place that I first got one.
Pink patch appeared on lower lips.
Ear pain got worse at 1:30am. Worse when jaw is opened.
I have a lot of work to get through and feel overwhelmed by the amount. It is not normal for me to feel so
anxious about workload. Feel frustrated.
Slight prickling sensation felt on head under hair. Better for scratching.
Slight prickling sensation felt around temples. Better for scratching.
Slight prickling sensation felt on bottom lip near cold sore.
Have had very bad, painful gas with bloating for most of the day. I have gone to the toilet 5 times.
Three lines of an Emenem song got stuck in my head: Christina Aguilera switch me chairs, so I can sit next
to Carson Daily and Fred Durst, and hear them argue of who she gave head to first. Little bitch put me on
Blast on MTV; “Yeah he’s cute but I think he’s married to Kim hee hee!”
I’m feeling very tired. I had a hard day, but seem to be more tired than I should be. Need rest.
Felt restless and in need of a cigarette to calm me. Felt better after smoking.
Left ear feels blocked and under pressure. Breathing deeply through my left nostril helps by causing pressure
changes in both ears when I do this.
I can feel some mucous in the back of my throat.
My sister leaves for O.S. tomorrow. Felt a bit angry that she didn’t come over tonight until about 9:30pm.
Mum had expected her for dinner.
Feeling restless. Craving cigarette. Felt better after smoking.
Ear feels blocked and painful like there is phlegm in it.
2 minutes after I took the remedy it felt like my glasses were really heavy on my forehead and nose.
I felt like I had butterflies in the abdomen - the hypogastrium area. It tingled for about 30 seconds.
I felt frozen all over, icy.
I feel much more mellow about stuff - relaxed. I thought I had posted a quick deposit envelope at the post
office instead of at the bank - I just laughed. I have been getting to work late and leaving early and feeling
ok about it.
Forgetful, vague, forget what I was about to do, got dates mixed up.
My eyes were hazy. It felt as though I had just taken off my glasses at the end of the day. Usually they
would focus again within minutes; 2 hours later they still hadn’t focused.
It feels sore/strained, it is difficult to keep my head up.
I feel really unmotivated to do anything.
Fullness, feels like I am severely constipated, < walking, moving and leaning forward, > still.
I feel like I am severely constipated, it is worse for walking, movement and sitting down. It is better for
On the right side of my stomach it felt as though someone was poking me. It felt like a sharp stinging pain.
My head felt hazy as I was looking at my computer, a slight headache on the vertex - this happened
My jaw and glands felt as though they were swollen as though pressure was building up; however on
palpating them they weren’t.
It feels like my wrists are weak, like I have strained it on my right side. The pain runs up the ulna bone.
Pain feels like period pain – during ovulation – don’t usually have ovulation pain. Had to sit on ground.
Tummy upset, < walking, > not moving. It felt like potential diahorrea.
When sitting on the couch my back felt strained. The pain was beginning at the lumbar region right across
Runny stools with a sore lower back.
It felt as though I had the cramps that go along with diarhoea but I had no diarhoea to go with the cramps.
< walking. Lasted 10 minutes.
I felt depressed for 5mins. I felt as though I wasn’t in control of everything that I needed to be, e.g self and
work. Worried about life in general. Like a cloud. Talked myself out of it.
I feel as though I was awake when I was asleep - like dozing.
I just can’t be bothered doing anything. I get up and walk around forgetting what it was that I got up for. I
guess I am confused. I have so much to do, but wander around wondering what to do.
I feel dazey. I walk around, I can’t be bothered. Confused. So much to do but what should I do now?
Couldn’t be bothered going to gym today. Dozed in bed until 9.00am. Like sleeping while awake. Lack
Feel good today.
During an aerobics class I had chronic cramps in my lower abdomen - the type you get with diarrhoea, <
Feels like I need to stretch out in bed – muscles feel like stretching. Last 2 mornings.
Yawning a lot.
Could not sleep - Fell asleep finally about 3.30am. But I still felt as though I was awake. I could still hear all
the outside noises. Not been sleeping well for last few nights, restless, tossing, turning, and stretching.
Sleeplessness is somehow related to the need to stretch.
Abdominal cramps with a sore lower back, I tried to go to the toilet but I was constipated. The cramps were
better for stretching.
Sitting doing some reading – slight dizzy feeling – difficulty focussing when reading, better when writing –