Guide to Informed Choices
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dreams. They came to him every night, for weeks on end. It was always the same. He was walking amongst a beautiful sunlit O
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meadow with flowers and butterflies — though he was anxious. He saw a group of children playing happily but when he tried to speak to them they ran away in terror. This repeated itself and he kept waking up in cold sweats, unable to sleep again that night.
In one of these dreams he asked the monk figure who was always present in his dreams who the children were. ―They are the ones you killed with your abortions‖ was his answer. After this, Stojan decided to stop doing abortions. He performed one final abortion, which you can read about in Reason #61: Abortionists don‘t enjoy their job .
home? believe that souls still need a home. My personal belief is that aborted children are temporally taken to heaven, but that they also need a place to return — to do what God created them for in the beginning. One woman named Cherie had a personal experience with this: Several years ago, while visiting with a friend, we had a remarkable experience together. We had been talking of things close to our hearts when suddenly my friend became quiet. Then she said, ―Cherie, there are angels present.‖ I turned and saw my son, Marshall, who had died in infancy. With him I also saw my children who had not yet been born. I knew I had seen these children before. Then Marshall introduced me to a child I had not seen before. This child begged to be a part of our family. I agreed. He asked three times and each time I agreed. On the third request he stated that he was ―a Cast Off One,‖ and begged entry into our family. My friend saw the experience up to this point. Then a path opened before me, leading to a field filled with white cradles. The Lord Jesus Christ stood in their midst. In the cradles were babies, endless rows of babies. The Lord turned to me and said, ―These are the Cast Off Ones. Their blood cries to me from the earth.‖ I instantly knew His meaning. These multitudes were aborted babies! 222
Quotable Quote ―Yes, aborted children continue to exist and still need families to receive them. ‖
—Sarah and Brent Hinze, The Castaways: Safely in His Arms
carry memories of being aborted. In Reason
#53: The fetus can feel pain
you can read I
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about the little girl who was deathly afraid of fire and how her mother‘s first pregnancy had ended. We look at a few more stories in this Reason. One mother, Bonnie, described her concern for her son who had an unusually agitated and angry temperament ever since birth: When he was three years eleven months he said something that startled me. His tested IQ is over 130, in the gifted range, so he can be quite articulate for his age. I was driving on the freeway and from his car seat he said, ―Mommy, I didn‘t like being with that other family. They yelled a lot and were mean. I was scared. It really hurt a lot when they ‗lobbed‘ me out at the doctor place. Then I got to come and be with you. This family is nicer. They don‘t yell so much. I like it better here.‖ That‘s all he would say. Could the catalyst for our son‘s anger and terror be memories of painful rejection by abortion? 224
Quotable Quote I want to live for I have the right to be! I want to do all that God has planned for me! and then I'll be a soul that's free! 225
Another mother, Loretta, had a similar experience. Of all her children, Jimmy required so much more reassurance. Whenever Loretta left him with someone else he would become distressed and upset. When he was three years old an incident occurred that made her search her heart for answers: He rarely awoke in the night, even when sick. Then one night when he was three, I was jarred awake by piercing screams. I bolted out of bed and ran to his room. When I got to him his whole body was shaking and he screamed that someone was trying to take him. His screams conveyed real pain. He kept saying it hurt and he was going to die. I could not comfort him for quite some time. I held his shaking body and stroked his hair. He cried on and on in agony. I kept reassuring him he was safe in his own bed with his mommy right by his side. He finally fell asleep in my arms and I was left in the middle of the night to try and make sense of a little boy‘s pain. This incident further impelled Loretta‘s search for answers and she wondered if he had had a trauma in his past. She reassured Jimmy frequently, telling him that he was loved, welcomed and that mommy and daddy were so happy to have him in their family. One day when he was four years old Jimmy mentioned his memories again. He was in the car and his mother was driving home some friends home from the airport. I‘ll let her continue: Out of the blue he shocked us with this
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comment, ―I was thinking of my other mommy. She died because I kicked her.‖ Our friends were totally confused, but I had waited too long for clues to let this slip by. ―Jimmy, what did your other mommy look like?‖ He gave details like ―She had blue eyes and brown hair. She died so I got to come to you. I missed my other mommy, but I‘m glad you‘re my new mommy.‖ And that was that. I tried to smooth over the awkward moment with our friends and drove on home. That night I pondered how an aborted child would describe the experience. He might think his mommy died because he had been painfully taken from her. He might even think she died because he had kicked her from inside the womb. (I, in fact, know a lady who decided to abort her baby from the first moment she felt it kick. She exclaimed, ―I knew I could not keep the child when it kicked me.‖) Next I recalled the night Jimmy awoke in terror, screaming that somebody was trying to take him, that it hurt and he was going to die. Then there was the also the dream that Loretta‘s mother had had in which her deceased father shared, that Jimmy was ―a very special spirit who was aborted by another.‖ A further incident happened when Jimmy was 4½ and had been tucked in bed by Mom. When he called out and asked her to please turn the fan on, she came back and turned it on. This was their next conversation: ―Mommy, I thought you‘d be mad at me.‖ ―No Honey, I‘m not mad at you. Is Mommy mad at you a lot or a little?‖ ―Just a little. But mommy, you‘d never kill me ‘cause that would cut me.‖ I didn‘t know what to say. I reassured him Mommy would never hurt him and that Heavenly Father sent him to our home because we love him so much and we are lucky to have him. 226
Could this dear little boy have recalled memories of being aborted? Were his nightmares and subsequent recollections something his soul had not fully forgotten? Loretta thinks so.
Reason #21 ―To fulfill her plan your child needs life‖
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Reason #22 Maybe you are pregnant for a reason
A very personal story hen Meg sent me this story I decided to make it into a reason all of its own. Maybe you are pregnant for a reason. Meg was.
You never know what lies around the corner in your life...there is a reason that you have a baby in your womb... I was 19, in a rocky relationship that I wanted out of, covered in tattoos, and living in total rebellion when I found out that I was pregnant. I didn't know what to do. I went home from the doctor‘s where I had learned this new and frightening information and told my mom and sister, "I am pregnant; don't worry though I am getting an abortion"... They immediately discouraged me from it and, knowing that my sister had already had an abortion before, I took her very seriously. I was kind of forced to keep my baby, because if I hadn't, my mom and my sister would not have taken it well; but nonetheless I am so eternally grateful that I did. You see, you never know what lies around the corner. You can wake up one day with your world in order and by the end of the day your life is completely turned upside down. You can wake up one day with your world turned upside down and then suddenly have it fall out from under your feet. You can wake up one day with your world fallen out from under your feet and then suddenly have your heart ripped out and stomped on. Finally, you can wake up one day with nothing but an empty life filled with misery and hurt and finally, when you think that you can't take one more thing a miracle happens and you have life again. I am here to tell you how my life took these turns and the events that unfolded in the midst, and why I am so thankful that I did not have an abortion.
―I am so thankful that I did not have an abortion‖
I found out I was pregnant the day after September 11, 2001; do you remember how you felt that day? Not only that but it was my dad‘s birthday, and we hadn't spoken in so long that this only made things worse. Pennie's dad (my little girl‘s name is Pennielane) wanted me to get an abortion and I considered it too. It didn't take long for the two of us to get in a huge fight and W
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break up. I ended up with a restraining order on him because his final words to me at the time were "the baby is not mine and I hope it dies." He even got really violent and came inches from hitting me. But it was all good because I had my mom, her fiancé (a very close friend that I went to school with) and my sister. Well, shortly after I found out I was pregnant so did my sister. We were about a month apart. Yes...I had someone to walk through this with.
―I had a very dysfunctional family‖
My mom and her fiancé went to a nearby city to pick up a relative from the airport on October 24, 2001. Justin (my mom‘s fiancé) never made it home. They were in a horrible wreck and he died within 40 minutes of impact. We drove as fast as we could to get there but not quick enough to say goodbye. Yes, I know what you are thinking: why was my mom going to marry a guy that her daughter went to school with? Yes, he was only 1½ years older than me. I had a very dysfunctional family. Justin never turned 21. My mom was so upset. We didn't know how to help her.
We were grieving over Justin and over what was going on with my mom. My sister made a decision at that time. She wanted to be there for my mom, and we were both so sick from pregnancy that we could not take very good care of her. My sister already had two kids and she chose to get another abortion, thinking it would help her and my mom. They left town for the weekend to "take care" of her "problem." When they came home my sister was a mess and my mom seemed to be doing better. She could hardly wait to show me her new dress. It was from "Hot Topic," a long white crushed velvet gothic dress. She said it made her happy because it is the dress she would have wanted to wear for her wedding. The very next week she wore it alright. I woke up on the morning of November 19 to the phone ringing. It was a doctor for my mom. She was not in bed so I figured she went for a walk. I took a message and hung up. Then I thought "I bet she is in the bath or on the toilet." I went to her room where I had already been looking for her and I went in to the bathroom. There was my mom, in her dress at the bottom of her bathtub, under the water, in the fetal position. I was 3½ months pregnant at the time. I went running for my sister and we ran in the bathroom together and pulled her from the water. She just stayed in the same shape, stiff and cold. I had no idea what to do.
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Every reason that I had decided to keep my baby was gone. But in that moment the true reason why I had a baby in my womb was revealed...to keep me alive. I did attempt suicide but I could not go through with it, I didn't want to kill my baby. I could not go crazy on a drinking binge, I needed to protect the baby. I could not do drugs for the same reason. My sister was not pregnant anymore, she was crushed from her abortion that she got for my mom‘s sake, and what happened...she was no longer there to be taken care of. The very reason my sister had an abortion was no longer valid, plus she had the added pain and torture of what happened with our mom. This sent her into a raging drinking binge, she took off into the woods one night with tons of pills and I had to call an ambulance to drag her out and take her to the psycho ward. I was the only one in the house who could function and it was ONLY because of my baby. I had to take care of my niece and nephew. I began to learn to cook and clean. My mom always did it, we would help but she was the care taker. I had to do laundry, and teach myself to do it. I was taking the kids to school while my sister was passed out or puking. The only reason I was able to was because of my baby. I know that what I did to get pregnant (sex before marriage) was not a good thing, but God allowed me to be pregnant for a reason. He knew what I was going to go through at 3½ months along. He knew that ONLY
my baby could keep me alive and going. I lost 3 loved ones all in a month, Justin, my baby niece or nephew, and my mom.
―Every reason that I had decided to keep my baby was gone‖
I kept my baby for the wrong reasons. I kept my baby for everyone else but me and her, I kept her because I had a support group, I was "in love," and out of fear. My sister aborted her baby for the wrong reasons (not that there is a right reason) for my mom, because she wanted to be free to love others, and out of fear. The same thing happened to me and my sister: I lost my support group, she lost the person she aborted her baby for. I lost my boyfriend that I was "sooo in love with," she was unable to take care of her kids and even herself for months. And even to this day she struggles and she does not receive love well. As for the fear, nothing can be more frightening than what we saw and experienced that day... NOTHING
… ...but to know that I had life in my body when I was surrounded by death gave me
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hope. She gave me a reason to eat, get out of bed, and take care of myself, when all I wanted to do was just disappear. The fear drove my sister to drink, take many pills and abandon her kids for months while she hid from the world. Had she kept her baby she would have had that hope to keep her going too.
my body when I was surrounded by death gave me hope‖
Believe it or not, this is a true story. How I wish it was not, how I wish, but let me encourage you in one thing... Do you know what will happen 3½ months from now? If you have a life inside of your body, do not take it for granted. There is a reason why you have conceived a child, there is a reason why you are where you are at, this child could be your saving grace. Don't abort your baby for someone else...will they still be here in 3½ months? Don't do it out of fear...maybe this child has been given to you to relieve your fears 3½ months from now. Don't abort your child for love. Love is LIFE ...there is no love in death. Don't keep your baby for the same reasons either...keep your baby because he/she is a gift specially made with a purpose to fulfill in your life. My gift was life itself. I guarantee you that if I had aborted my little Pennielane I would not be where I am now, Happy, Married, Healing, Thankful, More Mature, Satisfied, Content, In Love, Full of Hope, Dreaming and Seeing
it Happen,
Encouraging...Life is all of these things and much, much more. Don't find out the hard way like my sister. Your baby already has life…let him/her return the favor by showing you what living is all about... .
See also Reason #20: There is a plan
Reason #22 ―You never know how a baby could be just what you need‖
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Reason #23 Being young and pregnant isn't the worst thing in the world
There are worse things than being young and pregnant There are worse things in life than being pregnant and scared… Even if you think it's the end of the world, it's not! —Kelly
one we just read in Reason #20 , you can see how being young and pregnant isn‘t the worst thing in the world. But sometimes it feels like it is. Are you emotional? Up and down? Petrified? Don't know what to think? You are not alone! The good news is, it‘s okay to feel like that. In fact, you‘re hormones are probably racing so much that if you weren‘t emotional I‘d be worried about you! Besides, if you had no emotion on learning that you were pregnant, well, let's just say you wouldn't be human. The important thing about emotions is not to let them run away with you. They're good; just learn from them. (And don‘t forget to check out Reason #71: Hormonal changes cause moodiness around the time most abortions occur! )
Let‘s get the facts straight. Your life will never be the same again. No, never. Whether you choose to parent your unborn child or terminate him, your life will be different from what it has been up to the moment you found you were pregnant. You will choose your future. You will either go forward and become the mother that you already are (or place him for adoption, letting someone else be his mother) or you will choose abortion as a way to end something you never wanted to Yüklə 4,63 Mb. Dostları ilə paylaş:
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