"The Unbearable Lightness Of Being"
By Milan Kundera
91
I can to keep you here. But you've got to retract that article you wrote about Oedipus. Is
it terribly important to you?
To
tell you the truth,
said Tomas, recalling how they had amputated a good third of the
text, it couldn't be any less important.
You know what's at stake, said the chief surgeon.
He knew, all right. There were two things in the balance: his honor (which consisted in
his refusing to retract what he had said) and what he had come to call the meaning of
his life (his work in medicine and research).
The chief surgeon went on: The pressure to make public retractions of past
statements—there's something medieval about it. What does it mean, anyway, to
'retract' what you've said? How can anyone state categorically
that a thought he once
had is no longer valid? In modern times an idea can be
refuted,
yes, but not
retracted.
And since to retract an idea is impossible, merely verbal, formal sorcery, I see no
reason why you shouldn't do as they wish. In a society run by terror,
no statements
whatsoever can be taken seriously. They are all forced, and it is the duty of every
honest man to ignore them. Let me conclude by saying that it is in my interest and in
your patients' interest that you stay on here with us.
You're right, I'm sure, said Tomas, looking very unhappy.
But? The chief surgeon was trying to guess his train of thought.
I'm afraid I'd be ashamed.
Ashamed! You mean to say you hold your colleagues in such high esteem that you
care what they think?
No, I don't hold them in high esteem, said Tomas.
Oh, by the way,
the chief surgeon added, you won't have to make a public statement. I
have their assurance. They're bureaucrats. All they need is a note in their files to the
effect that you've nothing against the regime. Then if someone comes and attacks them
for letting you work at the hospital, they're covered. They've given me their word that
anything you say will remain between you and them. They have no intention of
publishing a word of it.
Give me a week to think it over, said Tomas, and there the matter rested.
Tomas was considered the best surgeon in the hospital. Rumor had it that the chief
surgeon, who was getting on towards retirement age, would soon ask him to take over.
When that rumor was supplemented by the rumor that the authorities had requested a
statement of self-criticism from him, no one doubted he would comply.
That was the first thing that struck him: although he had never given people cause to
doubt his integrity, they were ready to bet on his dishonesty rather than on his virtue.
"The Unbearable Lightness Of Being" By Milan Kundera
92
The second thing that struck him was their reaction to the position they attributed to
him. I might divide it into two basic types:
The first type of reaction came from people who themselves (they or their intimates)
had retracted something, who had themselves been forced to make public peace with
the occupation regime or were prepared to do so (unwillingly, of course—no one
wanted to do it).
These people began to smile a curious smile at him, a smile he had never seen before:
the sheepish smile of secret conspiratorial consent. It was the smile of two men
meeting accidentally in a brothel: both slightly abashed, they are
at the same time glad
that the feeling is mutual, and a bond of something akin to brotherhood develops
between them.
Their smiles were all the more complacent because he had never had the reputation of
being a conformist. His supposed acceptance of the chief surgeon's proposal was
therefore further proof that cowardice was slowly but surely becoming the norm of
behavior and would soon cease being taken for what it actually was. He had never
been
friends with these people, and he realized with dismay that if he did in fact make
the statement the chief surgeon had requested of him, they would start inviting him to
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