my horse. The dervish had already turned his back and was walking away.
“Hey, wait, please!” I yelled as I caught up with him. “I want to hear your question.”
He stopped and turned around, smiling at me for the first time. “All right, do tell me, please, which of
the two is greater, do you think: the Prophet Muhammad or the Sufi Bistami?”
“What kind of a question is that?” I said. “How can you compare our venerated Prophet, may peace be
upon him, the last in the line of prophets, with an infamous mystic?”
A curious
crowd had gathered around us, but the dervish didn’t seem to mind the audience. Still
studying my face carefully, he insisted, “Please think about it. Didn’t the Prophet say, ‘Forgive me, God, I
couldn’t know Thee as I should have,’ while Bistami pronounced, ‘Glory be to me, I carry God inside my
cloak’? If one man feels so small in relation to God while another man claims to carry God inside, which
of the two is greater?”
My heart pulsed in my throat. The question didn’t seem so absurd anymore. In fact, it felt as if a veil
had been lifted and what awaited me underneath was an intriguing puzzle. A furtive smile, like a passing
breeze, crossed the lips of the dervish. Now I knew he was not some crazy lunatic. He was a man with a
question—a question I hadn’t thought about before.
“I see what you are trying to say,” I began, not wanting him to hear so much as a quaver in my voice.
“I’ll compare the two statements and tell you why, even though Bistami’s statement sounds higher, it is in
fact the other way round.”
“I am all ears,” the dervish said.
“You see, God’s love is an endless ocean, and human beings strive to get as much water as they can out
of it. But at the end of the day, how much water we each get depends on the size of our cups. Some people
have barrels, some buckets, while some others have only got bowls.”
As I spoke, I watched the dervish’s expression change from subtle scorn to open acknowledgment and
from there into the soft smile of someone recognizing his own thoughts in the words of another.
“Bistami’s container was relatively small, and his thirst was quenched after a mouthful. He was happy
in the stage he was at. It was wonderful that he recognized the divine in himself, but even then there still
remains a distinction between God and Self. Unity is not achieved. As for the Prophet, he was the Elect of
God and had a much bigger cup to fill. This is why God asked him in the Qur’an,
Have we not opened up
your heart? His heart thus widened,
his cup immense, it was thirst upon thirst for him. No wonder he
said, ‘We do not know You as we should,’ although he certainly knew Him as no other did.”
Breaking into a good-natured grin, the dervish nodded and thanked me. He then placed his hand on his
heart in a gesture of gratitude and stayed like that for a few seconds. When our eyes met again, I noticed
that a trace of gentleness had crept into his gaze.
I stared past the dervish into the pearl gray landscape that was typical of our town at this time of the
year. A few dry leaves skittered around our feet. The dervish looked at me with renewed interest, and in
the dying light of the setting sun, for a split second, I could swear that I saw an amber aura around him.
He bowed to me respectfully. And I bowed to him. I don’t know how long we stood like that, the sky
hanging violet above our heads. After a while the crowd around
us began to stir nervously, having
watched our exchange with an astonishment that verged on disapproval. They had never seen me bow to
anyone before, and the fact that I had done so for a simple wandering Sufi had come as a shock to some
people, including my closest disciples.
The dervish must have sensed the censure in the air.
“I’d better go now and leave you to your admirers,” he said, his voice dwindling to a velvety timbre,
almost a whisper.
“Wait,” I objected. “Don’t go, please. Stay!”
I glimpsed a trace of thoughtfulness in his face, a wistful pucker of the lips, as if he wanted to say more
but simply couldn’t or wouldn’t. And in that moment, in that pause, I heard the question he hadn’t asked