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being single was one of the reasons I’d listed in the PRO section of my pro-con
list. The happiness she’d feel knowing Brett was my (fake) boyfriend would be
enough to last her a lifetime. She’d give me one of her squeeze-the-life-out-of-
you hugs and it could potentially be a nice moment. . . .
“He’s very cute,” she continued.


And then she said things like that and ruined it. She got into these obsessive
moods that weirded me out. I mean, she was practically ready to plan our
wedding after selling him some pastries.
“I hadn’t noticed.” I was lying. My mom knew it. I knew it. Everyone on
Earth knew it. I felt like taping a sign to my head that said “Yes I Am Aware
Brett Is Cute and No I Do Not Like Him Like That” and calling it a day.
“Becca.” Her voice was all serious now, and she was walking toward me. I
kept my eyes on the counter. “You know I want you to be happy,” she said,
placing her hand over mine.
“I know, Mom.” And I did know. She told me all the time.
“And that just because your father and I weren’t a match, it doesn’t mean
you won’t find yours.”
“Yes, Mom.”
“And,” she continued, lifting my chin and forcing me to look her in the eyes,
“I want you to find someone you love. Someone that’s deserving of you.”
Urgh. It was so difficult for me to understand how my dad could have left
my mother in moments like this. She was caring, kind. She was beautiful too.
Like, really beautiful. How could someone not love her? My mother was the
greatest person in the world.
“You know divorces aren’t—”
“Divorces aren’t genetic,” I finished. “I knoooow.”
She smiled, satisfied.
We cleaned in silence for a little. I couldn’t stop thinking about my dad.
There were a million questions I wanted to ask about him. Normally they were
strictly off-limits. From past experiences, my mom would either 1) cry or 2)
become very quiet and retreat to her bedroom. But now she was smiling while
she swept, and she kept giving me these hopeful glances. So I took a deep breath
and said, “Hey, Mom? When was the last time you spoke to Dad?”
I didn’t think she heard me. She kept sweeping, never breaking rhythm. I bit
my tongue, figuring it was for the best. But then she said, “When the bakery
opened.”
I immediately stopped cleaning.
“He came by the second or third day,” she continued. “He couldn’t believe I
learned how to bake. You remember how I always messed up our birthday
cakes? He was shocked. You should have seen his face.” She was smiling to
herself now, lost in thought. “He bought some cannoli—you know how much he
loved your grandmother’s recipe—and then he left. I haven’t heard from him
since.”
I didn’t know what to say.


“The store’s clean. Let’s lock up, Bells.”
I took the broom and the rag and placed them in the closet. We grabbed our
jackets, then I followed my mom outside and watched as she locked the doors.
Then we headed home.
I didn’t ask any more questions. She didn’t give any more answers.
There were cupcakes in the kitchen the next morning. Meaning my mom
wasn’t upset about our conversation the night before. I still couldn’t shake the
feeling that I’d imagined it, her actually talking about my dad. All night I kept
hearing the sound of the bell chiming as the bakery door opened and imagining
my dad standing there and what it must have felt like for my mom. Did it hurt?
Or was it nice to see him? Did he ask about me? What else did they talk about
other than pastries? My head was spinning. The worst part was knowing I’d
never have the answers. My mom even telling me she saw him was a miracle. A
one-time miracle.
I was still obsessing over it by the time I got to school. Which was why I
didn’t notice the package at the bottom of my locker until it fell out and landed
on my shoe. I picked it up quickly and looked around the hallway. No one was
watching me. Inside was a navy-blue football jersey with WELLS stitched into
the back in gold thread. There was a note that read Wear this tonight, girlfriend.
I rolled my eyes. It was ridiculous that my first high school football game was all
an act. But the jersey was really soft, and it smelled good, kind of like Brett
(why did I know what Brett smelled like?), so I’d wear it.
I called Cassie during lunch. Since tonight was the first game of the season,
the football team was meeting with the coach during lunch to discuss the game
plan. Which meant no Brett and a whole lot of privacy. I told Cassie about the
jersey, and asked her to come to the game with me tonight. She said she wanted
to, but had a closing shift at the bakery. I offered to ask my mom to find
someone to cover it, but no luck. I was going alone. Maybe the jersey would be
big enough for me to hide a book in. If I sat at the back of the bleachers, no one
would notice. Right?
Turns out I was right. I tried the jersey on when I got home, and the thing
nearly reached my knees. It was five sizes too big, and I almost didn’t wear it.
But then I remembered how I blew Brett off yesterday with the school rally. . . .
Wearing it was the least I could do to pull my weight here.
He didn’t respond when I texted that I was on my way. He was probably
busy getting ready for the game.
When I got to Eastwood High, the bleachers were completely full. I finally
found a spot wedged between two people and sank down. I contemplated
reading but there was too much noise to concentrate, so I focused on the crowd


instead. The cheerleaders were dancing on the field until, finally, the Bears ran
out from the side. Everyone stood up and started screaming. I did the same,
remembering this was a part of the deal Brett and I made.
Cheering girlfriend in the stands? Check.
Wearing Brett’s jersey? Check.
A shoo-in for Fake Girlfriend of the Year? Check.
I watched the game and pretended to understand what was happening. I
should have done research beforehand to at least learn the basics of football. I
just stood when everyone else did, screamed when they screamed, and clapped
when they clapped. I even made sure to yell extra loud when Brett had the ball—
which was for most of the game, really.
After about an hour, I was actually enjoying myself. Maybe this football
thing wasn’t too bad. It was easy to lose myself in the excitement, and I was
beginning to understand why so many people spent their Friday nights sitting out
here with blue paint on their cheeks and gold ribbons in their hair. It made you
feel like you were a part of something bigger than yourself.
When Brett scored the winning touchdown, the crowd erupted like a
volcano. I actually had to cover my ears to prevent permanent damage. I could
see the smile on his face as his teammates lifted him above their heads, chanting
his name and carrying him around like a trophy. It was kind of cool to be dating
him, even if it was fake.
I followed as the crowd trickled from the bleachers and over to the locker
room doors, waiting for the players. The night was cool, with stars covering the
entire sky like a blanket. I tugged Brett’s jersey around me a little tighter to get
rid of the goose bumps running along my arms. I was bouncing on my heels,
rubbing my hands together to stay warm, when the door finally opened and Brett
walked out. Our eyes locked and I expected him to be smiling, not looking sad.
His eyes were searching the crowd as he walked toward me.
“You were great,” I said lamely when he was in front of me.
It was like the words weren’t even registering in his brain.
“Have you seen my parents?” he asked, frantically searching the crowd.
He didn’t even look at the jersey I was wearing or comment on my cheering.
“No.” I began looking around, as if I’d even recognize them.
“My dad said he’d be here tonight. I haven’t seen him. Or my mom.” He was
mumbling to himself at this point, eyes still scanning.
“I’m sure they’re here somewhere, Brett. Text them?”
“Right.” He nodded and pulled out his phone. A minute later his face fell.
“What is it?”
“She said my dad had to stay in New York longer. He won’t be home till


Monday.” His fist clenched when he said this, and I didn’t miss the way he
shoved his phone into his pocket like he was mad at it.
I couldn’t understand why he was so angry. His dad missed one game. So
what? My dad had missed half my life and I wasn’t snapping at people because
of it.
This didn’t seem like a good time to say that, though.
“He’ll be at your next one,” I offered.
“I guess. Do you need a ride home?” He looked at me then for the first time,
his eyes going down to the jersey. “You wore it.” Smallest of smiles. “It looks
good on you.”
I pulled at the hem self-consciously. “Yeah. Thanks.”
“For the ride or the compliment?”
“Both?”
Brett grabbed my hand then and led me through the crowd. We were making
our way toward the parking lot; I could see his car parked in the corner. He
didn’t make small talk this time, and I had a feeling he was still upset about his
dad. When we arrived at his car and were sitting inside, I tried again.
“About your dad,” I began, “he’s really never missed a game?”
Brett began to drive, a little faster than normal. “Never.”
“What about your mom? Do they come together?”
“Yeah. She said she didn’t want to come alone tonight.”
“So what would have happened if they came?”
He glanced at me quickly, then back to the road. “What do you mean?”
“Like . . . Would you have introduced me to them as your girlfriend or
something?” I asked, trying to keep his mind off his dad’s absence.
Brett laughed, reaching over to flick my knee. “Probably, yeah. I already told
my dad about you, remember? He would have wanted to meet you.”
For the record, he had not told me that.
“You’ve really never had a girlfriend before?”
“Never.”
“That’s weird,” I whispered so he wouldn’t hear.
We drove past two traffic lights before Brett spoke again. “I know what
you’re trying to do, Becca. It’s not working.”
I rolled down the window, letting in the air. “And what’s that?”
“Trying to make me forget about the bakery yesterday. And how you stood
me up during the rally.”
I felt my face heat up just thinking about it. “For the second time, I didn’t
stand you up! I was going to study before my mom called. And believe me, the
interrogation I went through that night was punishment enough.”


“Interrogation?”
“My mom may be your new number one fan.”
“Your mom doesn’t even know me,” he said.
“Isn’t that how it works? Everyone knows bits and pieces about you and
loves you anyway?” Now Brett gave me this funny look, his eyebrows drawn
together. “What? You’re an enigma.”
“A what?”
“An enigma,” I repeated. “Do you even pay attention in English class? It
means a puzzle, a mystery. Whatever.”
He was smiling when we pulled into my apartment building.
“I’m not a mystery,” he said, “people just make assumptions and no one
bothers to find out the truth. That’s it.”
With the moonlight slanting across Brett’s face, this entire conversation had
taken a sad turn. Uncomfortable and never being very good with talking about
deep stuff, I opened the door and began to get out of the car. Brett’s hand
wrapped around mine, stopping me.
“Your bag,” he said, reaching across the car and picking it up. “Why is this
so heavy?” When his hand began to reach inside, I shrieked and tried to pull it
away. Too late. Brett was holding my book.
I coughed. Pretended to look confused. “Wow. How did that get in there?”
“You brought a book to my football game,” he said, all serious and offended.
I looked over my shoulder, pretending someone was calling me. “I did not.”
I was telling so many lies lately I could barely keep track.
Brett placed it back in my bag and handed it to me. At this point I was half in
and half out of the car. My back was beginning to hurt.
“Was being at the game that bad?” he asked.
This time, I was honest. “Not at all. I kind of liked it.”
“So no book next time?” He was giving me puppy eyes.
I caved. “No book next time.”
I waved goodbye and was halfway to the doors when Brett called my name.
The window was rolled down, his head sticking out of the car like a dog. “What
are you doing tomorrow?” he yelled.
I had this irrational fear my mother would hear this conversation from eleven
floors up and come barging outside like a shark smelling blood. I shushed him
and quickly ran to the car. “Nothing. Study—”
“Studying for calculus. I know. What else?”
I blew out a breath, thinking. “That’s it.” Pause. “I have a very intense social
life.”
Brett laughed, and it was like whatever heaviness weighing him down earlier


was entirely gone. “Do you want to hang out tomorrow? There’s something I
want to show you.”
I felt my face scrunch up. “Is this, like, a date? For show or something?” I
didn’t want this relationship to start taking up my weekends too. A five-day
school commitment was enough. Plus my Friday nights!
He shook his head. “Not this time. Just two friends, together. You said I was
a mystery. Right?” I nodded. “Then let me show you I’m not. It doesn’t make
much sense if my own girlfriend doesn’t know anything about me.”
He made a good point.
“I know you like football.”
“I like other things too.”
“Like what?”
“Come with me tomorrow and find out,” he said, grinning.
The guy was good. I’ll give him that.
“Pick me up at two,” I said. Then I ran inside before my mom could look out
the window and spot us together.


Brett
I WAS TEN MINUTES LATE
to Becca’s apartment. I was still obsessing over my
dad and spent almost an hour trying to call him. Where was he? Even my mother
said she hadn’t heard from him since yesterday. What was he doing that was so
important he couldn’t text either of us back? I told myself he was busy, probably
in another meeting—or maybe he got an early flight to come home tonight. It
would justify why he wouldn’t call, and it was easier to think of than him simply
forgetting.
But my dad didn’t forget. So there had to be an explanation for all of this.
I ended up going to the gym in the morning with Jeff just to get my mind off
it. He wasn’t any help. When I told him about my dad, he blew up, said it wasn’t
a good idea to idolize people because they can never live up to your
expectations. But this wasn’t a celebrity or some random person in a magazine.
This was my dad, and there had to be a reason why he didn’t show up. I only
hoped everything was okay.
Either way, I was pretty sure Jeff was pissed at me. Which wasn’t unusual.
He had a rough time at home, watching his sister while his parents worked
around the clock, so sometimes his frustration boiled up and I happened to be in
the line of fire. I wasn’t mad. He’d apologize on Monday and we’d be cool
again, back to talking about football.
Now I was waiting in my car for Becca to come outside, preferably with
something for me to eat from her mom’s bakery. When she finally walked out a
minute later, a brown paper bag in hand, I wasn’t disappointed. She was smiling
when she opened the door, and I realized that this—the two of us hanging out—
could be a new kind of normal.
“Afternoon,” she said, waving the bag in front of me. “I brought you a
surprise.”


I was already feeling better.
“Cupcakes?” I asked, sniffing.
“No. It’s better than that.” I reached for the bag and she pulled it away,
stuffing it into the side of the door before I could reach it. “It’s for later,” she
explained. “If I like what we do today, you can eat it.”
“And if you don’t like it?”
She smiled. Maybe the biggest one yet. “Then you can watch me eat it.”
I started driving through town with purpose then. The good thing about
living in Crestmont, a town with under ten thousand people, was that it’s so
small you could drive through the entire thing in less than ten minutes. We had
one high school, one church, one gym, one theater—pretty much one of
everything. There were a few run-down hotels and diners lining the interstate for
travelers stopping for the night. And it was always one night. People passed
through Crestmont like a revolving door. No one wanted to stay. Unless you
were born here and had no other choice.
I planned on leaving after high school. Getting a football scholarship in
another city with hundreds of thousands of people, where there were more
streets than you could count on one hand. Coach said scouts would start coming
to our football games now, to scope out the talent. And I wanted the talent to be
me. I needed a one-way ticket out of here. More important, I wanted my dad to
be at my games and witness it—witness me living out his dream like he
intended.
Like she could sense my thoughts, Becca said, “Have you heard from your
dad yet?”
I liked the way she asked that. There was no judgment. Unlike Jeff.
“Not yet,” I said, turning off Main Street and onto a side road. The ground
was gravel and we were bumping along. Becca opened her window and the
humidity crept in, making my T-shirt stick to my skin. She didn’t say anything
else about the situation, which was for the best. I was over thinking about it.
I made a sharp left and pulled into a parking lot. There was a pharmacy, a
convenience store, a post office, and—
“The old arcade?” Becca asked, leaning forward to look out the windshield.
The sun was right above the building and we were both squinting.
“The old arcade,” I said. A few of the neon letters had burned out, so the sign
read ARC. From the outside, it looked run-down. There was no open sign or cars
in the parking lot. Someone driving through town would think this place was a
dive, that it had closed a decade ago. But they’d be wrong. And that was the cool
thing about Crestmont. That it had all this secret charm that was known only to
the people who grew up here. Like if you scraped off enough of the dirt, there’d


be a shiny diamond waiting underneath.
“I haven’t been here since I was a kid,” Becca was saying to herself while we
walked to the door. The town was so quiet today—there was no wind, no cars
driving by. All I could hear was the crunch of gravel beneath our feet and the
rustle of the paper bag Becca had gripped between her fingers.
I held the door open, we stepped inside, and the air-conditioning blasted us.
It was one of the greatest feelings. We both stood there for a second, cooling
down. Then I grabbed Becca’s hand and pulled her through the second set of
automatic doors and into the arcade. I didn’t grab her hand for show either.
There was no one here to lie to. I was starting to do it out of habit.
The arcade was exactly like I remembered it. Dimly lit, with rows and rows
of games. There was the counter to our left, with a wall of prizes to trade tickets
for. There were stuffed animals and plastic jewelry on display, and the air
smelled like grease, popcorn, and a little like pot. I heard Becca gasp. Her eyes
were wide open.
“I thought this place closed down years ago,” she said, scanning the room. “I
had my birthday party here when I was seven. I hit the jackpot on that Wheel of
Fortune game.”
Samson stood up from behind the counter then, eyes half-closed and red.
Well, that explained the smell. “Wells?” he called, staring at the two of us.
“Hey, Sam.” I walked to the counter and shook his hand. He looked older
than he had last time I was here, more gray hair and wrinkles around his eyes.
He was diagnosed with cancer a few years back and the arcade had closed while
he was undergoing treatment. It reopened last summer when he was cancer free.
I’d come in from time to time to check on it while he was in the hospital, make
sure no kids were breaking in and playing without paying. I stopped coming by
since the reopening. Until today.
“Feels like I ’aven’t seen ya in years,” he said, thick accent replacing all the
h’s. Then his attention shifted over to Becca. “And ’o’s this?”
She held out her hand. “Becca. It’s nice to see you again. I had no idea this
place was still open.”
Samson nodded, pulling out two bags of tokens from under the counter and
handing one to each of us. “It would ’ave closed if it weren’t for this man right
’ere,” he said, smiling at me. “You two ’ave the entire place to ya’selves.
Enjoy.” I paid for the tokens, thanked him, and followed Becca.
“What did he mean that this place would have closed without you?” Becca
whispered when we were out of earshot. I briefly explained Samson’s illness, but
didn’t really want to get into how I watched the place. Becca gave me this
confused look, like she was trying to decipher a code or something, then walked


right up to the racing game. There were two seats, red and blue, with matching
steering wheels. She was eyeing the blue one.
“Let’s play,” I said, taking a seat on the red one. She sat down on the blue,
slowly. “Something wrong?”
“I don’t know how to drive.”
I immediately started to laugh until I was doubled over, resting my head on
the steering wheel. When I saw that she was being completely serious, glaring at
me, I cleared my throat and straightened up.
“Oh. You’re being serious?” She nodded. “This isn’t like real driving, Becca.
You’ll be fine. Look.” I grabbed her hands and placed them at ten and two on the
wheel. “Spin it like this to turn right, then left. Yeah, just like that. The brake is
the big one. Got it?”
She was concentrating so seriously. It was kind of cute.
“Brake is the big one,” she repeated. “Got it. Put some tokens in. And
Brett?”
I dropped in two tokens and hit the start button. “Yeah?”
“Don’t let me win,” she said, pointing a finger at my chest. “I mean it. Don’t
be all chivalrous. It’s rude.”
I tried to make sense of that. “You’re saying being respectful is rude?”
She was staring at the screen, hands on the wheel. “In this situation, yes.”
“Got it, ma’am.”
The game started. Becca was horrible. She spent half of the first lap driving
backward. When she managed to turn the car around, she was driving on the
grass and running into buildings. She may have hit a person or two. Definitely a
few mailboxes. It was physically painful for me to win each lap and not at least
try to help her out but, like she said, chivalry is dead when it comes to gaming.
So I finished that third lap with a smile on my face. I threw my fist in the air too.
Just to show her how respectful and aware I was of her lack of talent.
“Jeez. You can tone it down a little,” she grumbled, staring at the screen
showing the match replay. It was footage of her hitting a tree.
We moved on to the next game. It was a huge wheel divided into different
sections, each with a prize amount. The jackpot was one thousand tickets and the
smallest was five. I spun it first—I was shocked the wheel didn’t break because
of how old it looked—and landed on one hundred. Becca went next. The arrow
landed on five hundred. She pulled the tickets out happily, eyeing me the entire
time with this smirk on her face, like she was making up for sucking at the
racing game. I stuffed our tickets into my pocket and we moved on to the next
game. This time, it was Skee-Ball. It was a large table with a ramp and holes in
the upper half. Each had a different ticket amount. The point was to grab a ball,


roll it across the table, and have it bounce into one of the different holes. The
smaller the hole, the greater the prize.
“Let’s make this interesting,” I said, handing Becca the first ball. “If you get
a ball in, you get to ask the other person a question. You said you wanted to get
to know me better, right? Here’s your chance.”
“So this is like the Skee-Ball version of twenty questions?”
“Something like that, yeah.”
Becca nodded, squaring her shoulders and cracking her neck. “Let’s do this.”
She rolled the first ball and into the hole it went. The smallest one too, right in
the middle.
I whistled, watching her grin spread. “Impressive. Ask away.”
She sat on the edge of the ramp, glancing up at me. “What’s your connection
with this place? You seem really close with Samson,” she said, nodding toward
the counter.
“I worked here when I was fifteen, just for the summer,” I explained.
“But I thought your family . . .” Was rich, was what she meant but didn’t
say. She looked uncomfortable, chewing on her lip.
I shrugged, gesturing for her to stand so I could take my turn. “My family is
well off, sure. But this was my favorite place as a kid. It was the only real time
my dad and I spent together that didn’t involve a football. So when I saw that
Sam needed the help, I volunteered. He couldn’t pay me for most weeks so I just
played the games for free and ate loads of popcorn. It was pretty sweet.” I rolled
the ball, missed, and handed the next one to Becca. She was giving me that
confused, who-are-you face again. “Your turn.”
She blinked, said, “Right,” and took the ball. When she rolled it, she missed.
My ball landed in the five-hundred-point hole next. “Favorite color?” I
asked.
She thought about it for a second. “All of them. Undecided.” She rolled and
scored. “Favorite food?”
“Burgers,” I said. “And fries.”
I rolled. Missed. Becca rolled. Scored.
“How old were you when you had your first kiss?” she asked.
“Thirteen. It was during recess and we both had braces.” I rolled again and
scored this time. “Are you and your mom close?”
She smiled, bending to grab another ball. “Yeah. She’s my best friend.”
Becca rolled and missed, passing me the next ball. I scored.
“What were you thinking before when I said I used to work here?” I asked.
“You had this funny look on your face.”
Becca grabbed a ball and tossed it between two hands, her eyes following it.


“Nothing. Just that, I don’t know, you’re different than I thought you’d be.”
“How so?”
“Like, you’re easy to talk to,” she began, “and attractive people are never
easy to talk to. That’s a scientific fact.”
“You think I’m—”
“And you’re really nice,” she continued, ignoring me. “Working here and
checking in on the place when Samson was sick. I mean, I kind of knew that
already. Everyone at Eastwood always goes on about how nice you are and stuff.
But it’s different, to see it firsthand. Am I rambling? I feel like I’m rambling.”
I was smiling by the time she finished talking.
“Not rambling,” I lied.
“Good.” She said it like she knew I was lying and picked up the next ball.
She scored again. One hundred points. “Do you regret this?” she asked. “Our
fake relationship.”
I didn’t even have to think about it. “No,” I said. “Not at all.”
It was starting to feel normal, being around Becca. Was it rude for me to be
surprised by how much I was enjoying her company? Because I was enjoying it.
I felt comfortable around her in this way I never had before. It was like we had
skipped the beginning awkward phase when you first meet someone and aren’t
entirely sure if you can act like yourself around them. I guess jumping straight
into dating could do that to two people. With Becca, I felt like I could be myself.
There was this kindness about her and this intelligence too, like she understood
more than she let on. It was nice.
“Me either.” She said it shyly. It reminded me of how she looked that day in
the hall after I kissed her.
I picked up the last ball and missed. It sucked too, because I had the perfect
question. I’d save it for later.
It took us an hour to go through all our tokens. When we had, I bought more.
We stayed in the arcade until we couldn’t hold any more tickets in our pockets
or hands. I started looping mine through my belt and they trailed behind when I
walked. Becca found this hilarious, picking off a few when she thought I wasn’t
looking and adding them to her own stash. When we were done, we combined
our tickets for a total of two thousand and traded them in for three prizes: a red
plastic ring with a rose on it, a pack of sour gummy worms, and a stuffed blue
whale.
Becca took the ring, we shared the worms, and the whale was undecided.
We were sitting outside on the parking lot’s curb, knee to knee, under the
sun. It was cooler now, and the leaves on the trees were blowing in the breeze.
Becca’s hair was whipping around her face, constantly going into my eyes. After


I ate the last gummy worm, she hauled out the brown paper bag—where had she
kept it this entire time?—and placed it on my knee.
“What’s the verdict?” I asked, eyeing the bag. “Did you have fun today? Am
I allowed to finally eat whatever that is?”
She laughed, pulled her knees to her chest, and said, “You can eat them.”
I grabbed the bag, stood up, did a little victory dance, then sat back down and
ripped the bag open. There were four little balls inside, all covered in white
sugar. They were the same ones I had bought for my mom and, holy shit, they
smelled incredible. I reached in and grabbed one. By some miracle, it was still
warm. How was that possible?
“My mom calls them jelly bells,” she explained, grabbing one for herself.
“It’s fried dough stuffed with strawberry jelly and covered in sugar. It was the
first recipe she really perfected when she started baking. They were originally
called jelly balls but, since they’re my favorite and my mom calls me Bells, she
renamed them.”
I was listening, I really was, but I was also starving and these things smelled
like literal heaven and I really thought I’d drop dead if I didn’t eat one in the
next second.
When Becca took a bite, I shoved the whole thing in my mouth. I may have
moaned because this was definitely one of the best things I’d ever eaten.
“Remember when you asked what my favorite food was?” I asked, a cloud of
white powder spewing from my mouth. Becca nodded. There was sugar all over
her mouth. “I change my answer to these.”
We sat there while the sun began to set, eating the rest. When we were both
covered in powder, we dusted ourselves off and I drove Becca home. She was
talking about the games, replaying which were her favorite and why. She kept
toying with the rose ring on her finger. The blue whale was sitting on the
dashboard. When I pulled into her apartment building, she sat there for a minute
in silence, staring at the sky. I wanted to ask what she was thinking, but I kept
quiet.
After a moment, she turned to me and said, “You’re lucky, Brett, to have a
family like yours. Not because of the money. Just having two parents that are
there for you and are these role models of what love should look like. And I
don’t want to overstep, but I don’t think you should be upset at your dad for
missing your football game. It was just one game. Try to think of the hundreds
of games he’s been to, all right? All those times he put in the effort to support
you—that’s what matters, not the one time he failed.”
Then she got out of the car, waved goodbye, and left.
I sat there for a while thinking about how I had lucked out on choosing a


pretty great fake girlfriend.


Becca
MY MOM WAS SITTING AT
the kitchen table when I walked inside. The oven
was on, she had an apron tied around her neck, and our apartment smelled like
vanilla—the three signs that she was beginning a new recipe.
“How was your day?” she asked, glancing over her shoulder and smiling at
me.
“Good.” I grabbed a water bottle from the fridge and leaned against the
counter.
“What did you and Cassandra do?”
I felt a little twinge of guilt for telling my mom I was spending the day at
Cassie’s house, helping her fill out college applications. Some lies were for the
greater good, though. Like escaping another Brett fiasco.
“Nothing. Just college stuff,” I answered, looking anywhere but her eyes. My
mom (all moms?) had this talent of knowing exactly when I was lying. It’s like
she could see it on my face or something. The trick was to say as little as
possible and make a hasty exit. I was nearly out of the kitchen, almost to safety,
when she called my name.
“I was talking to Cara on the phone before you walked in!” I froze, slowly
turned around, and saw That Look on her face. Nothing good could come out of
her talking to Cassie’s mom. “She invited us over for dinner tonight. I told her
that was so funny, because you were already at her house. And you know what
she said?”
I shook my head. Braced for impact.
“Cara said,” she continued, “that you weren’t there.”
I choked out a laugh. “That is very funny, Mom. You know how bad her
eyesight is. Come to think of it, I don’t think she was wearing her glasses at all
today. And Cassie and I spent the entire day in her bedroom, so it’s possible she


didn’t even see—”
“Becca.”
I unraveled like a spool of string.
“Fine! I wasn’t with Cassie.” I sank down in the chair across from her,
defeated, and let the truth spill out. “I was with Brett,” I mumbled under my
breath.
I didn’t know it was physically possible for my mother’s face to go from
upset to unbelievably happy in under one second. Now she was beaming. She
was even sitting up straighter, leaning across the table.
“The boy from the bakery?” She whispered it like Brett was in the other
room eavesdropping.
“Yes.”
“What did you two do?” She said it calmly. Casually. I appreciated that she
was at least trying to restrain herself. I told her about the arcade (she was equally
surprised it was still open), and about the jelly bells, which, yes, Mom, Brett
loved. Duh. And no, Mom, I do not like him like that. We are friends. At that
point I could see her about to bubble over—she was bouncing in her seat—so I
needed to leave the room ASAP.
“Can we postpone the interrogation till tomorrow? I need to study for my
calculus test.”
The timer on the stove went off and she slipped on a pair of oven mitts. And,
oh my god, it smelled amazing. I almost decided to continue the interrogation
right then just to eat whatever was creating that heavenly smell.
“Speaking of tomorrow,” my mom said, placing a toothpick into a muffin
and nodding when it came out dry, “I need you to pick up a shift in the morning.
Don’t give me that face, Becca. It’s just an hour or two to help open the store,
then you can come home and study.”
“Mooooooom,” I groaned.
“I’ll make you fresh jelly bells for school on Monday morning. Feel free to
share them with whoever you choose,” she added, winking. No doubt a not-so-
subtle reference to Brett.
I caved anyway. It was the power of the jelly bells. “Fine. But two hours and
then I’m out of there. Promise?”
“Promise.”
I retreated to my room, snuck back into the kitchen ten minutes later and
stole a muffin, which, honestly, changed my life, then actually began studying
like I should have done two days ago. Having a fake boyfriend may have been a
little exciting, but I wasn’t about to stop being a straight-A student, especially
with college applications coming up. I still had no idea what I even wanted to


do. The only thing I really liked was reading. Maybe I’d study English literature.
Or creative writing. Half the time I told myself I’d take a year off like Cassie,
stay home and help my mom out with the bakery, and then figure out this whole
college thing later. If I didn’t score a scholarship to help my mom with tuition, I
wasn’t sure I’d even be able to go to college at all.
But as long as I was out of high school, that was what mattered.
It wasn’t even like I really hated high school or anything. I mean, I disliked it
the average teenage amount, but it just felt like Crestmont was this little part of
the world and there was so much more out there to be seen. And I wanted to
explore more than just the blue lockers of Eastwood High.
When I was in my pajamas, lying in bed with the lights off, my phone rang. I
glanced at the screen, lowered the brightness after it burned my eyes, and saw a
text from Brett. It was a selfie of him lying in bed with his eyes closed,
pretending to be asleep.
Another text came right after. Dreaming of jelly bells, it read.
I smiled, placed the rose ring on my nightstand, and went to sleep.
My mom and I had a routine for opening up the bakery. She handled the
kitchen—warming up the ovens, making the cupcake batter, unfreezing the
cannoli shells—while I set up the rest of the place. I unstacked the chairs, wiped
down the tables and counters, did another quick sweep of the floors, made sure
the register had change, and, when it was eight o’clock, flipped over the open
sign and unlocked the door. This morning there were two women waiting
outside right on the hour. They each had an order waiting for pickup. I called out
to let Mom know.
Sunday was the busiest day at the bakery. Mom said it was because of
Sunday dinners and how families all got together, had a huge meal, and ordered
pastries for dessert. I was kind of jealous that people did that. Both my parents
were only children, so I had no cousins, no aunts or uncles—nothing. My mom’s
parents both died when I was a kid. I could remember attending each of their
funerals and my parents not letting me see the bodies. I was too young, was what
they said. My dad’s parents were still alive, but they retired and moved down to
Florida years ago. Not that it matters. I doubt they’d want to see me either.
My mom came out with the women’s orders and they were on their way. She
was also holding a stack of pink papers in her hand. I took a closer look when
she placed them on the counter, in front of the cash register. They were flyers for
the bakery. Promotional flyers.
“Mom,” I said slowly, lifting one of them up. “What’s this for?”
“Business has been a little quiet lately, Bells. Try to hand those out to
customers, will you? Get the word out around town.”


Under the Hart’s Cupcakes logo, in small black text, it said, “Try a Free
Cannoli with Any Purchase.” “We’re handing out free stuff now?”
My mom wasn’t listening. She was bustling around, wiping nonexistent
crumbs off the counter.
“Mom.” I grabbed her hand, looked her in the eye. “What is it with these
flyers? Is business okay? Is there something you’re not telling me?”
“Becca,” she said, reaching out and adjusting my apron. She was smiling that
don’t-worry-about-it, everything-is-going-to-be-okay smile. “I’m simply trying
out a new strategy to bring in business. That’s it, hon. Don’t worry yourself.
We’re fine. Will you try to hand a few of them out? Place them in the bags with
the customers’ orders.”
I let out a breath. “Fine, Mom.” She blew me a kiss and disappeared into the
back. I didn’t read too much into it. If she said everything was fine, then
everything was fine.
I pulled out my calculus textbook and began studying. Every minute helped.
I was halfway through a chapter on exponents when the bell chimed. I closed my
textbook, plastered on my best employee smile, looked up, and immediately
froze. It was Jenny, walking up to the counter, eyes on me.
“My brother placed an order for this morning,” she said, crossing her arms
over her chest. She was wearing a baby-pink denim jacket that was way too
warm for weather like this.
“What name is the order under?” I asked, pulling out the sheet.
“Parker.”
I scanned the list, crossed off his name, called out to my mom, and then
tapped my fingers awkwardly on the counter.
“It’ll be a minute,” I said, opening up my textbook because I had nothing
else to do.
Jenny nodded, eyes scanning the bakery. “Your family owns this?” she
asked. Right. Our friendship ended before the bakery opened.
“My mom does.”
“How’s Brett?” she asked curiously.
It was weird. The tables had turned. I was the one with the boyfriend now.
“He’s fine,” I finally answered.
Silence stretched on. I wanted to sink into a hole and never return.
Jenny picked up one of the flyers. Playing with the corners, she said, “You
could have told me you were dating someone. Even though we’re not close
anymore . . . you still could have told me. I would have wanted to know.” She
sniffled, cleared her throat, and held up the flyer. “What is this?”
It took me a second to respond, a second to understand what she had just said


and brushed aside. “Mom’s trying to bring in new business,” I said.
“‘Try a free cannoli with any purchase,’” Jenny read. “Does that start
today?”
I shrugged. “Guess so.”
A century later, my mother walked in with Jenny’s order and whispered
“Flyers” to me before leaving. I tried my best to sneak one in the bag but Jenny
caught me midway.
“To spread the word,” I grumbled, holding out the bag for her. Her eyes
traveled from my face to the flyer and back again. The seconds dragged on.
Then she grabbed an entire stack of flyers, shoved them into her purse, and
left without another word.
“Was that Jennifer?” my mom asked, reappearing when the door shut.
“Yeah.”
“Wow. She looks so different. Are you two still friends?”
I could vividly remember telling her about my friendship breakup with
Jenny. But that was also after the summer she opened the bakery, so she had
other things on her mind.
“Not anymore.”
My mom nodded, patted my shoulder, said, “She took the flyers. Told you it
would work!” then disappeared into the back. To be fair, it wasn’t a guaranteed
success. For all I knew, we could have just witnessed paper theft. My mom
didn’t seem to care, though. I could hear the whiz of the blender and reopened
my textbook to continue studying.
The two hours flew by. Thankfully there were no more Eastwood High
student sightings, and as soon as the clock struck ten, I made my escape. I was
walking home with my headphones in when my feet did that thing again, where
they took me somewhere completely different than the place I’d originally
intended to go.
I walked down Main Street and took a left at the intersection. It was hotter
than normal, and I tied my hair up to keep it from sticking to my neck. Another
right turn and I was standing on my dad’s street. His house looked the same.
Except for a new sign on the lawn. It was a big pink stork, holding a swaddled
baby. Before I knew it, I was standing on the sidewalk, reading the

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