October 31
Grans had died the night before Halloween. Since then, even though it's been
four years, this has always been a sad time of year for me. For Mom, too,
though she doesn't always say it. Instead, she immerses herself in getting
August's costume ready, since we all know Halloween is his favorite time of
year.
This year was no different. August really wanted to be a
Star Wars
character
called Boba Fett, so Mom looked for a Boba Fett costume in August's size,
which, strangely enough, was out of stock everywhere. She went to every online
store, found a few on eBay that were going for an outrageous amount, and
finally ended up buying a Jango Fett costume that she then converted into a
Boba Fett costume by painting it green. I would say, in all, she must have spent
two weeks working on the stupid costume. And no, I won't mention the fact that
Mom has never made any of my costumes, because it really has no bearing on
anything at all.
The morning of Halloween I woke up thinking about Grans, which made me
really sad and weepy. Dad kept telling me to hurry up and get dressed, which
just stressed me out even more, and suddenly I started crying. I just wanted to
stay home.
So Dad took August to school that morning and Mom said I could stay home,
and the two of us cried together for a while. One thing I knew for sure: however
much I missed Grans, Mom must have missed her more. All those times August
was clinging to life after a surgery, all those rush trips to the ER: Grans had
always been there for Mom. It felt good to cry with Mom. For both of us. At some
point, Mom had the idea of our watching
The Ghost and Mrs. Muir
together,
which was one of our all-time favorite black-and white movies. I agreed that that
was a great idea. I think I probably would have used this weeping session as an
opportunity to tell Mom everything that was going on at school with Miranda and
Ella, but just as we were sitting down in front of the DVD player, the phone rang.
It was the nurse from August's school calling to tell Mom that August had a
stomach ache and should be picked up. So much for the old movies and the
mother-daughter bonding.
Mom picked August up, and the moment he came home, he went straight to the
bathroom and threw up. Then he went to his bed and pulled the covers over his
head. Mom took his temperature, brought him some hot tea, and assumed the
"August's mom" role again. "Via's mom," who had come out for a little while, was
put away. I understood, though: August was in bad shape.
Neither one of us asked him why he had worn his Bleeding Scream costume to
school instead of the Boba Fett costume Mom had made for him. If it annoyed
Mom to see the costume she had worked on for two weeks tossed on the floor,
unused, she didn't show it.
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