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Line 7.
the mind work I do, as it often
Line 8.
blocks what the feelings are speaking
Line 9.
to me.
Line 10.
I am really lucky.
This entry feels quite different as if the client is aware of a shift within herself. She perceives the
counsellor as good (line 1) which feels new and she left the session feeling „lighter‟ (line 1). She
emphasises this by the inverted comas as she does „taller‟ (line 2) and the whole phrase about
feeling empowered to do anything well enough (lines 2,3). The taller may imply that she has
grown as if internally she can stand tall and feel the power of her own sense of self which has not
felt so present before. She goes on to star two statements (line 4,6) as if she is using this new
found taller self to encourage herself. She also uses the first person, „I‟ five times in this short
entry which is the most she has used it in one entry through the whole journal, which again
makes her feel very present. The first starred phrase tells her that she is good (line 4) as if she
needs to remind (line 5) herself about how she is internally, and suggests that she struggles to
internalise a sense of self that is fundamentally good. But perhaps because the counsellor is now
perceived as good (line 1), she is beginning to take in some of that goodness for herself. The
second starred statement appears to exhort her to listen to her feelings (line 6) as if her feeling
self has previously been blocked (line 8) by her intellectual self. Yet now she recognizes that her
feelings have a voice for they speak (line 8) to her which suggests that more of herself is now
accessible. She ends with another realization that she is really lucky (line 10) as if this is new in
that she may have known this before but never been able to feel it.
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