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particularly. Perhaps there is a part of her that would like to
have enough self esteem and
confidence to have an affair (lines 5,6) or maybe she needs an affair with herself which is what
the counselling appears to offer – perhaps an affair between Beauty and the Beast. Yet it is after
this that she describes her sadness again so perhaps she is unsure about this. It seems she wants
to do life differently, or be herself differently (line 8) yet she says this is a need which suggests a
desire to change. In questioning how (line 9) to do this she appears to be telling herself what to
do next. She then seems to answer the question by saying that she wants to nurture herself and
her family more and reduce the energy invested in the partnership (line 11) with her husband as
if their relationship has been her main focus. Perhaps she has wanted more than he has been able
to give in that she may have wanted him to save her from her past (be her Beast) rather than
having to be her own Beast. An „affair‟ with herself may enable her to save herself. Perhaps she
needs to reduce the amount of energy that she spends on being the victim (Beauty) in her internal
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