'I'm very sorry to cause you this trouble,' he gasped. 'I suffer from a
disease of the heart, and sometimes I am very near death.'
'I'm glad that I was able to help you,' she said.
He seemed able to breathe more easily. She left him to himself for a
while, so that he might regain his strength. She took up a book and
began to read. Presently, without moving from his chair, he spoke.
'You must hate me for intruding on you.'
His voice
was stronger, and her pity waned as he seemed to recover.
She answered with freezing indifference.
'I couldn't do any less for you than I did. I would have brought a
dog into my room if it seemed hurt.'
'I see that you wish me to go.'
He got up and moved towards the door, but he staggered and with
a groan tumbled to his knees. Margaret sprang forward to help him.
She reproached herself bitterly for those scornful words. The man
had barely escaped death, and she was merciless.
'Oh, please
stay as long as you like,' she cried. 'I'm sorry, I didn't
mean to hurt you.'
He dragged himself with difficulty back to the chair, and she,
conscience-stricken, stood over him helplessly. She poured out a
glass of water, but he motioned it away as though he would not be
beholden to her even for that.
'Is there nothing I can do for you at all?' she exclaimed, painfully.
'Nothing, except allow me to sit in this chair,' he gasped.
'I hope you'll remain as long as you choose.'
He did not reply. She sat down again and pretended to read. In a
little while he began to speak. His voice
reached her as if from a
long way off.
'Will you never forgive me for what I did the other day?'
She answered without looking at him, her back still turned.
'Can it matter to you if I forgive or not?'
'You have not pity. I told you then how sorry I was that a sudden
uncontrollable pain drove me to do a thing which immediately I
bitterly regretted. Don't you think it must have been hard for me,
under the actual circumstances, to confess my fault?'
'I wish you not to speak of it. I don't want to think of that horrible
scene.'
'If you knew how lonely I was and how unhappy, you would have a
little mercy.'
His voice was strangely moved. She could not doubt now that he
was sincere.
'You think me a charlatan because I aim at things that are unknown
to you. You won't try to understand. You won't give me any credit
for striving with all my soul to a very great end.'
She made no reply, and for a time there was silence. His voice was
different now and curiously seductive.
'You look upon me with disgust and scorn. You almost persuaded
yourself to let me die in the street rather
than stretch out to me a
helping hand. And if you hadn't been merciful then, almost against
your will, I should have died.'
'It can make no difference to you how I regard you,' she whispered.
She did not know why his soft, low tones mysteriously wrung her
heartstrings. Her pulse began to beat more quickly.
'It makes all the difference in the world. It is horrible to think of
your contempt. I feel your goodness and your purity. I can hardly
bear my own unworthiness. You turn your eyes away from me as
though I were unclean.'
She turned her chair a little and looked at him. She was astonished
at the change in his appearance. His
hideous obesity seemed no
longer repellent, for his eyes wore a new expression; they were
incredibly tender now, and they were moist with tears. His mouth
was tortured by a passionate distress.
Margaret had never seen so
much unhappiness on a man's face, and an overwhelming remorse
seized her.
'I don't want to be unkind to you,' she said.
'I will go. That is how I can best repay you for what you have done.'
The words were so bitter, so humiliated, that the colour rose to her
cheeks.
'I ask you to stay. But let us talk of other things.'
For a moment he kept silence. He seemed no longer to see Margaret,
and she watched him thoughtfully. His eyes rested on a print of
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