The Fault in Our Stars

the urge to jump between them. Like, you just have to jump from rib cage to skull. Which
means that, second, the sculpture essentially forces children to play on bones. The
symbolic resonances are endless, Hazel Grace.”
“You do love symbols,” I said, hoping to steer the conversation back toward the
many symbols of the Netherlands at our picnic.
“Right, about that. You are probably wondering why you are eating a bad cheese
sandwich and drinking orange juice and why I am wearing the jersey of a Dutchman who
played a sport I have come to loathe.”
“It has crossed my mind,” I said.
“Hazel Grace, like so many children before you—and I say this with great affection
—you spent your Wish hastily, with little care for the consequences. The Grim Reaper was
staring you in the face and the fear of dying with your Wish still in your proverbial pocket,
ungranted, led you to rush toward the first Wish you could think of, and you, like so many
others, chose the cold and artificial pleasures of the theme park.”
“I actually had a great time on that trip. I met Goofy and Minn—”
“I am in the midst of a soliloquy! I wrote this out and memorized it and if you

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interrupt me I will completely screw it up,” Augustus interrupted. “Please to be eating
your sandwich and listening.” (The sandwich was inedibly dry, but I smiled and took a
bite anyway.) “Okay, where was I?”
“The artificial pleasures.”
He returned the cigarette to its pack. “Right, the cold and artificial pleasures of the
theme park. But let me submit that the real heroes of the Wish Factory are the young men
and women who wait like Vladimir and Estragon wait for Godot and good Christian girls
wait for marriage. These young heroes wait stoically and without complaint for their one
true Wish to come along. Sure, it may never come along, but at least they can rest easily in
the grave knowing that they’ve done their little part to preserve the integrity of the Wish as
an idea.
“But then again, maybe it will come along: Maybe you’ll realize that your one true
Wish is to visit the brilliant Peter Van Houten in his Amsterdamian exile, and you will be
glad indeed to have saved your Wish.”
Augustus stopped speaking long enough that I figured the soliloquy was over. “But I
didn’t save my Wish,” I said.
“Ah,” he said. And then, after what felt like a practiced pause, he added, “But I saved
mine.”
“Really?” I was surprised that Augustus was Wish-eligible, what with being still in
school and a year into remission. You had to be pretty sick for the Genies to hook you up
with a Wish.
“I got it in exchange for the leg,” he explained. There was all this light on his face; he
had to squint to look at me, which made his nose crinkle adorably. “Now, I’m not going to
give you my Wish or anything. But I also have an interest in meeting Peter Van Houten,
and it wouldn’t make sense to meet him without the girl who introduced me to his book.”
“It definitely wouldn’t,” I said.
“So I talked to the Genies, and they are in total agreement. They said Amsterdam is
lovely in the beginning of May. They proposed leaving May third and returning May
seventh.”
“Augustus, really?”
He reached over and touched my cheek and for a moment I thought he might kiss me.
My body tensed, and I think he saw it, because he pulled his hand away.
“Augustus,” I said. “Really. You don’t have to do this.”
“Sure I do,” he said. “I found my Wish.”
“God, you’re the best,” I told him.
“I bet you say that to all the boys who finance your international travel,” he
answered.

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