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entry. She almost seems to be testing out her own sense of power in the writing. She also feels
hollow as if separateness and difference to others is to overwhelming to feel.
Her desire for
containment appears to be shown in her feeling validated and understood by the counsellor.
Week 9.
Line 1.
Tired, not well - neck.
Line 2.
Loss
issues
Line 3.
Not good at „no‟ + taking care (self)
Line 4.
Doing / seeing things differently.
Line 5.
No longer feel / see as „my responsibility‟
Line 6.
New / confusing / hard „to be‟.
Line 7.
College - where is group safety?
Line 8.
Facilitator - created it?
Line 9.
Not
able to trust group to be
Line 10.
there to support my + their
Line 11.
learning. Pain. Anger.
The client writes that she is tired and not well in this entry and there is a suggestion that there is
something wrong with her neck (line 1). This could suggest that there is a struggle between her
thinking self and her feeling self in that the neck connects the thinking head to the feeling body.
Like the doll in week six it seems there is a disconnection (week 6;line 2) between her thinking
and feeling self. She appears to be aware of issues of loss (line 2) but goes on to say that she is
no good at saying „no‟ and taking care of her self (line 3) as if the part of her that tries to deal
with the loss is not taken care of. Yet she goes on to say that she is doing things differently (line
4) which seems to oppose the previous two lines. There is something that she no longer sees as
her responsibility (line 5) which suggests that part of her is trying to take care of herself. But at
the same time this new (line 6) way of seeing and feeling is confusing (line 6) and she seems to
find it hard to be this way. She wonders where the group safety is at college (line 7) and then
questions if the facilitator created the safety (line 8). Perhaps this question
suggests that she is
wondering how she can facilitate her own safety. It seems she is aware of the safety in the group
yet is unable to trust them (line 9) to support her learning and theirs (lines 10,11). Perhaps the
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group represents different aspects of herself which could indicate that
she is still struggling to
trust her counsellor and the process of therapy. She ends with pain and anger written separately
as if one word sentences. This adds power to the words and seems to speak of the depth of her
feelings.
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