taken some precautions to prevent them from
coming around on trifling
matters. But this kind of smoke screen was necessary and effective only
so long as he was healthy and able to stand the work of shoveling sand.
It was not worth the risk of hiding a seriously sick person who had
been laid up a week as he had. If they decided he was useless, it would
be advisable for them to dispose of him at once before it became too
troublesome. At this point, they could cook up a story. They might say
that he had been seized by strange hallucinations caused by the shock
of having fallen by himself into the hole, and this explanation would be
far more acceptable than his own fantastic
complaints that he had been
trapped and imprisoned.
Somewhere a cock crowed and a bull lowed shrilly. But in the sand
hollow there was neither distance nor direction. The ordinary normal
world was outside, where children played, kicking stones along the
roadside, and where roosters proclaimed the end of night at the proper
time. The colors of dawn were beginning to mingle with the fragrance of
cooking rice.
And the woman was ardently scrubbing him. After a rough wiping with
a wet towel, she scoured him as if she were polishing window glass,
twisting the towel tightly until it was like a piece of wood.
In addition to
the sounds of morning, the rhythmical sensation of the rubbing brought
him little by little to an irresistible drowsiness.
"By the way…" He stifled a yawn which seemed to be forcibly wrenched
from within him. "It's been such a long time… I would like to see a
newspaper. What do you think…? Do you suppose there would be any
way of getting one?"
"Well… I'll ask… later."
He realized very well that she was trying to show she was sincere. He
was distinctly sensitive to her concern lest she hurt his feelings, which
showed in the diffident tone of her voice. But it also irritated him
profoundly. Would she really ask? Didn't he have the right to read a
newspaper if he liked? He pushed her hands away, railing against her,
carried away by an impulse to upset the washbasin and its contents.
But getting angry at this point would spoil things.
A seriously ill person
would hardly get so excited over a newspaper. Of course, he did want
to see a paper. If there was no scenery to look at, it was only natural to
want to see pictures of scenery at least. He had read in various books
how landscape painting had developed in naturally spare country and
how newspapers had come out of industrial areas where human
relations were anonymous. Moreover, he might have the luck to find
announcements of missing people; or, better yet,
an article on his own
disappearance might even grace a corner of the social columns. Of
course, the villagers could not be expected to pass him willingly a
newspaper which carried an article like that. In any case, patience was
the most important thing now.
Certainly, pretending to be ill was no fun. It was like holding a taut
spring enclosed in your hand. You couldn't stand it indefinitely. He
could not let things go on as they were. He must really make them
realize how responsible they were for him. He would see to it, starting
this very day, that one way or another the woman would not get a wink
of sleep!
(Don't sleep… I You mustn't go to sleep!) He stretched and gave a long,
drawn-out groan.
12
UNDER the umbrella that the woman had
set up for him he sipped a
tongue-burning soup containing bits of seaweed. A precipitate of sand
remained in the bottom of the cup.
His memory had completely stopped functioning. Then it had gotten
confused with a long, oppressive dream. In the dream he was astride an
old, used chopstick, floating down some unknown street. It was not
bad on the chop-stick, rather like riding a scooter, but when he relaxed
his attention he suddenly lost his buoyancy. The street was a dull red
near at hand, and in the distance a hazy green. Something in the
combination of colors disturbed him. At
last he arrived at a long
wooden building that looked like a barracks. The smell of cheap soap
floated in the air. He mounted the stairs, hitching up his trousers,
which seemed about to slip off, and came to an empty room containing
only a long, narrow table. About ten men and women were seated
around the table enthusiastically playing some game. The player in the
center was dealing cards from a deck. At the end of the deal, the dealer
suddenly gave
him
the last card and cried out. He took the card
involuntarily
and looked at it; it was not a card at all, but a letter. The
letter had a strange, soft feel to it. When he exerted pressure with his
fingers, blood came spurting up. He screamed out and awoke.
His vision was obscured by a dingy, mistlike film. There was a crackling
noise of dry paper as he moved his body. His face was covered with an
open newspaper. Damn! He had fallen asleep again. A film of sand fell
from the surface of the paper when he brushed it aside. From the
quantity of sand it would seem that quite some time had gone by. The
slant of the sun's rays piercing through the cracks in the wall told him it
was about noon. But what was that smell? he wondered. New ink?
Impossible, he thought, yet he glanced at the date line.
Wednesday, the
sixteenth. It really was today's paper! It was unbelievable, but it was
true. Then the woman must have passed along his request.
He propped himself up with an elbow on the mattress, which had
become sodden and sticky with perspiration. All kinds of thoughts at
once began to whirl around in his mind, and he tried in vain to follow
the print on the long-awaited paper.
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