"The Unbearable Lightness Of Being" By Milan Kundera
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Insofar as it is possible to divide people into categories, the surest criterion is the deep-
seated desires that orient them to one or another lifelong activity. Every Frenchman is
different. But all actors the world over are similar—in Paris, Prague, or the back of
beyond. An actor is someone who in early childhood consents to exhibit himself for the
rest of his life to an anonymous public. Without that basic consent, which has nothing to
do with talent, which goes deeper than talent, no one can become an actor. Similarly, a
doctor is someone who consents to spend his life involved with human bodies and all
that they entail. That basic consent (and not talent or skill) enables him to enter the
dissecting room during the first year of medical school and persevere for the requisite
number of years.
Surgery takes the basic imperative of the medical profession to its outermost border,
where the human makes contact with the divine. When a person is clubbed violently on
the head, he collapses and stops breathing. Some day, he will stop breathing anyway.
Murder simply hastens a bit what God will eventually see to on His own. God, it may be
assumed, took murder into account; He did not take surgery into account. He never
suspected that someone would dare to stick his hand into the mechanism He had
invented, wrapped carefully in skin, and sealed away from human eyes. When Tomas
first positioned his scalpel on the skin of a man asleep under an anesthetic, then
breached the skin with a decisive incision, and finally cut it open with a precise and
even stroke (as if it were a piece of fabric—a coat, a skirt, a curtain), he experienced a
brief but intense feeling of blasphemy. Then again, that was what attracted him to it!
That was the
Es muss sein!
rooted deep inside him, and it was planted there not by
chance, not by the chief's sciatica, or by anything external.
But how could he take something so much a part of him and cast it off so fast, so
forcefully, and so lightly?
He would respond that he did it so as not to let the police misuse him. But to be quite
frank, even if it was theoretically possible (and even if a number of cases have actually
occurred), it was not too likely that the police would make public a false statement over
his signature.
Granted, a man has a right to fear dangers that are less than likely to occur. Granted,
he was annoyed with himself and at his clumsiness, and desired to avoid further
contact with the police and the concomitant feeling of helplessness. And granted, he
had lost his profession anyway, because the mechanical aspirin-medicine he practiced
at the clinic had nothing in common with his concept of medicine. Even so, the way he
rushed into his decision seems rather odd to me. Could it perhaps conceal something
else, something deeper that escaped his reasoning?
Even though he came to love Beethoven through Tereza, Tomas was not particularly
knowledgeable about music, and I doubt that he knew the true story behind
Beethoven's famous
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