Es muss sein!
What remains of Franz?
An inscription reading A RETURN AFTER LONG WANDERINGS.
And so on and so forth. Before we are forgotten, we will be turned into kitsch. Kitsch is
the stopover between being and oblivion.
PART SEVEN
Karenin's Smile
The window looked out on a slope overgrown with the crooked bodies of apple trees.
The woods cut off the view above the slope, and a crooked line of hills stretched into
the distance. When, towards evening, a white moon made its way into the pale sky,
Tereza would go and stand on the threshold. The sphere hanging in the not yet
darkened sky seemed like a lamp they had forgotten to turn off in the morning, a lamp
that had burned all day in the room of the dead.
None of the crooked apple trees growing along the slope could ever leave the spot
where it had put down its roots, just as neither Tereza nor Tomas could ever leave their
village. They had sold their car, their television set, and their radio to buy a tiny cottage
and garden from a farmer who was moving to town.
Life in the country was the only escape open to them, because only in the country was
there a constant deficit of people and a surplus of living accommodations. No one
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bothered to look into the political past of people willing to go off and work in the fields or
woods; no one envied them.
Tereza was happy to abandon the city, the drunken barflies molesting her, and the
anonymous women leaving the smell of their groins in Tomas's hair. The police stopped
pestering them, and the incident with the engineer so merged with the scene on Petrin
Hill that she was hard put to tell which was a dream and which the truth. (Was the
engineer in fact employed by the secret police? Perhaps he was, perhaps not. Men who
use borrowed flats for rendezvous and never make love to the same woman twice are
not so rare.)
In any case, Tereza was happy and felt that she had at last reached her goal: she and
Tomas were together and alone. Alone? Let me be more precise: living alone meant
breaking with all their former friends and acquaintances, cutting their life in two like a
ribbon; however, they felt perfectly at home in the company of the country people they
worked with, and they sometimes exchanged visits with them.
The day they met the chairman of the local collective farm at the spa that had Russian
street names, Tereza discovered in herself a picture of country life originating in
memories of books she had read or in her ancestors. It was a harmonious world;
everyone came together in one big happy family with common interests and routines:
church services on Sundays, a tavern where the men could get away from their
womenfolk, and a hall in the tavern where a band played on Saturdays and the villagers
danced.
Under Communism, however, village life no longer fit the age-old pattern. The church
was in the neighboring village, and no one went there; the tavern had been turned into
offices, so the men had nowhere to meet and drink beer, the young people nowhere to
dance. Celebrating church holidays was forbidden, and no one cared about their
secular replacements. The nearest cinema was in a town fifteen miles away. So, at the
end of a day's work filled with boisterous shouting and relaxed chatter, they would all
shut themselves up within their four walls and, surrounded by contemporary furniture
emanating bad taste like a cold draft, stare at the refulgent television screen. They
never paid one another visits besides dropping in on a neighbor for a word or two
before supper. They all dreamed of moving into town. The country offered them nothing
in the way of even a minimally interesting life.
Perhaps it was the fact that no one wished to settle there that caused the state to lose
its power over the countryside. A farmer who no longer owns his own land and is
merely a laborer tilling the soil forms no allegiance to either region or work; he has
nothing to lose, nothing to fear for. As a result of such apathy, the countryside had
maintained more than a modicum of autonomy and freedom. The chairman of the
collective farm was not brought in from outside (as were all high-level managers in the
city); he was elected by the villagers from among themselves.
Because everyone wanted to leave, Tereza and Tomas were in an exceptional position:
they had come voluntarily. If the other villagers took advantage of every opportunity to
make day trips to the surrounding towns, Tereza and Tomas were content to remain
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where they were, which meant that before long they knew the villagers better than the
villagers knew one another.
The collective farm chairman became a truly close friend. He had a wife, four children,
and a pig he raised like a dog. The pig's name was Mefisto, and he was the pride and
main attraction of the village. He would answer his master's call and was always clean
and pink; he paraded about on his hoofs like a heavy-thighed woman in high heels.
When Karenin first saw Mefisto, he was very upset and circled him, sniffing, for a long
time. But he soon made friends with him, even to the point of preferring him to the
village dogs. Indeed, he had nothing but scorn for the dogs, because they were all
chained to their doghouses and never stopped their silly, unmotivated barking. Karenin
correctly assessed the value of being one of a kind, and I can state without compunc-
tion that he greatly appreciated his friendship with the pig.
The chairman was glad to be able to help his former surgeon, though at the same time
sad that he could do nothing more. Tomas became the driver of the pickup truck that
took the farm workers out to the fields and hauled equipment.
The collective farm had four large cow sheds as well as a small stable of forty heifers.
Tereza was charged with looking after them and taking them out to pasture twice a day.
Because the closer, easily accessible meadows would eventually be mowed, she had
to take her herd into the surrounding hills for grazing, gradually moving farther and
farther out and, in the course of the year, covering all the pastureland round about. As
in her small-town youth, she was never without a book, and the minute she reached the
day's pasture she would open it and read.
Karenin always kept her company. He learned to bark at the young cows when they got
too frisky and tried to go off on their own; he did so with obvious zest. He was definitely
the happiest of the three. Never before had his position as keeper of the clock been so
respected. The country was no place for improvisation; the time in which Tereza and
Tomas lived was growing closer to the regularity of his time.
One day, after lunch (a time when they both had an hour to themselves), they took a
walk with Karenin up the slope behind their cottage.
I don't like the way he's running, said Tereza.
Karenin was limping on a hind leg. Tomas bent down and carefully felt all along it. Near
the hock he found a small bump.
The next day he sat him in the front seat of the pickup and drove, during his rounds, to
the neighboring village, where the local veterinarian lived. A week later, he paid him
another visit. He came home with the news that Karenin had cancer.
Within three days, Tomas himself, with the vet in attendance, had operated on him.
When Tomas brought him home, Karenin had not quite come out of the anesthesia. He
lay on the rug next to their bed with his eyes open, whimpering, his thigh shaved bare
and the incision and six stitches painfully visible.
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At last he tried to stand up. He failed.
Tereza was terrified that he would never walk again.
Don't worry, said Tomas. He's still under the anesthetic.
She tried to pick him up, but he snapped at her. It was the first time he'd ever tried to
bite Tereza!
He doesn't know who you are, said Tomas. He doesn't recognize you.
They lifted him onto their bed, where he quickly fell asleep, as did they.
At three o'clock that morning, he suddenly woke them up, wagging his tail and climbing
all over them, cuddling up to them, unable to have his fill.
It was the first time he'd ever got them up, too! He had always waited until one of them
woke up before he dared jump on them.
But when he suddenly came to in the middle of the night, he could not control himself.
Who can tell what distances he covered on his way back? Who knows what phantoms
he battled? And now that he was at home with his dear ones, he felt compelled to share
his overwhelming joy, a joy of return and rebirth.
The very beginning of Genesis tells us that God created man in order to give him
dominion over fish and fowl and all creatures. Of course, Genesis was written by a
man, not a horse. There is no certainty that God actually did grant man dominion over
other creatures. What seems more likely, in fact, is that man invented God to sanctify
the dominion that he had usurped for himself over the cow and the horse. Yes, the right
to kill a deer or a cow is the only thing all of mankind can agree upon, even during the
bloodiest of wars.
The reason we take that right for granted is that we stand at the top of the hierarchy.
But let a third party enter the game—a visitor from another planet, for example,
someone to whom God says, Thou shalt have dominion over creatures of all other stars
—and all at once taking Genesis for granted becomes problematical. Perhaps a man
hitched to the cart of a Martian or roasted on the spit by inhabitants of the Milky Way
will recall the veal cutlet he used to slice on his dinner plate and apologize (belatedly!)
to the cow.
Walking along with her heifers, driving them in front of her, Tereza was constantly
obliged to use discipline, because young cows are frisky and like to run off into the
fields. Karenin kept her company. He had been going along daily to the pasture with her
for two years. He always enjoyed being strict with the heifers, barking at them,
asserting his authority. (His God had given him dominion over cows, and he was proud
of it.) Today, however, he was having great trouble making his way, and hobbled along
on three legs; the fourth had a wound on it, and the wound was festering. Tereza kept
bending down and stroking his back. Two weeks after the operation, it became clear
that the cancer had continued to spread and that Karenin would fare worse and worse.
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Along the way, they met a neighbor who was hurrying off to a cow shed in her rubber
boots. The woman stopped long enough to ask, What's wrong with the dog? It seems to
be limping. He has cancer, said Tereza. There's no hope. And the lump in her throat
kept her from going on. The woman noticed Tereza's tears and nearly lost her temper:
Good heavens! Don't tell me you're going to bawl your head off over a dog! She was
not being vicious; she was a kind woman and merely wanted to comfort Tereza. Tereza
understood, and had spent enough time in the country to realize that if the local
inhabitants loved every rabbit as she loved Karenin, they would be unable to kill any of
them and they and their animals would soon starve to death. Still, the woman's words
struck her as less than friendly. I understand, she answered without protest, but quickly
turned her back and went her way. The love she bore her dog made her feel cut off,
isolated. With a sad smile, she told herself that she needed to hide it more than she
would an affair. People are indignant at the thought of someone loving a dog. But if the
neighbor had discovered that Tereza had been unfaithful to Tomas, she would have
given Tereza a playful pat on the back as a sign of secret solidarity.
Be that as it may, Tereza continued on her path, and, watching her heifers rub against
one another, she thought what nice animals they were. Calm, guileless, and sometimes
childishly animated, they looked like fat fifty-year-olds pretending they were fourteen.
There was nothing more touching than cows at play. Tereza took pleasure in their
antics and could not help thinking (it is an idea that kept coming back to her during her
two years in the country) that man is as much a parasite on the cow as the tapeworm is
on man: We have sucked their udders like leeches. Man the cow parasite is probably
how non-man defines man in his zoology books.
Now, we may treat this definition as a joke and dismiss it with a condescending laugh.
But since Tereza took it seriously, she found herself in a precarious position: her ideas
were dangerous and distanced her from the rest of mankind. Even though Genesis
says that God gave man dominion over all animals, we can also construe it to mean
that He merely entrusted them to man's care. Man was not the planet's master, merely
its administrator, and therefore eventually responsible for his administration. Descartes
took a decisive step forward: he made man
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