Seduction: Dating From Shy Guy To Ladies Man Dating For Men Memoirs Of a male Seducer: Social Anxiety, Attract Women, Sex, Confidence, Charisma

How I Went From Lovable Loser to Dating 3
Women a Week
 
10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR!
I was in a room full of people, 'friends', acquaintances, women and men. As
everyone celebrated with each other, kisses were shared, hugs were
delivered, and there I stood, completely alone. Although I did not want to
make people sick with how sad it was, so I slapped a giant grin across my
face as I was so used to doing, to hide the sadness and depression which
governed my life at that time.
I rang in 2010 with a deep and profound realization...'I do not fucking care
anymore'
I spent the previous years of my life under immense stress to be 50 different
people, depending on what I felt would make the individual like me the most.
I had completely lost any idea of who I was, or who I might be. This resulted
in my immune system packing in, and getting very ill on a regular basis with

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swollen glands in my neck. I put this down to all the frustration and anger
towards life building up in my throat.
I had the epiphany that nothing is worth this pain, anxiety, depression, and
consistent loneliness. How on earth did I expect any woman to be with me, if
I did not even know who 'me' was?
I had hit rock bottom.
I had two options, to end it all, as nothing was worth continuing this agony, or
decided to try one more thing...stop giving a fuck and be the guy who has
nothing to lose.
This was the beginning of my life, I was re-born.
As I was so terrified of what people thought of me and if they liked me or
not, this was the first issue I had to deal with. How? By making an agreement
with myself.
If I felt angry...BE ANGRY! Don't hide it. I gave myself permission to be a
grumpy asshole.
If I felt sad...BE SAD! Cry, sob, sulk, externalize how I felt.
I had bottled up SO much shit for years that when I began to do this...the old
Chris everybody knew, disappeared. I was no longer that forcefully smiley
guy. I stopped attempting to force my naturally introverted self to be
extroverted. I stopped being accommodating to everyone, and I chose to be
entirely selfish, and firstly look after myself.
Now, I am in no way telling you to go and do all this. Because I am pretty
sure you are not as damaged as I was.
Through the process of allowing myself feel and express, something
happened. I lost friends I had for many years. Why? Because I no longer
filled my role within the group dynamic. I moved on.