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(line 2) within her, as if realizing that being full of projections from others makes her internal
world confusing as it may be difficult to tell what belongs to her and what belongs to the other.
She seems to be testing (line 3) what is hers and coming to feel that she has more understanding
of herself (line 3). She appears to have gained a sense of having a right to live, be, feel and do as
if this has been difficult previously. But she follows this with feelings of confusion (line 5) again
as if these rights are hard to hold on to. Then she seems to say that when she is stuck she escapes
from her feeling self and escapes to her brain where she analyses feelings (line 6) perhaps rather
than experiencing them. She appears to feel that there is a battle within her internal world
between her newfound belief in herself (line 7) and the negative drivers (line 8) from the past.
This form of sabotage (line 7) against her new self is reinforced by messages of being a failure
(line 9). It feels as if she is much more aware of the different selves within her for example the
selves who feel that she has a right to be and feel and those who deliver negative messages from
the past. She seems to feel that this was a good session even though she felt some pain in her
chest (line 10) from the battle between these different aspects of herself . She names this as the
pull of two polarities (line 11) as if she is, and perhaps has been aware of the theme of the study.
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