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(line 6) from the previous week which she experiences as accepted (line7) by the counsellor.
Having been honest, perhaps more importantly with herself than with the counsellor, she
experiences what she calls „mixed high emotions, anger!‟ (line 8). She feels a need to protect her
own space (line 9) as if something feels intrusive. She then presents an image „Bicycle, gutter,
shudder fall‟(line10). It seems she is feeling as if she had just fallen off the „bicycle‟ of
counselling so perhaps this is what the missed session now feels like. She recognizes her need to
„get on‟ (line 11) again as if she is aware of losing something if she does not. And she ends by
saying that the boundaries feel tight (line 12) as if she has returned to the feelings noted in earlier
weeks (week 2, 3).
The interpretation of the entry links it to the whole context of the journal as it notes links to a
missed a session, a death, funeral and earlier entries. It is the metaphor of falling off a bicycle
that helps confirm the construct of overcontained-overfree for she uses the word „shudder‟ which
feels like an internal agitated movement. She also refers to the „tightness‟ of the counselling
boundaries as if she feels hemmed in by them rather than freed or held safely. This is perhaps a
reflection of the overcontained-overfree state of her internal world that holds the feelings and
opinions of others rather than her own voice.
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