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The opposition felt in being powerful gives a sense of dynamic movement to this entry as if the
client is finding the freedom to feel a greater range of emotions along with the ability to contain
and express herself. She discovers containment in the metaphor of the apple. Yet there is also
freedom in the power of being whole
for she is all of the apple, or all of the different parts of
herself.
Week 20.
Line 1.
Ending to present work - rest + break 2
months
Line 2.
“if given £50 note - may even spend it”.
Line 3.
Taking time to care for self - really care
Line 4.
eg health, strength + time to be!
Line 5.
A difficult year at home + college.
Line 6.
Perhaps I did
not fully recognize
Line 7.
how much energy I invested or
Line 8.
was depleted from me.
Line 9.
renaming guilt - what else is it eg
Line 10.
over-responsibility / is this positive for me.
Line 11.
Taking care of myself - finding the balance.
The client is taking a break (line 1) from counselling for two months (line 1) and this appears to
be her last session before the break. In quotes she writes that if given a £50 note she may spend
(line 2) it as if there is a sense of freedom in this break. She seems to really want to take the time
to care for herself (line3) as if to gain in strength and health and time to be (line 4). This suggests
that she feels freer to care for herself as if being might replace doing (week 15;line 8) for others
with simply being. She appears to look back over the previous
year which she describes as
difficult at home and college (line 5). She wonders if she has not realized how much energy she
invested (lines 6,7) in college or how much was depleted (line 8) or taken from her. She seems to
think that she is renaming her guilt (line 9), as if she is becoming aware that she was not
responsible for the abuse she suffered. She renames this guilt over-responsibility and sees this as
a positive (line 10) change in herself. She ends by stating that she is taking care of herself and
finding the balance (line 11). Finding the balance may suggest that she is aware of having judged
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herself negatively and not been able to see herself in a positive light.
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