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which she seems to use to put herself in the role of victim (line 3). She senses that this role was
dumped (line 4) on her as if she realizes that this is what the abuser did to her when she was a
child. There is also the realization that she is not alone (line 6) but that the whole family are
struggling (line 5) which seems to be continued from the previous entry. Not being alone (line 6)
feels important as she did not tell about the abuse when it happened so she felt very isolated. She
appears to feel that the others in the family wear better masks (line 7) than her as if they have
been able to hide the fact that they were struggling too. Or she seems to wonder if they are just
alright (line 8) on the days when she does not feel alright (line 8). And this seems to make her
feel that she is perhaps „OK after all‟ as if this makes some sense to her. Perhaps she is only able
to feel alright when others do as if she is still not separate from others in her internal world. But
it is also possible that the family represent different aspects of herself that are just beginning to
come into awareness at an unconscious level as she writes the journal. She uses the word
synchronicity (line 9) again as if this feeling of oneness with herself and others is important to
her. The statements in line ten and eleven seem to be her way of validating what is going on in
her internal world, as if she is affirming the process of counselling for herself.
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